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this is a pretty good "fuck it" mood
but i have to stay calm, just got my new phone..
lets see.. the good
-VARSITY softball #19, plan for now is starting 2nd
that was really exciting..
this year seems more intense, especially with everyone leaving.
-i got my new phone finally, tho its my fault i didnt have it at all..
-my birthday is less than a month away
-the "1 year" is 2 weeks away
the bad
-im really behind with my math, and chem.
completly fucking up
-been really stressed: and taking it out on the last person i should
causing many ridiculous fights and damaged goods..
-my life is devoted to softball from not until july
-my managers are idiots and apparently cant read,
and some are just arrogant ass holes
so im scheduled to work tomorrow and i have practice
-next thursday is our first scrimmage
-i am hurt in so many places cause softballs kicking my ass
-fuct up over the weekend big time cause apparently im angry inside
-i have to read a 300 page book and do a 35 slide pp in 10 days. HA!
...
fine im done complaining/ venting tho i could go on forever
theres something missing in my life
something that keeps me from fucking up all the time
i lost that some time ago and really need that back
id really love to get away
or to find a way to get rid of all my stress, haha
someone tell me why i do the shit i do