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school's starting again tomolo. and im seriously, NOT looking forward to it.
why why why didnt i work harder? sigh.
its so different, feel like an idiot now that i havnt treasured my past 2 years.
maybe this class will be awesome but im still having doubts about that. so yeah, it sucks. ttm.
im feeling ever so confused right now, like everything's gone wrong.
i hate the way everyone's fawning over SHINee now. dont get my wrong, they are my beloved, but the attention span on them seems like..the K-Wave.
i hate hate hate ppl who likes SHINee just only for a moment, and then forget all about them.
i hate hate hate hate ppl who pretend to know SHINee or other boybands like for all their lives and telling me about them when IM THE ONE TELLING THEM ALL ABOUT IT FOR THE PAST 2 YEARS.
i know, i know. i shouldnt be jealous of ppl who are able to welcome them at the airport, go to their fan-signing, get a taxi and chase them all over SG, go to their concert etc.
but sometimes, it makes me feel what it would be like if my family is rich and i have all the abilties to do all of it.
what will it feel like? O_O
shouldnt douse myself in self-pity cuz of whats happening at Haiti. but i cant. just cant. lemme surround myself in self-pity, just once :/
im fat fat fat. okie, 157 & 50kg. i NEED to lose 5kg by CNY. I NEED TO. i cant remain as a fucking fatass forever.
even though my friends tell me that im okay, im average, i dont feel like one. i feel FAT. gah.
back to the SHINee topic, i really really wanna go. but i alr got their CD, so no point getting another one at CCK, and entitled to only ONE miserable autograph.
some rule that is huh.
and im broke. cant stop splurging. i only have a $50 note left. excluding coins of course.
still need to return money. bought leggings & a pair of flats @ Cotton On yesterday with the softballers <3
i love the softballers a lot, they are the only ones that can really, really understand me. and the only ones that i can be ME to them.
hai.
and am getting a e-pop that features SHINee. yes yes, i know i shouldnt spend money on whatsit. but i just cant!
have all their albums, except SHINee World Ver. B, all the posters, photobooks. i want their calander real badly.
i think the softballers are getting that for me. that or the SHINee DVD collection that i would really love to get but dont have enough money to.
another reason why i love them. bcuz they know what i want.
and i keep spending money on bracelets & necklace. hai. i need to keep myself i check.
5kg off by CNY, possible? D:
why why why didnt i work harder? sigh.
its so different, feel like an idiot now that i havnt treasured my past 2 years.
maybe this class will be awesome but im still having doubts about that. so yeah, it sucks. ttm.
im feeling ever so confused right now, like everything's gone wrong.
i hate the way everyone's fawning over SHINee now. dont get my wrong, they are my beloved, but the attention span on them seems like..the K-Wave.
i hate hate hate ppl who likes SHINee just only for a moment, and then forget all about them.
i hate hate hate hate ppl who pretend to know SHINee or other boybands like for all their lives and telling me about them when IM THE ONE TELLING THEM ALL ABOUT IT FOR THE PAST 2 YEARS.
i know, i know. i shouldnt be jealous of ppl who are able to welcome them at the airport, go to their fan-signing, get a taxi and chase them all over SG, go to their concert etc.
but sometimes, it makes me feel what it would be like if my family is rich and i have all the abilties to do all of it.
what will it feel like? O_O
shouldnt douse myself in self-pity cuz of whats happening at Haiti. but i cant. just cant. lemme surround myself in self-pity, just once :/
im fat fat fat. okie, 157 & 50kg. i NEED to lose 5kg by CNY. I NEED TO. i cant remain as a fucking fatass forever.
even though my friends tell me that im okay, im average, i dont feel like one. i feel FAT. gah.
back to the SHINee topic, i really really wanna go. but i alr got their CD, so no point getting another one at CCK, and entitled to only ONE miserable autograph.
some rule that is huh.
and im broke. cant stop splurging. i only have a $50 note left. excluding coins of course.
still need to return money. bought leggings & a pair of flats @ Cotton On yesterday with the softballers <3
i love the softballers a lot, they are the only ones that can really, really understand me. and the only ones that i can be ME to them.
hai.
and am getting a e-pop that features SHINee. yes yes, i know i shouldnt spend money on whatsit. but i just cant!
have all their albums, except SHINee World Ver. B, all the posters, photobooks. i want their calander real badly.
i think the softballers are getting that for me. that or the SHINee DVD collection that i would really love to get but dont have enough money to.
another reason why i love them. bcuz they know what i want.
and i keep spending money on bracelets & necklace. hai. i need to keep myself i check.
5kg off by CNY, possible? D: