arbitrary LJ decision!
LOL. I've been doing some thinking this weekend, and I have decided that, as much as I LOVE to write about all the "intrigue" that occasionally peppers my daily life, I think I'm going to stop keeping a personal journal here. At least one that's open anyway.
I think that even though I thought it was mostly a matter of keeping people up on what's going on with me, the conflict between doing that and writing freely to help sort out my thoughts is too great and I end up compromising myself, bringing more harm than good. I worry too much about what I write, and probably with good reason...too much of it is just way too personal. Plus, I've come to see that I've been using this journal as a crutch...a very debilitating one! I think it is time for me to learn to communicate with people who are a part of my life normally face to face, or over the phone, and spend more time with them rather than writing pages and pages and giving them access to it that I then expect them to do something with. I see now that for some reason, I've never really learned to communicate that way! I know I can do it, though, and since relationships are at the forefront of my life priorities this year, I'm going to strive for a goal of healthy relationships whether they be friendships, acquaintances, professional or of a romantic nature.
I hope that's okay with everyone (I don't see why it wouldn't be...less to read! lol) and I'll still probably update less-than-personal things and read the journals I'm allowed on, so I can keep up with you! But otherwise, I hope this endeavor will result in me picking up the phone more often to find out from YOU directly what is going on in your life, and I also hope for the same from your side. Isn't that really the way it should be?
Much love, LJ Pride, East SIDE! *giggle*
By the time I see anyone from this list again, I'm sure I'll already be leading a much more interesting life...it just seems to get better and better. ;P
I think that even though I thought it was mostly a matter of keeping people up on what's going on with me, the conflict between doing that and writing freely to help sort out my thoughts is too great and I end up compromising myself, bringing more harm than good. I worry too much about what I write, and probably with good reason...too much of it is just way too personal. Plus, I've come to see that I've been using this journal as a crutch...a very debilitating one! I think it is time for me to learn to communicate with people who are a part of my life normally face to face, or over the phone, and spend more time with them rather than writing pages and pages and giving them access to it that I then expect them to do something with. I see now that for some reason, I've never really learned to communicate that way! I know I can do it, though, and since relationships are at the forefront of my life priorities this year, I'm going to strive for a goal of healthy relationships whether they be friendships, acquaintances, professional or of a romantic nature.
I hope that's okay with everyone (I don't see why it wouldn't be...less to read! lol) and I'll still probably update less-than-personal things and read the journals I'm allowed on, so I can keep up with you! But otherwise, I hope this endeavor will result in me picking up the phone more often to find out from YOU directly what is going on in your life, and I also hope for the same from your side. Isn't that really the way it should be?
Much love, LJ Pride, East SIDE! *giggle*
By the time I see anyone from this list again, I'm sure I'll already be leading a much more interesting life...it just seems to get better and better. ;P