DON'T HAVE REGRETS KIDS
New meme: Post a regret. It doesn't have to be your biggest regret. It can be something like, "I regret not doing my laundry at 6, because then I put it off and then I watched Lost and afterwards I fell asleep, then woke up with my laundry still dirty." Just a regret. But try to make it funny. Here's mine:
I regret not getting gangbanged by Spock, Mime and Coco (Mime's roommate) all at once. If college is all about being a slut and having sex with as many people as you possibly can, I lost so hard. I'm fucking serious. I was watching porn off my neighbor's wifi, and I suddenly realized this. Although the four of us were never together that long, either I was with Spock OR Mime, or with Mime and Coco, or Spock and Coco, but if I wanted to make it happen, I could have. The idea crossed my mind once or twice, but now I suddenly realize I should've fucking done it. If I'm not doing crazy shit, I have nothing to write on Livejournal about. THAT'S WHY I'VE HARDLY BEEN POSTING. Honestly, I have no roommate in my dorm, we all could've done it at my place on my carpet with my floor pillows and walked down the street to Domino's afterwards to get a pizza or a pasta bowl. Or Taco Bell! We all LOVE Taco Bell! Coco is pretty damn cute too. Spock and I went and saw him at this rendition of The Penny Opera or something, and he has an amazing singing voice, and those three fuckers can grow amazing beards. AMAZING BEARDS! It could've been so 70's! And Mime told me Coco has a huge dong. Why miss out on that?
If you're reading this now, you're tagged to do this. And please comment on this. I don't want your silence to punctuate the fact that I missed out.
Currently, I'm at home between the time of Spring semester and Summer semester. After a sudden epiphany I had one night, I'm changing my major and doing pre-med--specifically Biomedical Science. I've thought about it, and I realized I hated engineering, and I was only doing it to pay for me to be a physicist. But then again, I'd always wanted to be a doctor or a pharmacist, and I don't give a shit to spend time and money to work all the way to a post doc, to probably end up teaching Physics at a university. Being a physicist is a luxury. We don't really need them. Medicinal science and pharmacology has always had a place in my heart, and I learn so quickly in that field, it was stupid to do something else.
Mime and I aren't talking anymore. I don't know if I've mentioned it, but he and I have said all we needed to. Or at least I have. Spock and I are ridiculously in love, and that was allowed to blossom ever since Mime and I had our falling out. I don't harbor any negative feelings though. I just wish I had known whether or not I made some sort of breakthrough with him.
Well, that will be one of life's mysteries. I don't regret doing Physics and Engineering. I learned a lot, and I wouldn't have met the aforementioned men in this post. I know now more than ever what I want to do with my life. And it turns out, it is what I hoped it would be as I was entering my freshman year of high school. That was almost 7 years ago.
Fuck, I'm excited.
This all said, I'm terrified about the future and I make myself feel like crap for anything that resembles failure. I'm just now starting to turn the tides on my depression, but I can't help but stay awake at night fearing I'll be a coke-snorting, obese, irresponsible, uneducated, disgusting loser like my parents. I hate bootstraps stories, but that's what it will be, isn't it? Even if I'm a successful doctor or pharmacist, with no kids, a college and high school education, and perfectly lean (I have all but the career already), a part of me is still going to be trash. I'm not proud of myself.
Goddammit, why do I suddenly go from hilarious and sexual to depressingly poignant? I'm done being self-deprecating. I always pull shit together in the end. Maybe I'll come out of this depressive haze (which I inherited from both parents, Jesus I'm doomed) and realize that I am and always have been better than them, and the limitations set by their own stupidity couldn't even touch my success.
Yeah, maybe I'll believe that one day.
I regret not getting gangbanged by Spock, Mime and Coco (Mime's roommate) all at once. If college is all about being a slut and having sex with as many people as you possibly can, I lost so hard. I'm fucking serious. I was watching porn off my neighbor's wifi, and I suddenly realized this. Although the four of us were never together that long, either I was with Spock OR Mime, or with Mime and Coco, or Spock and Coco, but if I wanted to make it happen, I could have. The idea crossed my mind once or twice, but now I suddenly realize I should've fucking done it. If I'm not doing crazy shit, I have nothing to write on Livejournal about. THAT'S WHY I'VE HARDLY BEEN POSTING. Honestly, I have no roommate in my dorm, we all could've done it at my place on my carpet with my floor pillows and walked down the street to Domino's afterwards to get a pizza or a pasta bowl. Or Taco Bell! We all LOVE Taco Bell! Coco is pretty damn cute too. Spock and I went and saw him at this rendition of The Penny Opera or something, and he has an amazing singing voice, and those three fuckers can grow amazing beards. AMAZING BEARDS! It could've been so 70's! And Mime told me Coco has a huge dong. Why miss out on that?
If you're reading this now, you're tagged to do this. And please comment on this. I don't want your silence to punctuate the fact that I missed out.
Currently, I'm at home between the time of Spring semester and Summer semester. After a sudden epiphany I had one night, I'm changing my major and doing pre-med--specifically Biomedical Science. I've thought about it, and I realized I hated engineering, and I was only doing it to pay for me to be a physicist. But then again, I'd always wanted to be a doctor or a pharmacist, and I don't give a shit to spend time and money to work all the way to a post doc, to probably end up teaching Physics at a university. Being a physicist is a luxury. We don't really need them. Medicinal science and pharmacology has always had a place in my heart, and I learn so quickly in that field, it was stupid to do something else.
Mime and I aren't talking anymore. I don't know if I've mentioned it, but he and I have said all we needed to. Or at least I have. Spock and I are ridiculously in love, and that was allowed to blossom ever since Mime and I had our falling out. I don't harbor any negative feelings though. I just wish I had known whether or not I made some sort of breakthrough with him.
Well, that will be one of life's mysteries. I don't regret doing Physics and Engineering. I learned a lot, and I wouldn't have met the aforementioned men in this post. I know now more than ever what I want to do with my life. And it turns out, it is what I hoped it would be as I was entering my freshman year of high school. That was almost 7 years ago.
Fuck, I'm excited.
This all said, I'm terrified about the future and I make myself feel like crap for anything that resembles failure. I'm just now starting to turn the tides on my depression, but I can't help but stay awake at night fearing I'll be a coke-snorting, obese, irresponsible, uneducated, disgusting loser like my parents. I hate bootstraps stories, but that's what it will be, isn't it? Even if I'm a successful doctor or pharmacist, with no kids, a college and high school education, and perfectly lean (I have all but the career already), a part of me is still going to be trash. I'm not proud of myself.
Goddammit, why do I suddenly go from hilarious and sexual to depressingly poignant? I'm done being self-deprecating. I always pull shit together in the end. Maybe I'll come out of this depressive haze (which I inherited from both parents, Jesus I'm doomed) and realize that I am and always have been better than them, and the limitations set by their own stupidity couldn't even touch my success.
Yeah, maybe I'll believe that one day.