In which I think too much
I look around me and what surrounds me?
Rhinestones and stolen things.
Things to keep me busy.
Not much to show for the past twelve months.
Threes.
In three months I lost most friends. In three months I gained thirty pounds.
In three months I lost pretty much everyhing.
But a year later... I have barely started to begin getting it back.
How do I trust, without trusting too much...like I did before?
What if I'm supposed to trust and I'm just going to push everyone away if I don't?
I'm just so confused on this matter.
I can't be myself anymore because I'll get hurt if I am I think.
I hope that anyone can see right through my wallls.
"You put you're arms around me and I'm home"
Right now I'm not sure if anyone can give me that.
"I beleive that it's easier for you to let me go"
Sounds more realisic.
"Go on and try to tear me down, I will be rising from the ground like a skyscraper"
Descibes my past year.
I really am thinking too much lately.
But then again when do I not think too much?
I just maybe should keep my distance.
But really, how long can I keep this up?
And until all of my broken heart beats...
I don't think anyone can ever undestand me.
And I don't think I can ever understand anyone.
Who, really, do I think I am?
Some kind of therapist?
I didn't write my own story,
or yours
or his
or hers.
I'm just following the story someones writing for me.
You'e probably writing my story.
I act like I'm strong enough to do everything
But I'm really scared of everything.
You fake it 'til you make it right?
Just tell me it's going to be okay.
Tell me I'll do fine in life.
Tell me I won't die next year,
And that I got thins bruise from
a table or something and my kidney didn't explode.
Tell me you're not going to leave.
And actually don't do it.
Follow through with you're promises.
If you say you're going to call me later do it. please.
Don't cut the ties with your knives of lies.
Don't throw it all away with every you say.
"Don't count the miles count the I love yous"
Rhinestones and stolen things.
Things to keep me busy.
Not much to show for the past twelve months.
Threes.
In three months I lost most friends. In three months I gained thirty pounds.
In three months I lost pretty much everyhing.
But a year later... I have barely started to begin getting it back.
How do I trust, without trusting too much...like I did before?
What if I'm supposed to trust and I'm just going to push everyone away if I don't?
I'm just so confused on this matter.
I can't be myself anymore because I'll get hurt if I am I think.
I hope that anyone can see right through my wallls.
"You put you're arms around me and I'm home"
Right now I'm not sure if anyone can give me that.
"I beleive that it's easier for you to let me go"
Sounds more realisic.
"Go on and try to tear me down, I will be rising from the ground like a skyscraper"
Descibes my past year.
I really am thinking too much lately.
But then again when do I not think too much?
I just maybe should keep my distance.
But really, how long can I keep this up?
And until all of my broken heart beats...
I don't think anyone can ever undestand me.
And I don't think I can ever understand anyone.
Who, really, do I think I am?
Some kind of therapist?
I didn't write my own story,
or yours
or his
or hers.
I'm just following the story someones writing for me.
You'e probably writing my story.
I act like I'm strong enough to do everything
But I'm really scared of everything.
You fake it 'til you make it right?
Just tell me it's going to be okay.
Tell me I'll do fine in life.
Tell me I won't die next year,
And that I got thins bruise from
a table or something and my kidney didn't explode.
Tell me you're not going to leave.
And actually don't do it.
Follow through with you're promises.
If you say you're going to call me later do it. please.
Don't cut the ties with your knives of lies.
Don't throw it all away with every you say.
"Don't count the miles count the I love yous"