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Dear Jeff,
Hasn't the past 30 years of hurting my family (who've always only wanted to love you) been enough? This week is supposed to be a time that I, as an adult, have the chance to really hang with my aunt and cousin and sister; those are people that really care about me, but then here you come-you think you can just saunder on in? Everyone else seems to be ready to welcome you back, forgetting the last 15 years that youve ignored us. But I was young enough to not remember loving you as a big brother, Ive gotten along just fine without one. The only way YOUR issue has affected me is to bring on a love for reading. Everything else that affected me, I know and have worked through a shitload of my issues. I dont need you. Id hang out with you and get to know you only bc I know how much it would mean to my mom and to my sis too. I can absolutely do a day or 2 with you for them. But its not for me.. and I dont want my spring break ruined because of the shitty big brother who punched holes in my bedroom wall and was part of the reason that I hid in my room for so much of my childhood. Hanging out will not fix any of these things, for I have worked on my own issues on my own..bc i'm a big girl now.
As much as i really am glad that youre growing up, jeff, and opening this door..i just dont want it to get in the way of my life that has been just fine without you.
<3 your baby sis,
amanda
Hasn't the past 30 years of hurting my family (who've always only wanted to love you) been enough? This week is supposed to be a time that I, as an adult, have the chance to really hang with my aunt and cousin and sister; those are people that really care about me, but then here you come-you think you can just saunder on in? Everyone else seems to be ready to welcome you back, forgetting the last 15 years that youve ignored us. But I was young enough to not remember loving you as a big brother, Ive gotten along just fine without one. The only way YOUR issue has affected me is to bring on a love for reading. Everything else that affected me, I know and have worked through a shitload of my issues. I dont need you. Id hang out with you and get to know you only bc I know how much it would mean to my mom and to my sis too. I can absolutely do a day or 2 with you for them. But its not for me.. and I dont want my spring break ruined because of the shitty big brother who punched holes in my bedroom wall and was part of the reason that I hid in my room for so much of my childhood. Hanging out will not fix any of these things, for I have worked on my own issues on my own..bc i'm a big girl now.
As much as i really am glad that youre growing up, jeff, and opening this door..i just dont want it to get in the way of my life that has been just fine without you.
<3 your baby sis,
amanda