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Family dinner/time was relatively painless. We hung out, quoted stupid movies, laughed, ordered some Chinese food (curry, mmm) and watched silly videos on YouTube. Hips are cranky over the second floor apartment but we're home now and I'm on a comfortable couch.
Tomorrow will be odd. Got an appointment with the VA to discuss both pain management and the test results from the bloodwork last week (to find out if I have diabetes)... oddly I've not really had the time to focus on feeling nervous. That's been a small blessing. I mostly just feel... I don't know, numbly impatient? I think I've had too many "leads" of possible physical ailments to explain away all my problems and then had them not pan out. Diabetes could just be yet another "oh man if you have this it explains SO MUCH and treating it will help you immensely" wild goose chase. So more than anything I just want to know, yes or no, and go from there. I want the answer but I'm not feeling hope or dread either way.
Roommate has an appointment at the same time and is driving. So he'll just drop me off at the clinic really early and I'll bring a book or something. After the appointment my dad might be in the area so he can just pick me up and bring me home (he needs to head to my place anyway to pick up Sibling+SiblingRoommatePerson to take them to the airport), I just need to remember to call him after my appointment. I don't know, we'll see.
After that I'll go home to a far more empty house. Maybe get a bit of work done. See my friend that night and go out for a movie at a place that serves drinks. It seems like that's a good idea for both of us.
Wednesday is therapy and hopefully seeing friends that night. Thursday... no idea there, maybe get some stuff done around the house and spend some quiet time with Will (something we've been lacking this week with company around and also something I'd like to have as much of as possible throughout August).... Friday, nothing yet. Saturday, I think some things - I need to check my calendar.
Sometime this week I want to start on my August List. Things I want to do this month to keep myself occupied. And even start on my September list too, or at least a set schedule.
The idea of busyness brings some calm. So long as I don't overdo it and burn myself out I think it'll be really good.
Tomorrow will be odd. Got an appointment with the VA to discuss both pain management and the test results from the bloodwork last week (to find out if I have diabetes)... oddly I've not really had the time to focus on feeling nervous. That's been a small blessing. I mostly just feel... I don't know, numbly impatient? I think I've had too many "leads" of possible physical ailments to explain away all my problems and then had them not pan out. Diabetes could just be yet another "oh man if you have this it explains SO MUCH and treating it will help you immensely" wild goose chase. So more than anything I just want to know, yes or no, and go from there. I want the answer but I'm not feeling hope or dread either way.
Roommate has an appointment at the same time and is driving. So he'll just drop me off at the clinic really early and I'll bring a book or something. After the appointment my dad might be in the area so he can just pick me up and bring me home (he needs to head to my place anyway to pick up Sibling+SiblingRoommatePerson to take them to the airport), I just need to remember to call him after my appointment. I don't know, we'll see.
After that I'll go home to a far more empty house. Maybe get a bit of work done. See my friend that night and go out for a movie at a place that serves drinks. It seems like that's a good idea for both of us.
Wednesday is therapy and hopefully seeing friends that night. Thursday... no idea there, maybe get some stuff done around the house and spend some quiet time with Will (something we've been lacking this week with company around and also something I'd like to have as much of as possible throughout August).... Friday, nothing yet. Saturday, I think some things - I need to check my calendar.
Sometime this week I want to start on my August List. Things I want to do this month to keep myself occupied. And even start on my September list too, or at least a set schedule.
The idea of busyness brings some calm. So long as I don't overdo it and burn myself out I think it'll be really good.