..I think this is my first Real-Life post ^^

Mar 19, 2007 15:29

I finished 4 individual labreports in 2 days!!! OMG I must be reallllllly excited to finish it (or I holed up in my room. Sssh.) Oh, and I finished one group report ^^ (Well, at least, my part on it...) The only things left are: 4 quizzes/long exams + 2 online tests (1 = 80% finished, 1 = not started yet. But I heard it was deadly) + 1 group report + 1 group presentation (dammit I knew I hated that subject for a reason..). And that's only for This. Week.

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Yet, as much as I complain about it, I wasn't really feeling stressed this weekend. I was able to play table tennis for two hours last Saturday, and I was able to finish 3 animes. Yep, I finally watched (and finished!!!) Sukisho, Loveless and Yami no Matsuei. ^__^ Out of the three, I liked Loveless most ^^ Because of Echizen Ryoma's voice!! XDDD Ritsuka is soooo like Echizen ^.^ Sukisho was very sweet and funny (and it's like those girly shoujo shows). Yami no Matsuei has the ever-handsome Hisoka :) But yeah. Loveless was very cute =)

Anyone has suggestions for more BL/shounen-ai/yaoi anime? After watching Yami no Matsuei though, I'd like to watch something lighter ^.~ I already watched Gravitation, those three at the top, FAKE and Papa to Kiss in the Dark. Suggestions, please! :3

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Somebody sent me anonymous (of course, it's anon. if they say bad things, it's 99.99% anon) reviewS on my fics ^.~ Saying that if I don't update NOW, they're going to (1) hate me very much, (2) hang themselves, (3) burn me, (4) commit murder, (5) commit suicide. It's both disheartening and amusing, which makes a bad combo for me ^.~ I already said countless of times that I *will* finish my fics. And I also said countless of times that I actually have a life (no matter how tiring and boring it is) aside from writing fanfiction.

Living alone (even though I have no experience whatsoever of living in dorms beforehand) in a foreign country, keeping this scholarship and maintaining the school image as student ambassador, and obtaining that GPA = Me has no free time ;__; It's exciting and new and I like it (because if I don't, I wouldn't have applied here ^.~) but it also leaves me with little to zero free time. And that free time, is of course, taken up by table tennis, playing cards, personal stuff, Int'l Students Committees + Student's Union stuff, trying to make a social life. I *also* feel terrible when I read unfinished stories, but I *know* that real life is just more important.

And erm, that's all about this =P

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"We've noticed that you've not been active on Bleach Exile Forums for quite some time now, and we miss you! Could we not tempt you back?" After reading this email from forum inactivity, I cheered up after receiving that set of anon reviews =) I think it's a cute way of trying to lure in members back :P

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From hiirowing.
1. When you begin to write, what is the thing that you decide first?
- The basic plot. Something summary-ish. Then the title ;)

2. Do you usually decided on the plotline first, or do you write whatever comes to your mind?
- I don't write/post stuff that I haven't decided the major plotline too :P If I write whatever comes to my mind, I'll just write lots of SasuNaru smexy stuff XD

3. Do you usually write down and organize the various ideas to write?
- Yes~ I usually carry my blue writing pad with me (it's hidden in my filecase though).

4. What do you usually use when you write?
- Microsoft Windows? :O But before I type, I have the major chapter outline already written down, as well as the chapter's intro and end ;)

5. Do you tend to write long, or short?
- My oneshots tend to be long (I can't write drabbles ;__;). My multi-chapters tend to be shorter (by installment) specially if it's just the prologue :)

6. What is the amount of your longest writing?
- Erm, I've written a 50-page research report, but that's not creative writing -__- Erm, fanfic-wise, I think I have a 10000-word oneshot.

7. Do you divide up your writings, or do you write the whole thing at one sitting?
- I try my best to type in one sitting, since I usually just have those times when I feel like not doing anything but writing. But since my free time has been rare lately, I usually just type out what I could.

8. What is your reason to write?
- Because I like real-life romance. XDDD Because I don't think Sasuke and Naruto will be together in the show so I try to make scenarios where they could be together instead :P

9. What is the genre you usually write?
- Does plot!fic count? I usually put "Romance" in genre, but that's because I dunno what else to put. Drama-ish and complicated things always fascinate me. Hmm, I think I write most genres, except fluff, humor, action and spiritual ;)

10. Did you think that you want to express your work as something other than writing?
- ...Writing songs and poems is still equal to writing, anyhow :P

11. How do you feel if you read your old works over again?
- I feel glad that I improved ^__^ But I sometimes reuse old plots from my old fics :D (i.e. Virtual Lover and Rhapsody are reused, sorta.)

