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This is the first time in my Cornell career that I really and truly wish I was home. The Jewish holidays are not the same without my family, or at least without people I love.
It wasn't really until last week that I realized that I don't have a lot Jewish friends. I understand that I don't have a lot of Jewish friends because the paths I choose don't overlap with a lot of Jewish things, yet in my heart I am Jewish, first and foremost. Maybe I'm a bad Jew for not involving myself with Cornell Hillel more, but I can't bring myself to feel comfortable there. The type of Judaism they practice is not what I believe in. I feel more comfortable and more real at Alpha Zeta or within the walls of Fernow then at the Center for Jewish Living. Hillel is not my community. So this leaves me in a quandary on the holidays. I wish I had observant Jewish friends, but I don't want to be involved in the activities that would allow my to have observant Jewish friends.
It wasn't really until last week that I realized that I don't have a lot Jewish friends. I understand that I don't have a lot of Jewish friends because the paths I choose don't overlap with a lot of Jewish things, yet in my heart I am Jewish, first and foremost. Maybe I'm a bad Jew for not involving myself with Cornell Hillel more, but I can't bring myself to feel comfortable there. The type of Judaism they practice is not what I believe in. I feel more comfortable and more real at Alpha Zeta or within the walls of Fernow then at the Center for Jewish Living. Hillel is not my community. So this leaves me in a quandary on the holidays. I wish I had observant Jewish friends, but I don't want to be involved in the activities that would allow my to have observant Jewish friends.