In which everything is done.

[shiningthru]

Why do you do this?
Why does this have to happen like this?
if only.
if only you didn't do the things you do.
if only bad things didn't happen.
if only you didn't do bad things.
STOP THE FUCKING LYING.
everything would get better if you only told me the truth.
your mother tells the truth.
it's the only way I can learn it.
you wonder why I talk to her?
it's because she says the truth.
she talks to me because I tell the truth.
trust and honesty
they make up so much of a relationship.
do what you said you would do.
actually change.
actually be the person I know you can be.
I want that person.

people never change.
maybe for a minute, or an hour, even a day
but never all the way in the end.

and that's where we lay right?
sometimes we shit where we sleep
sometimes we shit where we shit.
sometimes shits everywhere

well...

shits everywhere.
someone has to clean it up.
it'll probably be me.
it's always me.

sometimes I wish people would understand all that I do.
what the fuck am I talking about sometimes?
all the time really.

I give so much and I don't receive.
It's getting ridiculous.
I'm so taken advantage of it's insane.
I always go back though
it's almost like I like it.

everything is fucked.
it's 10:32 and I think I'll go to bed.
maybe.
probably not.