12. If you compare than to now, which do you think is better?
- ..Erm, since my past!fics were from a different fandom, I guess it's hard to compare ^.^;; But Naruto fandom has my OTL (Sasuke!), I guess I like it better.

13. From which view point do you usually write?
- Third person POV. Sometimes 1st POV. I haven't tried 2nd POV. :P

14. Usually what kind of ending do you prefer?
- I want a happy ending :) Since my reason to write is to put my characters together (since I usually write non-canon pairs), ending happily = logical, for me.

15. Do you usually like the major character of the writing, or the minor character?
- I don't want to write a pairing/story with a character I dislike (that's why I can't SasuSaku; I dislike Sakura, no offense) ;; usually major characters.

16. In your writings, are there a lot of male characters, or female characters?
- Naruto. YGO. Beyblade. MALE hahaha. (go shounen-anime!)

17. Why would that be?
- Because for me, het pairings are rather normal. Real life is full of het already ;__; Plus, most het = mushy-mushy. Or rape ;__; And it's nicer to fiddle with something that wouldn't exist/happen easily, realistically speaking, so I prefer working with BL :P

18. How do you make up the names for the characters or places that appear in your writings?
- I follow the characters' true names. Places = fanon-common ones (i.e. Konoha High, Domino Mall, etc). Orig fic = I rarely write this. I never post this. But when I choose names, it's usually a variation of a name that I heard of and liked.

19. Have you tried illustrating a story?
- ...NO ;)

20. Do you write according to the frame work of beginning, development, climax, and ending?
- Erm, I usually plan and write beginning -> climax -> ending and fill the spaces with development t___t;;

21. When you write, is there something you especially care about a lot?
- I usually develop stories based on circumstances (i.e. the what-ifs). I care about trying to rationalize the characters' reactions to that particular circumstance. I don't like delving too much into their IC-modes, but I'd like to make them seem human, at least. Human = with all those insecure thoughts, the sometimes-pointless ramblings, etc ;) I also like to focus the development and non-development of emotions. Sometimes, as much fun as it is to develop (and constantly torture) a character with emotion-development, you'd have to admit that there are times when we just get hit by emotions/revelations :P

22. Are there writers you admire?
- Both for fiction, facts, and fanfiction, I tend to admire everybody :P

23. Where do you get your ideas to write?
- real life, other shows, teledramas' trailers (coz I don't like watching teledramas), my dreams, random inspirations (most common source of inspiration). Erm, I don't really sit and think of an inspiration;;; I usually sit/write when I get hit by an inspiration.

24. Is there something you realized while you were writing?
- That the characters are much more fun to play with. If the things I wrote happened to me, I'd realllly kill somebody XD

25. Do you think you write well?
- I don't think I'm bad at writing ^.^;; But there are also a lot more fanfic!writers and the whole world of professional!writers out there, so *fiddles with fingers* ...At least I have lots of plot bunnies? *hopeful look* *still gets shot*

26. What do you think writing is?
- A way of putting those good plot bunnies to use. A way of making my supported pairings end up together. A way to release some stress. Posting fics = way of meeting new people and practicing myself for some creative writing elective XD

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At the risk of my friends reading this (OH NOES! They hate yaoi/shounen-ai/BL! -__-)

...Convocation/Graduation for my seniors is arriving soon ;___; (O-oookay, so it's on July 23-27, but it's a lot sooner now, than it was when I first met them!) Our batch here doesn't have direct seniors, and there was only 1 freshman this year, so it'd only be my batch and the freshie next semester, if nobody goes here from Philippines ;__; I'll admit that I wasn't really a people-person back then. I don't hate others' company, but I don't exactly crave them;; Maybe it's because I'm living alone here, at somewhere far away, with no supervision whatsoever and completely helpless and clueless about what's happening.

I've changed. I'd like to think I've changed.

No more was the little 5-yr-old prep school girl that pissed her teacher so much she almost had a heart attack. No more was 7-yr-old Primary 1 student who told her teacher in front of her class that I could teach the subject better than she could. No more was the Primary 4-6 student that didn't talk to anyone because they were so old. No more was the high school student who was pressured to bits and pieces by her parents to do and try everything to the best. No more was the high school student who could say "I like *insert name here*" and not mean it and still make everybody believe; who could "fall in love with that person" without really feeling anything past the "Hey. He's cute." comment.

