a bad case of nostalgia
eh-hem. work was great tonight. i worked with jessie and we basically talked the whole time. she's a funny girl. shares similar frustrations regarding boys. but hey hey, i can't complain right now :D yay. we went to starbucks after work and this crazy face lady was there- rambling on about who knows what. laughing hysterically to herself. wow, it was so random and funny. umm a few of jessie's guy friends were there. i find it a bit depressing yet somehow amusing how empty their conversation was. all about cars. i was so not interested. i made the realization that at one point i may have been attracted to at least one of them, back when i would settle for boring/shallow people. i hope i've moved past those individuals caught up in boring cycles. wtf am i talking about. ha, i don't know either.
so i was planning on driving out to hang with greg after work. but he instead came to me. i'm way surprised, just cause i guess i don't expect anyone to put in that much effort for me. he's so freakin cute. my favorite thing is that smile. i can't get enough of it. he's such a good drummer and he's so thoughtful. it's fantastic. i feel lucky when i'm around him. it's hard to explain. i suppose i'm surpressing something. holding back because i'm so tired of feeling vulnerable. at the same time i know that in order to be close to someone you've got to let them in. "if it's gonna be then we've got to give but it's got to be enough for me." i want to let go
ehrm last night i hung with adam sandler. haha or i mean jason.. he looks like him to me. it's kinda funny. but he got mad when i called him adam. he has this attitude that's really entertaining. i like messing with him. cause he'll get pretend mad and fight back. geez.
i need to go out. all i've done for MONTHS... like really months... is sit around my house. of course i go to work, school, and starbucks, but beyond that, nothing. i feel stuck. kinda mediocre. i need to see somewhere completely new. maybe try some new food. get lost somewhere. i want to feel awkward. i need new.
so i was planning on driving out to hang with greg after work. but he instead came to me. i'm way surprised, just cause i guess i don't expect anyone to put in that much effort for me. he's so freakin cute. my favorite thing is that smile. i can't get enough of it. he's such a good drummer and he's so thoughtful. it's fantastic. i feel lucky when i'm around him. it's hard to explain. i suppose i'm surpressing something. holding back because i'm so tired of feeling vulnerable. at the same time i know that in order to be close to someone you've got to let them in. "if it's gonna be then we've got to give but it's got to be enough for me." i want to let go
ehrm last night i hung with adam sandler. haha or i mean jason.. he looks like him to me. it's kinda funny. but he got mad when i called him adam. he has this attitude that's really entertaining. i like messing with him. cause he'll get pretend mad and fight back. geez.
i need to go out. all i've done for MONTHS... like really months... is sit around my house. of course i go to work, school, and starbucks, but beyond that, nothing. i feel stuck. kinda mediocre. i need to see somewhere completely new. maybe try some new food. get lost somewhere. i want to feel awkward. i need new.