Back to Stuck
I feel like I could sit here and stare at the wall all day. But I don't want to. I just have no... passion. Where's my drive? My inner fire? I've never had that - at least not without obligation. Maybe if I tied myself up with obligations I'd never have to feel aimless again. But I see people who have lives like that. I see how stressed and displeased they are. I don't want that either. I guess I have things that I should do, but simply don't want to. What do I want then? I don't even know right now. I know I don't want to simply be entertained. I want to be immersed. ...I'd like to be back on the mat, practicing Jujutsu. Can't have that. Time's up. No more. This isn't a black and white movie with a crotchety old Master and days of endless training. I'd comment on how it's so difficult to get what we want in life, but I'd feel like I was speaking out of turn. So, until something clicks or snaps, I guess it's just me and the wall. ...Damn.