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So... Jay's been back since yesterday morning. =)
Jay rambling as usual:
He walked in and I was like O_O
I didn't even really know how to react. I wanted to hug him... but something the break has taught me is that I dont need to hug him all the time. That its okay if he doesn't want to. But he hugged me, so it was okay.
He kept kissing me... which was something new.
Not much changed. It was only three days. A lot may have happened for him, but I just experienced a lot of drunkeness.
I thought there might have been a difference though, because on Saturday night he was calling my friends to look for me. They said that he sounded really emotional and that he was worried about me... I dont think I've ever heard Jay sound emotional toward me... I guess thats why I didn't believe them.
He told me yesterday that he was doped up on Coke though, so that might have been why. Ugh.
I told him about hanging out with Justin, thats why he told me about the Coke. The Justin thing wasn't a big deal though, I just didn't want him to find out from someone else and think I was keeping it a secret from him.
He thinks I'm weird... weird because I want more affection.
Is it weird...
What I want:
Him to walk in the door after work, and instantly make eye contact with me. Then drop his stuff, walk over, and give me a hug/kiss before sitting down and telling me about his day.
What he does:
Walks in right past me, puts his shit down, sighs, walks out to use the bathroom, comes back in, then proceeds to walk back and forth across the room while talking about the strange shit that happened (as though he'd be saying it even if I wasn't there), then asking if he can play the video game.
There's a lot of little things that bother me. I dunno, plus the fact that he asks permission for certain shit. O_o; Like the video game... its like "If you wanna play, then play!" he asks me permission as though I'm going to bitch at him. I would like to think I dont bitch that much.
Things I bitch about:
- The attitude he gets with other people
- When he drives wrecklessly in my car
- When he assumes that when I give advice I'm bitching at him.
- When he wont accept help from other people
He even thinks I'm bitching at him when I'm talking about our relationship. O_o; Its like "You dont have to buy me tons of things, I'm just happy with sitting here with you, like now." and he's like "Now? What, while your bitching at me?" its like wtf? whatever.
In the end though, I just realized that... its just the way he is. He's not a cuddler, and he's arrogant, and kind of mean... but he would never do anything to physcially hurt me, and yeah, I guess he does care about me.
Guess thats why I liked him in the first place... >< gah.
Me and Jay went to Crystal River yesterday. That was nice. Watching the sunset... Jay thought I was weird because I said I wished we could have a picture of us with the sunset in the background. -.-;
Maybe I'm too mushy... lol
I officially like Subway again. For awhile I hated Subway. Something about the bread I guess. But now I like it. Especially when you can add Jalapenos and Banana Peppers.... Mmmm.
Today I'm writing out a plan for the PERFECT diet. Me and Nani gonna work each others asses off!!! Hellz yea. But first I gotta clean the room. Its a mess. Blah.
OH! And David is fine. Thank god. I talked to him on Sunday night. He's so funny...
Me: So your okay David?
David: Yeah... we just started arguing and he just stabbed me! There was blood everywhere... on the stove, and the wall...
Me: Oh my god...
David: Yeah... *in a high pitched voice* SO HOW'S YOUR KITTY CAT!?
Me: O.o my ferret?
David: Yeah! KITTY KITTY!
lol, I love him! He wants Jay to stay the night Wed, cause he's a lil freaked on being alone, which is fine. Gives me time with the car. I can go visit my sister and whatnot.
He says that if Jay ever annoys me, I can stay with him. =)
But, being as anti-social as I am, I probably wont. >< He's such a sweetheart, I hope he has better luck though. =\ He needs a man, not a fucktard like brad... psh.
Jay rambling as usual:
He walked in and I was like O_O
I didn't even really know how to react. I wanted to hug him... but something the break has taught me is that I dont need to hug him all the time. That its okay if he doesn't want to. But he hugged me, so it was okay.
He kept kissing me... which was something new.
Not much changed. It was only three days. A lot may have happened for him, but I just experienced a lot of drunkeness.
I thought there might have been a difference though, because on Saturday night he was calling my friends to look for me. They said that he sounded really emotional and that he was worried about me... I dont think I've ever heard Jay sound emotional toward me... I guess thats why I didn't believe them.
He told me yesterday that he was doped up on Coke though, so that might have been why. Ugh.
I told him about hanging out with Justin, thats why he told me about the Coke. The Justin thing wasn't a big deal though, I just didn't want him to find out from someone else and think I was keeping it a secret from him.
He thinks I'm weird... weird because I want more affection.
Is it weird...
What I want:
Him to walk in the door after work, and instantly make eye contact with me. Then drop his stuff, walk over, and give me a hug/kiss before sitting down and telling me about his day.
What he does:
Walks in right past me, puts his shit down, sighs, walks out to use the bathroom, comes back in, then proceeds to walk back and forth across the room while talking about the strange shit that happened (as though he'd be saying it even if I wasn't there), then asking if he can play the video game.
There's a lot of little things that bother me. I dunno, plus the fact that he asks permission for certain shit. O_o; Like the video game... its like "If you wanna play, then play!" he asks me permission as though I'm going to bitch at him. I would like to think I dont bitch that much.
Things I bitch about:
- The attitude he gets with other people
- When he drives wrecklessly in my car
- When he assumes that when I give advice I'm bitching at him.
- When he wont accept help from other people
He even thinks I'm bitching at him when I'm talking about our relationship. O_o; Its like "You dont have to buy me tons of things, I'm just happy with sitting here with you, like now." and he's like "Now? What, while your bitching at me?" its like wtf? whatever.
In the end though, I just realized that... its just the way he is. He's not a cuddler, and he's arrogant, and kind of mean... but he would never do anything to physcially hurt me, and yeah, I guess he does care about me.
Guess thats why I liked him in the first place... >< gah.
Me and Jay went to Crystal River yesterday. That was nice. Watching the sunset... Jay thought I was weird because I said I wished we could have a picture of us with the sunset in the background. -.-;
Maybe I'm too mushy... lol
I officially like Subway again. For awhile I hated Subway. Something about the bread I guess. But now I like it. Especially when you can add Jalapenos and Banana Peppers.... Mmmm.
Today I'm writing out a plan for the PERFECT diet. Me and Nani gonna work each others asses off!!! Hellz yea. But first I gotta clean the room. Its a mess. Blah.
OH! And David is fine. Thank god. I talked to him on Sunday night. He's so funny...
Me: So your okay David?
David: Yeah... we just started arguing and he just stabbed me! There was blood everywhere... on the stove, and the wall...
Me: Oh my god...
David: Yeah... *in a high pitched voice* SO HOW'S YOUR KITTY CAT!?
Me: O.o my ferret?
David: Yeah! KITTY KITTY!
lol, I love him! He wants Jay to stay the night Wed, cause he's a lil freaked on being alone, which is fine. Gives me time with the car. I can go visit my sister and whatnot.
He says that if Jay ever annoys me, I can stay with him. =)
But, being as anti-social as I am, I probably wont. >< He's such a sweetheart, I hope he has better luck though. =\ He needs a man, not a fucktard like brad... psh.