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Well, its been interesting. Ok, so thursday Laura came over and I got my schedule, and we went to the school and raised hell. Then Danielle came over and later mom took her to the school, to raise...more hell. We had like left over buffet for lunch and Dani braided my hair for extentions then we went out to buy Brandon's orange shirts and went to the mall. Then mom took us to MiCasita, Matthew stayed home cause well he was really tired. Then we got home and Phil and Rosa were here and it was lots of fun, and Dani finished my braids. Soon Laura and Dani left. I hung out with Rosa and Phil and it was alot of fun, but they to had to leave. That evening at like 11:30 I was talkin to Sara and she was telling me about her shopping and stuff and then was all "I feel like going some where, but not much it open this late" I was like "o" then she was all "do u want to go to the Waffle House with me" I was like sure, and mom said it was fine and I gave Sara my address. She got here about 12:30 because she got a little lost but its all good. She took me to Super Walmart then the Waffle house, where I ate alot. I had alot of fun talking and catching up with her. I got home about 2 in the morning. I then showered with a JCPenny's bag on my head "its all inside" lol! I had yarn extensions and braids, I then went to bed, to wake up about 7:30 in the morning. I was hot and irritated, so I go scizzors and tore through the yarn extentions and ripped the braids out my hair. Went downstairs where mom was, and went to the bathroom cause I felt sick. Then the fun. We got a call and they were like why isn't Travis here for his surgery. It was supposed to be July 8th but there was a mix up and after a billion calls it was either today or my fall break because they were filled till then. So I had 30 seconds to get ready, and Dad decided we should drop his truck of before hand. So mom drove, like...omg, and we took the truck and went to the hospital. I got all ready and like naked *underwear, sock, and the hospital gown*. I was shaking, and about to throw up, but my hair looked nice, it was all crimped. I told the nurse that last time I felt a little of the surgery, i'm not supposed to, so she said she would give me more of the happy drug. So I got it and they rolled me back. It wasn't enough. I felt the needle go in my eye lid, I felt cutting and burning, and everytime I complained the doctor put more numbing in my eyelid, it was like six shots, nothing helped. Some nurse held my hand and I was really glad, it helped. And the doctor is investigating this date mix up. But after I was in pain and before I wasn't, so they gave me Percocet and this time I have to take anti-bitotics. I got home and Dad got me Burger King and I called some people, kinda hoping. In the evening everyone left except me cause well i was medicated and just came out surgery, but i wanted the to have fun. I was trying to entertain myself and looked in the mirror and just cried, I feel so horrible to care this much about my looks, I feel so stupid. I'm kinda glad nobody came to see me today...Mom came home and I watched "finding neverland" with her, and now I write this. I feel like after all the pain that I could die, and I just feel sick, twisted, and fucked up. When I die I want to go to Neverland like in the movie. Dear Readers, I am honestly in tears, and some care but most dont, I just want you to know, don't give me comfort if you cant or dont want to because well...I dont mind. All this crying makes me tired and I feel like throwing up so I am going to bed. To die would be an awfully big adventure.