Lovers && Friends
so i'm not doing anything rite now except coughing up a thunder storm.
+ so yesterday night i made someone upset. by telling the truth of her special someone that she cares about. it hurt me to have her hurt. so i decided to try to make it better. and while doing that i sounded like a douche bag. (: <33
person:what did you want to say?
me:he says ur obsessed with him.
person:[tear]
me:but DONT believe me.
person:Y? he did say it to you.
me:well ppl always say what they want other ppl to think. Me, for example.. i like this guy...but when ppl ask me about him, i say "ew he's such a cockky MFer i hate him. but in reality i care about him a lot. and think he's a great guy.
person:REALLY?!
me:omg i sound retarted. i just proved myself wrong. hahahha
person:this is like the type of thing you would expect to hear in a movie just not in real life.
me:yeah...i kno. wow. i still like him. (:
+ what can i say? when people say they dont like someone u shouldnt believe it until you hear it from him/her (: <33
+ i've had a lot of crushes in and out. but there are always those few that stick with you. i just wish one day i could tell him how i still feel. our talks are the best, i love the clickage, especially when we talk about music. when i watch that one certain FallOutBoy video, i always think of you, and how you laughed when we watched it togeth.just know that i think your fabulous!(: <33
that was pointless wasn't it. but well it was on my mind for a while.
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so last nite i slept on the opposite side of my bed. like...if u hhave seen my room i always sleep w.my head kind of in the corner? well last nite, i slept w.my head by my window. i was staring outside at the moon. and i felt completely retarted. because victoria told me to make a wish. so i did. and i realized i make hte same wish everytime. hoping it would come true but it never does. yet, while i'm focusing on this one wish, i'm missing all the other fabulous things that are happening without wishing. such as....
++ my soul sister, best friend, lover, imature sexyness (: is back.and she knows she's my number one, and i know i'm hers. we dont have to talk every day or advertise our friendship to show eachother that we are eachtohers best. and it means a lot. (:
++ my brother and me are actually talking, he's fabulous. and i love him so much. (:
++ my family is rethinking moving (:
++ i'm realy growing up. getting over the drama, living real problems, and not caring about what other ppl have going on in their lives, realizing i'm not always right, finding out how stupid i am. (:
++ i'm realizing that i have plenty of true friends (:
++ i have ppl that actually care about me (:
++ i have a family that is completely and utterly fabulous (:
++ i just got a cute hair cut. haha (:
++ i'm really content with my life. (:
++ finally taking it as a complement when ppl say i look different. haha (:
if all these are happening to me when i'm at my rock bottom, then i cant wait till i hit my max (: its all uphill from here <33
+ so yesterday night i made someone upset. by telling the truth of her special someone that she cares about. it hurt me to have her hurt. so i decided to try to make it better. and while doing that i sounded like a douche bag. (: <33
person:what did you want to say?
me:he says ur obsessed with him.
person:[tear]
me:but DONT believe me.
person:Y? he did say it to you.
me:well ppl always say what they want other ppl to think. Me, for example.. i like this guy...but when ppl ask me about him, i say "ew he's such a cockky MFer i hate him. but in reality i care about him a lot. and think he's a great guy.
person:REALLY?!
me:omg i sound retarted. i just proved myself wrong. hahahha
person:this is like the type of thing you would expect to hear in a movie just not in real life.
me:yeah...i kno. wow. i still like him. (:
+ what can i say? when people say they dont like someone u shouldnt believe it until you hear it from him/her (: <33
+ i've had a lot of crushes in and out. but there are always those few that stick with you. i just wish one day i could tell him how i still feel. our talks are the best, i love the clickage, especially when we talk about music. when i watch that one certain FallOutBoy video, i always think of you, and how you laughed when we watched it togeth.just know that i think your fabulous!(: <33
that was pointless wasn't it. but well it was on my mind for a while.
+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
so last nite i slept on the opposite side of my bed. like...if u hhave seen my room i always sleep w.my head kind of in the corner? well last nite, i slept w.my head by my window. i was staring outside at the moon. and i felt completely retarted. because victoria told me to make a wish. so i did. and i realized i make hte same wish everytime. hoping it would come true but it never does. yet, while i'm focusing on this one wish, i'm missing all the other fabulous things that are happening without wishing. such as....
++ my soul sister, best friend, lover, imature sexyness (: is back.and she knows she's my number one, and i know i'm hers. we dont have to talk every day or advertise our friendship to show eachother that we are eachtohers best. and it means a lot. (:
++ my brother and me are actually talking, he's fabulous. and i love him so much. (:
++ my family is rethinking moving (:
++ i'm realy growing up. getting over the drama, living real problems, and not caring about what other ppl have going on in their lives, realizing i'm not always right, finding out how stupid i am. (:
++ i'm realizing that i have plenty of true friends (:
++ i have ppl that actually care about me (:
++ i have a family that is completely and utterly fabulous (:
++ i just got a cute hair cut. haha (:
++ i'm really content with my life. (:
++ finally taking it as a complement when ppl say i look different. haha (:
if all these are happening to me when i'm at my rock bottom, then i cant wait till i hit my max (: its all uphill from here <33