Okay, so I'm still violent, still a bit wary of those far away from my age, still have those OMGHE'SCUTE moments, still is OC (Obsessive-Compulsive), still is GC (Grade-Conscious), still have a lot of problems, still isn't a partygoer type of person. But I think I've mellowed down a lot, and even my family members have commented that I'm a lot less unemotional/vicious/cruel/cold now ^^

B-but, I digress -__-

Graduation for them is coming soon, and I will miss them. (Rather, as *insert nameS here* have pointed out, I'd only miss one person anyway, so I can do away with the "them" and replace it with "him".)
When I first met him, it was at the foodcourt. I still remember it, we were eating mango milk ice (ehehe. it's very tasty) at another senior's treat. He was wearing that olive-green polo shirt. Since it was only the introductions (we just arrived then. I think it's our 3rd day to Singapore), he was introduced as femalesenior's boyfriend/suitor. I didn't exactly mind that, seeing as how it's only the first meeting. Then, we talked in the MRT ride from Boon Lay to Tanjong Pagar. He's my senior from my old HS as well, but he was already 4th year when I was 1st year, so I didn't exactly know him back then.

Our first talks mostly consisted of me teasing him about femalesenior and asking about stuff. It wasn't anything special, but our friendship (and my dependence on him) grew. During those sad, sad times when we're both brokenhearted, we talked and talked and bashed life in general and talked and talked. Thankfully, our dorms were rather near (erm, 5 minutes walk?) to each other, so it was easy to meet up. Chatting in YM and MSN became an everyday occurrence, and it was nice.

Since my first semester, he has always been my pillar of (OMGTEZURYO! *is shot*) support. I've had a couple of "I think I like him" attacks, from my conscience and from my friends, and I cheerfully ignored them ^^ I'm actually glad/and sad that I did, because I didn't want to ruin one of my most important friendships because of that. Until now, I'm not sure how I feel about him. But I'm still sure that I'd miss him terribly once he graduates and starts making tons of money working. My other seniors/he longfriends have told me that he'd undoubtedly have very little time for me in the future (and I guess that's what saddens me the most).

He did say that he'll keep in touch and that he wouldn't abandon me, but he also did say that I should get a replacement ;___; I'm also still unsure if he was kidding at the latter, but I'm sure that nobody will replace him. He's the only I'm comfortable with sharing secrets and weird questions regarding rebonding and fashion makeovers. He's the only one that I wouldn't lash out when he said that my bag doesn't match my personality. He's the only one who will help me fix my damnedoldcomputer. He's the only one who can guess who's my favorite characters because he just knows what type of anime faces and personalities do I like. He's the only one who I can confess all of my problems and trust that nothing will come out. He's the only one who would do anything (well, almost anything at least XD) that I request of him.

I'm really going to miss him ;____; (damn it, and I hate the most members of the next batch of applicants for this scholarship! XD) I guess it's really the time to let go and just accept things (like what. it's on July! It's like, March now. Whatever :P)

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I'm going for Special Semester from May 7 to June 22. Or something like that. Haha;; So I'll be here until June 20-ish. And then, I'm going home and then going back here around 1st of August (Man, was that a deliberate attempt to avoid the Graduation ceremonies? :P) I hope there's a non-boring subject being offered ;)

Oh, and wingitback, help me brainstorm for a summer job XD (I wanna earn money/I don't want to get too bored :P)

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Re: This is my personal opinion. You don't have to agree or disagree =)
I know I said that I dislike the Naruto: Shippuuden OP. Let me clarify that. I dislike the OP sequence pictures. I like the song; it's catchy, upbeat and yeah ^^ But I dislike the sequence, not only because Sasuke only has 2 shots (though he looked sooooo lonely and angsty and cute at the second shot) and there was only 1 SasuNaru-ish shot, but because I felt like there were some times when there were too little pictures, but there are times when tons of people were crammed into one frame or something.

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My first exam for Finals this sem starts on April 17th. I really feel weirded out by the fact that finals = everything here. Or 70-80% everything here. Starting today, almost every possible study area would be open 24/7 or be on extended hours ;) It's amusing and scary, in a way. I never really liked studying outside because I'm lazy and I don't want to walk back home from school at 3 am. (Some people just bring sleeping bags to their area of choice.)

But since everybody's panicking already, I think I *should* panic too ;___;

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...I should be studying for my quizzes tomorrow ^__^ (I think I got worn out writing the long graduation-segment above ;__;) Aaand. Should I post more things like this, or should I keep this journal strictly for posting fanfics? ^.^

quiz/test/meme, fangirling rl etc

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