Positive Points Number 73 & 74...
"I think about you all day."
- Mike (Me: 😭😭😭)
OMC…
You will never believe what I did last night. Today's positive point is kinda a blast from my power past. (Ha!) First, for context: When I was like, 18, because of my throat issues, I used to live in fear that my esophagus was gonna collapse in my sleep. Luckily, that didn't happen and due to my meds, it's no longer a worry. (Because of possible corrosion, I wasn't supposed to see past the age of 25, remember? I'm glad that wasn't true)
Anywho…
Player 456 used to put his phone beside his head so that I would sleep easier and it helped a lot. Last night, at 11 something when he realized what time it was, Mike asked would I like to just put the phone by my head and I was like: "That would be like us sleeping together." He goes: "Yes it would." So I went to the bathroom and he went to do something or nother then we both got in the bed and went to sleep. I woke up once cuz I could hear him rolling over in the bed, but other than that, it was a'ight. One thing's for sure: Imma be dirt poor tired at work today. I gotta go to bed on time tonight. Imma warn Mike out the gate cuz not only is comicon tomorrow, he and I are supposed to be meeting for the first time and I am self aware enough to know that a tired me is a less attractive me. I get aggravated EASILY when I'm tired and I definitely don't want our first meeting to be marred by my piss poor mood. So yeah, sleep tonight.
Since I brought up Player 456, yesterday was his birthday (Happy Birthday 🎂🎂🎂) and I wished him a happy birthday and whatnot. He swan dives in my DMs talking about wanting to spend time with someone for his birthday. Bruh, if you wanna get laid, go do that shit. I dunno why he keeps telling me stuff like that. Oh wait, it's cuz he wants the vagina to be mine. Welp, that's a no. We can't cross that path cuz he's not there and I won't go back. End of story. (Funny how I typed this sentence then "Yet To Come" pops up on the MP3. BTS knew what they were doing when they dropped this song for my birthday) I don't see how he doesn't see how damaging it would be for me to end up in a situation that isn't designed for me.
Not to compare, (Cuz after asking where his head is at on his ex, I told Mike last night that I hate when people spend all their time comparing their ex to whatever is new in their lives. I don't wanna end up in a situation where I'm always compared to the ghost of girlfriends past. Nope. Nah. No.) but I'm up front with Mike about where my head is at, even the fear of sex angle and why. He respected it immediately. No questions asked. He didn't ask for the cause or whatnot. Just promised to never pressure me about sex and if it comes up, it will be because we both want it. Me: "Wait… What?" Mmkay, soooooooo ever since I've been single as a freshly pressed Pringle, I haven't really met a lot of guys who don't immediately block my ass when I don't wanna send nudes or talk about sex. Of those guys, I only met Caleb. That's it. Since I got it in my head that I would appreciate the universe were it to bless me with me with a weird master mix of both qualities from Caleb and Ol' Whatshisface, I haven't really been interested in much of anything to be honest. Mike's protectiveness coupled with his willingness to make time falls in line with what I have in mind for myself… So far. Oh, that AND he listens AND it's not to talk. No no no. Mike listens and remembers what I said. I like that so far we are compatible even tho' our zodiac says we can have a relationship but it would be work. Mike had me read the entire thing to him then we discussed whether or not we think we're compatible.
Before I go, he asked me how I feel about prenups and marriage in general. I told him that I had thoughts of marriage in the past, but due to a series of unfortunate events, it didn't happen and boy am I forever grateful for that. I tell ya, the universe takes care of its own better than we wanna give it credit for. Even tho' it doesn't feel that way in the beginning, (Especially when you're sobbing and shaking your fist at the heavens) sometimes the bottom falling out is a blessing.
Had I not walked in on Player 456 snorting pills after he told me he was clean and ready to change his life, we woulda gotten married and then I probably woulda found out later that he was lying. Bruh, that man had so many chances that his chances had chances.
Ugh. Which reminds me: I did explain a little about my situation with Player 456 and going by Mike's reaction, I think it's best I stop talking about Player 456 with him unless he brings it up cuz I could cause drama without meaning to and I definitely don't want/need that kinda negativity in my life.
So yeah, meeting Mike tomorrow.
