My Heart Is Broken
I was a bit jealous, he broke my heart into pieces...
This week was not really interesting for me. All was running smoothly until yesterday, my friend in the same group with me asked me to make resume about bulldozer (our project), he said he had finished it a long time ago, but when i checked it, none of what he said had done. Even the file he has is same like what i have from our lecturer. He made me mad at that time.
I told my self that i have to be strong so that i can get A from our lecturer. But seems like he ignores our project and wants me to finish it all. I can't take it.
Today, this morning, we didn't talk at all about this at all. Okay, i forgot about this i guess, kkk~
in the second period of our lesson, Heat Transfer, the A (if you all know who he's, he's the one i ever talk about " jealousy" in the previous random story), i didn't know if i would sit next to him. i wished i sat next to his friend, H, but he sat far from us. Well, the first time i saw his bag was settled on the chair i asked whose the owner, my girl friend, RY, said its A's bag. I felt warm on my cheek.
When he came in class, he saw me sat next to his. He smiled and said, "Ow, noona, you really miss me, that you want sit next to me?" he teased me.
I just pouted and told him, i didn't get another chair. He nodded smiled. My heart was thumping normally when he settled his body. But it came when he purposefully brush his hand on mine. I glanced at him. He smiled again. Okay, what's wrong with him, today? That question came to my mind.
"Noona, can i borrow your book?" he asked me um, i can say he said it seductively.
"RY, can you borrow your book to him?" i asked my friend. She gave him hers.
While our lesson started about 10 minutes, someone called him and told that 'D' was in hospital, she had accident with her friend. I wonder, who was the girl they talk about? And with my curiousness over my mind, i asked his friend. "Who's 'D'? Do i know her?"
He said, "She's our hoobae, the one who always hangs out with J's girlfriend, W... Why?"
"Ah, no, i just asking. Thanks."
Just then i felt jealousy comes over me. I asked, if i were in an accident, whether he would freak out like that? And i know the answer is 'No'... he even showed his panic and scared as if his lover was gone. I want him to feel what i feel when i am with him.
Depress moment i have with the boy in the same group with me was gone right away. I only thought and though about him. RY said he's not worthy for me. I know it, but could him feel what i feel when he said he loves me?
He came back again to our lesson, he said she was okay, just having little swollen on her head. I nodded and told him to be more patient. And once again he smiled at me sweetly. My heart was beating again fast.
He has sweet mouth. He said he wanted to kiss me and i have to thankful that even his girlfriend never get his first kiss. But my heart was aching, he acted like nothing's happened. He acted like he was innocent. He touched, rubbed and held my hand as if i was really his girlfriend. I wished i was vanished at that moment. Or i hoped i could hug him with all my heart ant told him that i adore him so much. I adore him with my heart hurting so much.
Is it the saddest love i ever feel for my entire life? Nan molla...
This week was not really interesting for me. All was running smoothly until yesterday, my friend in the same group with me asked me to make resume about bulldozer (our project), he said he had finished it a long time ago, but when i checked it, none of what he said had done. Even the file he has is same like what i have from our lecturer. He made me mad at that time.
I told my self that i have to be strong so that i can get A from our lecturer. But seems like he ignores our project and wants me to finish it all. I can't take it.
Today, this morning, we didn't talk at all about this at all. Okay, i forgot about this i guess, kkk~
in the second period of our lesson, Heat Transfer, the A (if you all know who he's, he's the one i ever talk about " jealousy" in the previous random story), i didn't know if i would sit next to him. i wished i sat next to his friend, H, but he sat far from us. Well, the first time i saw his bag was settled on the chair i asked whose the owner, my girl friend, RY, said its A's bag. I felt warm on my cheek.
When he came in class, he saw me sat next to his. He smiled and said, "Ow, noona, you really miss me, that you want sit next to me?" he teased me.
I just pouted and told him, i didn't get another chair. He nodded smiled. My heart was thumping normally when he settled his body. But it came when he purposefully brush his hand on mine. I glanced at him. He smiled again. Okay, what's wrong with him, today? That question came to my mind.
"Noona, can i borrow your book?" he asked me um, i can say he said it seductively.
"RY, can you borrow your book to him?" i asked my friend. She gave him hers.
While our lesson started about 10 minutes, someone called him and told that 'D' was in hospital, she had accident with her friend. I wonder, who was the girl they talk about? And with my curiousness over my mind, i asked his friend. "Who's 'D'? Do i know her?"
He said, "She's our hoobae, the one who always hangs out with J's girlfriend, W... Why?"
"Ah, no, i just asking. Thanks."
Just then i felt jealousy comes over me. I asked, if i were in an accident, whether he would freak out like that? And i know the answer is 'No'... he even showed his panic and scared as if his lover was gone. I want him to feel what i feel when i am with him.
Depress moment i have with the boy in the same group with me was gone right away. I only thought and though about him. RY said he's not worthy for me. I know it, but could him feel what i feel when he said he loves me?
He came back again to our lesson, he said she was okay, just having little swollen on her head. I nodded and told him to be more patient. And once again he smiled at me sweetly. My heart was beating again fast.
He has sweet mouth. He said he wanted to kiss me and i have to thankful that even his girlfriend never get his first kiss. But my heart was aching, he acted like nothing's happened. He acted like he was innocent. He touched, rubbed and held my hand as if i was really his girlfriend. I wished i was vanished at that moment. Or i hoped i could hug him with all my heart ant told him that i adore him so much. I adore him with my heart hurting so much.
Is it the saddest love i ever feel for my entire life? Nan molla...