Dark Paradise
Title: Dark Paradise
Pairing: Onkey
Rating: PG
Word count: 959
Summery: But there's no you, except in my dreams tonight
Note: Not going to say much about it, but it's a sad story. I felt like writing it at 3 am.
Kibum stared through the window focusing on nothing in particular. The rain started to pour heavier and louder. A tiny smile appeared on his pale gloomy face as he thought that the weather was really in the same mood as himself. While sitting on the window-sill he leaned with his head at the cold glass and stared at the raindrops falling down. He touched the window and the warmth of his hand made it a little foggy. With his slender finger he followed a couple of raindrops. What he trailed slowly with his finger he felt on his cheek. It started again. As he started to cry, his heart started to cry along. His heart that he locked from the outside world, from the emotions and from the pain got unlocked again with these tears, that he thought couldn't be shed anymore. His deep voice made raspy high pitch sobs and it made it all even worse. His hands reached his face as he still leaned his head to the glass. Sobs turned into wails at the pain of his broken heart.
Darkness around him that felt comfortable and pleasant. It felt almost like the place between sleep and awake. As he was in a relaxing state he felt the surrounding changing. His heart throbbed in a painful way and his hands reached his chest. He couldn't see anything but he felt something approaching him and as it did he felt a familiar feeling coming closer. A presence that got pulled out of his life suddenly a short while ago.
“Kibum...” A gentle voice said in total darkness.
Kibum's face changed from shock to pain. Tears swelling up in his eyes and his heart beating heavy in his chest.
“J-jinki?”
Kibum reached his hands into the darkness, but there was nothing.
“You know I love you right?”
Kibum smell the familiar scent of Jinki's cologne. Kibum's face turned into a huge smile. He really was close. He nodded but as he realized again he was sitting in total darkness he still had to say something.
“Jinki... you have no idea how much I miss you.” his voice turned into a whisper.
The moment he said that, Kibum felt warmth around him. It pierced into his skin right through his heart. He gasped for air at the sudden overload and panted. “Jinki... I can't live without you.”
“You'll be fine”
A huge gasp came out of Kibum's mouth and he felt his throat being painfully hoarse. When the darkness around him disappeared slowly he heard himself screaming, sobbing and coughing. Reality hit him in the face and it didn't made his situation any better.
“Kibum.”
“KIBUM”
He felt the arms of a stranger around him becoming tighter. He also realized he was sitting on the ground, he must have felt from the window-sill, his legs a mess and his arms holding his chest while two strong arms were around his middle.
“Kibum, shh. Calm down” the soothing sound of the low voice continued and it made Kibum stop with crying out loud. The warm breath in his neck gave him goosebumps and it calmed him down. His heart started to beat normally again while he was rocking back and forth in a trance, still not fully conscious. A deep sigh came from behind him.
“How long have you sit here being like this Kibum?”
Kibum stayed quit and turned around. Minho was looking at him with huge worried eyes and let go of him. Kibum shrugged and let a shaky sigh. “I don't want...” before he could finish his sentence Minho interrupted him as he took Kibum's face into both his hands.
“We know you miss him Kibum, we do too, but look at yourself...” Kibum's eyes started to fill with tears again while he was forced to look into Minho's.
“You don't sleep. You don't eat. But still you try to do everything on your own. You're lucky that I came across your apartment to see how you are, when I heard you screaming...” Kibum took Minho's hands and pulled them roughly from his face.
“I'm afraid to sleep. Everything is so real then. Even when I shut my eyes for the tiniest second he's there and he's so close and I can almost feel him, smell him, touch him.” A sob escaped him again. “It's like he's with me again and waking up is so difficult.” Kibum panted a little by the words that'd spilled from his mouth. Minho stared at Kibum for a while. Both his hands reached the other boy's face again and with his thumbs he stroked the huge dark circles under Kibum's eyes. “It's late Kibum, go to sleep, I'll stay here.”
Kibum let Minho lift him up by his arms to lead him towards the bed. With a huge sigh Kibum landed on his bed and looked up at Minho.
“Sleep will do you good.” Minho's hand patted Kibum's hair softly.
“I don't think so”
He did feel the exhaustion in his body and maybe he should just let it take control of him. He snuggled under his blanket and Minho gave him a small smile. “As I said, I'll stay.”
Kibum closed his eyes and dozed off to the place he had mixed feelings about to be there.