Super happy about it
Later
PS: Mo calls Mike "Uncle Mike" and has decided that he is in her mental running of guys she will accept as a step dad tho' we've never met. He added fuel to the fire by going "Hello daughter" last night. He was trying to saying "Hello daughter of *insert my real name here*" but she wasn't trying to hear all that. She was like: "He acknowledged me! You heard him!" She has also decided that Caleb is no longer in the running tho' I have told her countless times that Caleb and are decided to just be buds. We still talk everyday but not in a seeing sense, ya know? Kinda like me and Ol' Whatshisface. Which reminds me, we also discussed my friendship with Ol' Whatshisface last night. Ugh, what the fuck is wrong with me?! I was just splashing me tea from the window to the wall last night. See, this is why we can't have nice things 😩😩😩
PS2: (I don't even know what date I started this on. All in know is it was sometime last week 😩😩😩) Don't ask me how I managed to not post this. Technically this is outta order, (I've already met Mike and everything. Apparently, he's not full of shit nor is he a ghoster cuz we still talk on the phone every night... Not saying this means anything, but to say I'm fresh out the gate with this dating thing, it's nice to meet a genuinely nice guy. Jury's still out tho'. As we all know, I am a firm believer that when you meet a person, you're not meeting them. You're meeting their representative. We'll see how I feel in time. Right now, I like him. He gives me butterflies. I haven't felt butterflies in awhile. Imma say this is a plus cuz if it isn't, the universe has a way of snitching on these hoes. So yeah, so far, so good) but I'm not about to fix it. I think I had another positive point today, but I cannot, for the life of me remember what it is. It must not be as great as I thought *sighs*
PS3: I'm at the plasma center. The lady who stuck me is new and you could definitely tell. She seemed nervous. The lady training her was like: "She went to school for this." like that changes anything. That would be like going in for surgery and the surgeon who's scrubbing in goes: "This is my first surgery!" I don't give a damn who you are, that would make you go 👀👀👀
Shit, I work with some hoes who have been trained and worked at the burger farm for YEARS but still act like they don't know what the fuck they're doing! *laughs in plasma* My point is, going to school doesn't make you an expert. Update: Lawd, the bitch (I said what I said) stuck me incorrectly and I had to get it done over. Another sticker came over and she was fucking up left and right so I refused to let her touch me. A lady who has done mine before came over and BAM! No problems. See? I knew it! I felt that shit. No mo new hoes! 😑😑😑
PS4: I miss Mike *sobs in distance* Ya know, he said he's willing to give us a shot if I am. I feel like I am, but then a thought will hit me and I'll be like: "Nope."
PS5: Today's positive point just arrived!
^Guess who made it to the 2nd round in the Face Of Horror competition?! I'm so proud of casa de mentality for rallying around Max
- Mike (Me: 😭😭😭)
OMC…
You will never believe what I did last night. Today's positive point is kinda a blast from my power past. (Ha!) First, for context: When I was like, 18, because of my throat issues, I used to live in fear that my esophagus was gonna collapse in my sleep. Luckily, that didn't happen and due to my meds, it's no longer a worry. (Because of possible corrosion, I wasn't supposed to see past the age of 25, remember? I'm glad that wasn't true)
Anywho…
Player 456 used to put his phone beside his head so that I would sleep easier and it helped a lot. Last night, at 11 something when he realized what time it was, Mike asked would I like to just put the phone by my head and I was like: "That would be like us sleeping together." He goes: "Yes it would." So I went to the bathroom and he went to do something or nother then we both got in the bed and went to sleep. I woke up once cuz I could hear him rolling over in the bed, but other than that, it was a'ight. One thing's for sure: Imma be dirt poor tired at work today. I gotta go to bed on time tonight. Imma warn Mike out the gate cuz not only is comicon tomorrow, he and I are supposed to be meeting for the first time and I am self aware enough to know that a tired me is a less attractive me. I get aggravated EASILY when I'm tired and I definitely don't want our first meeting to be marred by my piss poor mood. So yeah, sleep tonight.
Since I brought up Player 456, yesterday was his birthday (Happy Birthday 🎂🎂🎂) and I wished him a happy birthday and whatnot. He swan dives in my DMs talking about wanting to spend time with someone for his birthday. Bruh, if you wanna get laid, go do that shit. I dunno why he keeps telling me stuff like that. Oh wait, it's cuz he wants the vagina to be mine. Welp, that's a no. We can't cross that path cuz he's not there and I won't go back. End of story. (Funny how I typed this sentence then "Yet To Come" pops up on the MP3. BTS knew what they were doing when they dropped this song for my birthday) I don't see how he doesn't see how damaging it would be for me to end up in a situation that isn't designed for me.
