Kyle's Coming Home!
"No offense but... I think a person would rather get syphillis than have a baby momma."
- Donovan (I'm not sure if this is his 1st or 2nd LJ quote)
Um... This just in: Kyle just called me! He's uh... He's coming home tomorrow. He said quote: "I'm gonna describe this in vamp terms. It was a place where I did Kindergarden finger painting and yoga." I started laughing then he was like: "They wanted me to sit in a chair and imagine what I look like now and what I'll look like sober then they wanted me to draw it." He told 'um he's not an artist and asked would they like him to draw a unhappy face and an happy face then he was like: "I asked 'um would they like me to draw a picture of a tombstone and one of me walking around." When this was posed, he said they thought it was an interesting concept. Sure they did... *laughs* I told him I was gonna write it down... *nods* So I did.
Come to find out, the place they had him in was a prep place to phase you into the methadone clinic. Kyle has issues with the clinic because of what happened to Brittney but, even if that wasn't what happened, the clinic is financially crippling. Like, if David didn't have me, he wouldn't be able to afford it. Now that I'm off the phone, that's kinda not true. The clinic kinda pays for itself but whatever. Details. Details.
Now, at 1st I was all excited and shit *points* See my tag? So begins the honesty part of this session: Now I'm just... Uh... I dunno how I feel. I didn't even tell him I loved him. I just hung up. Kinda on him. I didn't wanna give him the chance to tell me. Ya know, at 1st, Kyle being gone was hard for me. I felt as if a part of me was being ripped apart. After a few days, I stopped being so pissed at their mom and realized no matter how it went down, this was for the best. I even told him he needs to be searching for other places to go as soon as he gets home. He got all quiet. I always felt as if 3 months was too long but in truth, 3 months aways from Kyle might've actually done me some good. So said Sherry. She was right. I started feeling a lot better. Actually, I felt better after I wrote that entry Sunday. Now, he needs to find another one to go to STAT.
Jessica won't be able to stay clean if Kyle's still Kyle when she gets out and that's the truth. He needs support and I don't mean wonder bra support. I mean secret service support. Somebody to keep the drugs at bay, ya know? On the same note, he's grown and needs to learn how to stand up for himself. There won't always be a safety net. Parents don't live forever unfortunately.
*shrugs* I dunno. I guess I was just hoping he would finally get clean and get it together. Guess I ask for too much. I expect too much of people. I've been saying that for years.
*sighs*
Later
- Donovan (I'm not sure if this is his 1st or 2nd LJ quote)
Um... This just in: Kyle just called me! He's uh... He's coming home tomorrow. He said quote: "I'm gonna describe this in vamp terms. It was a place where I did Kindergarden finger painting and yoga." I started laughing then he was like: "They wanted me to sit in a chair and imagine what I look like now and what I'll look like sober then they wanted me to draw it." He told 'um he's not an artist and asked would they like him to draw a unhappy face and an happy face then he was like: "I asked 'um would they like me to draw a picture of a tombstone and one of me walking around." When this was posed, he said they thought it was an interesting concept. Sure they did... *laughs* I told him I was gonna write it down... *nods* So I did.
Come to find out, the place they had him in was a prep place to phase you into the methadone clinic. Kyle has issues with the clinic because of what happened to Brittney but, even if that wasn't what happened, the clinic is financially crippling. Like, if David didn't have me, he wouldn't be able to afford it. Now that I'm off the phone, that's kinda not true. The clinic kinda pays for itself but whatever. Details. Details.
Now, at 1st I was all excited and shit *points* See my tag? So begins the honesty part of this session: Now I'm just... Uh... I dunno how I feel. I didn't even tell him I loved him. I just hung up. Kinda on him. I didn't wanna give him the chance to tell me. Ya know, at 1st, Kyle being gone was hard for me. I felt as if a part of me was being ripped apart. After a few days, I stopped being so pissed at their mom and realized no matter how it went down, this was for the best. I even told him he needs to be searching for other places to go as soon as he gets home. He got all quiet. I always felt as if 3 months was too long but in truth, 3 months aways from Kyle might've actually done me some good. So said Sherry. She was right. I started feeling a lot better. Actually, I felt better after I wrote that entry Sunday. Now, he needs to find another one to go to STAT.
Jessica won't be able to stay clean if Kyle's still Kyle when she gets out and that's the truth. He needs support and I don't mean wonder bra support. I mean secret service support. Somebody to keep the drugs at bay, ya know? On the same note, he's grown and needs to learn how to stand up for himself. There won't always be a safety net. Parents don't live forever unfortunately.
*shrugs* I dunno. I guess I was just hoping he would finally get clean and get it together. Guess I ask for too much. I expect too much of people. I've been saying that for years.
*sighs*
Later