lonely apartment
so today erika and i were talking on the way home from pilates class about online blogging and i realized how long its been since i've been on here. since it's a nice form of procrastination, and i seem to be a pro at that tonight..here i am! it's weird to read through my past blogs, esp the roomate ones. becca was such a great girl, but the selfishness was too appealing i guess. right now i'm learning in a class she also took about being a good teacher and citizen by having morals and caring about others, yet that's the opposite approach she's taken. its bc i try to find the best in people that i thought these girls were my friends, but i've had a feeling in the deepest part of my heart that they aren't the type of people that i deserve. i do believe in some sort of soulmates, and our souls just..didn't align.
and appel if you're not happy about how i'm handling a situation, you tell me and ask me to look at it differently. you don't lie (about why you didn't want marcie here), you don't blame it on someone else (becca), you don't have other people speak for me (becca then even your mom calling mine!). i just wish we had had that kind of fight earlier in life and that you would have made me see what kind of person you really are. there were all kinds of selfish hints, but i'm too nice to have believed that they defined you.
so what else is going on in my life. i hang out with danielle and erika on a regular basis. grad classes are time-consuming and not interesting enough, but not too difficult that i shouldn't earn A's in my classes. quite amusing that shibs is back in my life. i'm not completely sure how i feel, but it's the first any kind of relationship since justin. i do miss him sometimes, but it's almost as if our relationship didn't happen, i'm able to talk with other boys and talk shit about him and move on with my life so easily. i loved seeing lauren this weekend, and am really happy about losing some weight. i just hope i keep up the motivation. atl this weekend and who knows how that will play out. i hope to get to see the city and get a feel for sandy springs, which is apparently where the jewish community is.
can't believe i start my internship in just 2 weeks and will get to meet my teacher and be teaching 4th grade! i'm nervous to have to actually know stuff for fourth grade though-social studies and science stuff and even language arts terminology. but itll be good to prepare me for the REAL WORLD of teaching if i end up in upper grades. i think that's all thats going on in my life. i'm leaving one more blog tonight,
and appel if you're not happy about how i'm handling a situation, you tell me and ask me to look at it differently. you don't lie (about why you didn't want marcie here), you don't blame it on someone else (becca), you don't have other people speak for me (becca then even your mom calling mine!). i just wish we had had that kind of fight earlier in life and that you would have made me see what kind of person you really are. there were all kinds of selfish hints, but i'm too nice to have believed that they defined you.
so what else is going on in my life. i hang out with danielle and erika on a regular basis. grad classes are time-consuming and not interesting enough, but not too difficult that i shouldn't earn A's in my classes. quite amusing that shibs is back in my life. i'm not completely sure how i feel, but it's the first any kind of relationship since justin. i do miss him sometimes, but it's almost as if our relationship didn't happen, i'm able to talk with other boys and talk shit about him and move on with my life so easily. i loved seeing lauren this weekend, and am really happy about losing some weight. i just hope i keep up the motivation. atl this weekend and who knows how that will play out. i hope to get to see the city and get a feel for sandy springs, which is apparently where the jewish community is.
can't believe i start my internship in just 2 weeks and will get to meet my teacher and be teaching 4th grade! i'm nervous to have to actually know stuff for fourth grade though-social studies and science stuff and even language arts terminology. but itll be good to prepare me for the REAL WORLD of teaching if i end up in upper grades. i think that's all thats going on in my life. i'm leaving one more blog tonight,