Not to compare, (Cuz after asking where his head is at on his ex, I told Mike last night that I hate when people spend all their time comparing their ex to whatever is new in their lives. I don't wanna end up in a situation where I'm always compared to the ghost of girlfriends past. Nope. Nah. No.) but I'm up front with Mike about where my head is at, even the fear of sex angle and why. He respected it immediately. No questions asked. He didn't ask for the cause or whatnot. Just promised to never pressure me about sex and if it comes up, it will be because we both want it. Me: "Wait… What?" Mmkay, soooooooo ever since I've been single as a freshly pressed Pringle, I haven't really met a lot of guys who don't immediately block my ass when I don't wanna send nudes or talk about sex. Of those guys, I only met Caleb. That's it. Since I got it in my head that I would appreciate the universe were it to bless me with me with a weird master mix of both qualities from Caleb and Ol' Whatshisface, I haven't really been interested in much of anything to be honest. Mike's protectiveness coupled with his willingness to make time falls in line with what I have in mind for myself… So far. Oh, that AND he listens AND it's not to talk. No no no. Mike listens and remembers what I said. I like that so far we are compatible even tho' our zodiac says we can have a relationship but it would be work. Mike had me read the entire thing to him then we discussed whether or not we think we're compatible.
Before I go, he asked me how I feel about prenups and marriage in general. I told him that I had thoughts of marriage in the past, but due to a series of unfortunate events, it didn't happen and boy am I forever grateful for that. I tell ya, the universe takes care of its own better than we wanna give it credit for. Even tho' it doesn't feel that way in the beginning, (Especially when you're sobbing and shaking your fist at the heavens) sometimes the bottom falling out is a blessing.
Had I not walked in on Player 456 snorting pills after he told me he was clean and ready to change his life, we woulda gotten married and then I probably woulda found out later that he was lying. Bruh, that man had so many chances that his chances had chances.
Ugh. Which reminds me: I did explain a little about my situation with Player 456 and going by Mike's reaction, I think it's best I stop talking about Player 456 with him unless he brings it up cuz I could cause drama without meaning to and I definitely don't want/need that kinda negativity in my life.
So yeah, meeting Mike tomorrow.
Super happy about it
Later
PS: Mo calls Mike "Uncle Mike" and has decided that he is in her mental running of guys she will accept as a step dad tho' we've never met. He added fuel to the fire by going "Hello daughter" last night. He was trying to saying "Hello daughter of *insert my real name here*" but she wasn't trying to hear all that. She was like: "He acknowledged me! You heard him!" She has also decided that Caleb is no longer in the running tho' I have told her countless times that Caleb and are decided to just be buds. We still talk everyday but not in a seeing sense, ya know? Kinda like me and Ol' Whatshisface. Which reminds me, we also discussed my friendship with Ol' Whatshisface last night. Ugh, what the fuck is wrong with me?! I was just splashing me tea from the window to the wall last night. See, this is why we can't have nice things 😩😩😩
PS2: (I don't even know what date I started this on. All in know is it was sometime last week 😩😩😩) Don't ask me how I managed to not post this. Technically this is outta order, (I've already met Mike and everything. Apparently, he's not full of shit nor is he a ghoster cuz we still talk on the phone every night... Not saying this means anything, but to say I'm fresh out the gate with this dating thing, it's nice to meet a genuinely nice guy. Jury's still out tho'. As we all know, I am a firm believer that when you meet a person, you're not meeting them. You're meeting their representative. We'll see how I feel in time. Right now, I like him. He gives me butterflies. I haven't felt butterflies in awhile. Imma say this is a plus cuz if it isn't, the universe has a way of snitching on these hoes. So yeah, so far, so good) but I'm not about to fix it. I think I had another positive point today, but I cannot, for the life of me remember what it is. It must not be as great as I thought *sighs*
PS3: I'm at the plasma center. The lady who stuck me is new and you could definitely tell. She seemed nervous. The lady training her was like: "She went to school for this." like that changes anything. That would be like going in for surgery and the surgeon who's scrubbing in goes: "This is my first surgery!" I don't give a damn who you are, that would make you go 👀👀👀
Shit, I work with some hoes who have been trained and worked at the burger farm for YEARS but still act like they don't know what the fuck they're doing! *laughs in plasma* My point is, going to school doesn't make you an expert. Update: Lawd, the bitch (I said what I said) stuck me incorrectly and I had to get it done over. Another sticker came over and she was fucking up left and right so I refused to let her touch me. A lady who has done mine before came over and BAM! No problems. See? I knew it! I felt that shit. No mo new hoes! 😑😑😑
PS4: I miss Mike *sobs in distance* Ya know, he said he's willing to give us a shot if I am. I feel like I am, but then a thought will hit me and I'll be like: "Nope."
PS5: Today's positive point just arrived!
^Guess who made it to the 2nd round in the Face Of Horror competition?! I'm so proud of casa de mentality for rallying around Max