you're the last great innocent, and that's why i love you
i didn't get into oberlin.
i feel like everything is falling apart really quickly and i can't hold onto the pieces that have anything to do with being ok.
the year is coming to a close here and i'm only one who doesn't know where they're going to end up next year. i feel like a lost puppy; wandering back and forth to anyone and anything that looks like a home.
now, two places have rejected me. it's pretty clear that northwestern isn't going to come through and i'm afraid that i won't end up anywhere next year. i feel lame, and sad, and stupid and lazy. and these, in one big combination add up to not feeling too stellar.
and i have to say goodbye to this place, this place that felt so foreign and became a home only because i had nowhere else to go. i will be sad to leave, but i am more scared of where i'm going once i've left. which right now...is nowhere.
and i want to sing and dance and laugh and smile and be happy. but right now that feels impossible.
fuck. everything hurts. i feel like im backsliding.
i feel like everything is falling apart really quickly and i can't hold onto the pieces that have anything to do with being ok.
the year is coming to a close here and i'm only one who doesn't know where they're going to end up next year. i feel like a lost puppy; wandering back and forth to anyone and anything that looks like a home.
now, two places have rejected me. it's pretty clear that northwestern isn't going to come through and i'm afraid that i won't end up anywhere next year. i feel lame, and sad, and stupid and lazy. and these, in one big combination add up to not feeling too stellar.
and i have to say goodbye to this place, this place that felt so foreign and became a home only because i had nowhere else to go. i will be sad to leave, but i am more scared of where i'm going once i've left. which right now...is nowhere.
and i want to sing and dance and laugh and smile and be happy. but right now that feels impossible.
fuck. everything hurts. i feel like im backsliding.