Me = Dead
K, Corrine is probably never going to speak to me again after she reads this journal entry but I can't keep this in any longer.
I feel totally uncomfortable around Corrine and Jake when they are together. It's just so weird when they start kissing each other in front of me. I mean, one part of my brain is screaming ' Ahh, do you have no respect for the people around you?!' and the other part is telling me ' They're allowed to do that, they are boyfriend and girlfriend.' And those little voices make me so mad.
But sometimes, from the way they act, they act like they are 16, not 13. I mean.... my mom would kill me if she caught me kissing a boy right now. I mean, I honestly don't care if they like peck each other on the lips or whatever.... but they frickin make out!
And I want to tell Corrine all this * which I kind of am right now* but I'm so afraid she'll get mad at me and complain to Jake and then everyone will hate me and blah, blah, blah......
This whole day, I wished that I was at home, just hanging out with Corrine by myself. Not with Jake constantly following us around. Sheesh, he acted like he owned her or something. Everywhere I went and she came with me, here comes Jake tagging along and pratically shoving me aside, as he kisses her or hugs her. Can you imagine how hurt I felt?
But even if we were home, Corrine would just mope, I know it. She'd be all quiet and depressed, sad that she wouldn't be hanging out with Jake and that she was only hanging out with Becca. Arrgh.
What am I supposed to do? Maybe I'm just used to having things to myself. Maybe I'm kind of jealous that Corrine's attention is all on Jake now. Maybe.....
And now I felt really selfish for writing that. God, how self-absored do I sound? * wipes tear off*
Or maybe how I feel is good. Maybe it's how I'm supposed to feel. And when I learned a big secret about Corrine and Jake the other day, I just.... whoa.
Words cannot describe how I felt..... I can't say the secret here because I swore to secrecy and I am NOT breaking that promise! But it was a huge shock to me.
I guess I should just get used to Jake and Corrine ignoring me and being wrapped up in each other. *sigh* I hate this feeling.
Becca
P.S: Kyle was so nice to me today. I couldn't believe how sweet he was. When he saw that I was upset with Corrine and Jake, he went out and started talking to me and making me feel better. I am so lucky to have a cousin like Kyle. Me and him will always stick together.
Quote of the Day:
Ginny Weasley: Mummy, have you seen my jumper?
Molly Weasley: Yes, dear, it was on the cat.
- Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets * The Movie*