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I don't know what to do when my whole life feels like it's breaking apart. I think I'm sick; like something seriously wrong sick. I get dizzy everytime I stand up, I run out of breath randomly for no reason, and I almost fainted last night. My body feels like it's falling apart and I can't figure out why. Tim is distant and not his normal self. Aparently I'm not allowed to ask "what's wrong" so I just sit in silence, and so does he. I get no response when I try to be sweet and kind. He doesn't comfort me when I cry anymore. Something's different but he won't talk, and frankly I'm sick of tryng to figure it out. I guess this is what happens when you get pregnant after only daing 3 months. I don't think he really wants to marry me; he still says he does but you know the saying, actions speak louder than words. I don't remember the last time Tim did something really sweet. I feel like I probably ruined his life and he tried to be happy for the first couple of months but now he just resents me. Who knows; I am awfully hormonal these days and could just be over analyzing the situation. My mom is trying to live my life for me and it's driving me nuts. I know she's just trying to help because she's more experienced than me but it's overwhelming and only causing more stress. I'm never hungry anymore and I cry everyday, I'm quite possitive that I've never been more stressed and overwhelmed in my entire life. Fuck this....