Again there was darkness and again there was his presence. Kibum tried to stay calm and as the flow of his smell and warmth hit him he smiled.
“Jinki?”
He felt a ghostly feeling of a warm hand touching his cheek for a second.
“I-i don't want to wake up from this tonight”
Inspired by the beautiful song Dark Paradise from Lana Del Rey
Pairing: Onkey
Rating: PG
Word count: 959
Summery: But there's no you, except in my dreams tonight
Note: Not going to say much about it, but it's a sad story. I felt like writing it at 3 am.
Kibum stared through the window focusing on nothing in particular. The rain started to pour heavier and louder. A tiny smile appeared on his pale gloomy face as he thought that the weather was really in the same mood as himself. While sitting on the window-sill he leaned with his head at the cold glass and stared at the raindrops falling down. He touched the window and the warmth of his hand made it a little foggy. With his slender finger he followed a couple of raindrops. What he trailed slowly with his finger he felt on his cheek. It started again. As he started to cry, his heart started to cry along. His heart that he locked from the outside world, from the emotions and from the pain got unlocked again with these tears, that he thought couldn't be shed anymore. His deep voice made raspy high pitch sobs and it made it all even worse. His hands reached his face as he still leaned his head to the glass. Sobs turned into wails at the pain of his broken heart.
Darkness around him that felt comfortable and pleasant. It felt almost like the place between sleep and awake. As he was in a relaxing state he felt the surrounding changing. His heart throbbed in a painful way and his hands reached his chest. He couldn't see anything but he felt something approaching him and as it did he felt a familiar feeling coming closer. A presence that got pulled out of his life suddenly a short while ago.
“Kibum...” A gentle voice said in total darkness.
Kibum's face changed from shock to pain. Tears swelling up in his eyes and his heart beating heavy in his chest.
“J-jinki?”
Kibum reached his hands into the darkness, but there was nothing.
“You know I love you right?”
Kibum smell the familiar scent of Jinki's cologne. Kibum's face turned into a huge smile. He really was close. He nodded but as he realized again he was sitting in total darkness he still had to say something.
“Jinki... you have no idea how much I miss you.” his voice turned into a whisper.
The moment he said that, Kibum felt warmth around him. It pierced into his skin right through his heart. He gasped for air at the sudden overload and panted. “Jinki... I can't live without you.”
“You'll be fine”
A huge gasp came out of Kibum's mouth and he felt his throat being painfully hoarse. When the darkness around him disappeared slowly he heard himself screaming, sobbing and coughing. Reality hit him in the face and it didn't made his situation any better.
“Kibum.”
“KIBUM”
He felt the arms of a stranger around him becoming tighter. He also realized he was sitting on the ground, he must have felt from the window-sill, his legs a mess and his arms holding his chest while two strong arms were around his middle.
“Kibum, shh. Calm down” the soothing sound of the low voice continued and it made Kibum stop with crying out loud. The warm breath in his neck gave him goosebumps and it calmed him down. His heart started to beat normally again while he was rocking back and forth in a trance, still not fully conscious. A deep sigh came from behind him.
“How long have you sit here being like this Kibum?”
Kibum stayed quit and turned around. Minho was looking at him with huge worried eyes and let go of him. Kibum shrugged and let a shaky sigh. “I don't want...” before he could finish his sentence Minho interrupted him as he took Kibum's face into both his hands.
“We know you miss him Kibum, we do too, but look at yourself...” Kibum's eyes started to fill with tears again while he was forced to look into Minho's.
“You don't sleep. You don't eat. But still you try to do everything on your own. You're lucky that I came across your apartment to see how you are, when I heard you screaming...” Kibum took Minho's hands and pulled them roughly from his face.
“I'm afraid to sleep. Everything is so real then. Even when I shut my eyes for the tiniest second he's there and he's so close and I can almost feel him, smell him, touch him.” A sob escaped him again. “It's like he's with me again and waking up is so difficult.” Kibum panted a little by the words that'd spilled from his mouth. Minho stared at Kibum for a while. Both his hands reached the other boy's face again and with his thumbs he stroked the huge dark circles under Kibum's eyes. “It's late Kibum, go to sleep, I'll stay here.”
Kibum let Minho lift him up by his arms to lead him towards the bed. With a huge sigh Kibum landed on his bed and looked up at Minho.
“Sleep will do you good.” Minho's hand patted Kibum's hair softly.
“I don't think so”
He did feel the exhaustion in his body and maybe he should just let it take control of him. He snuggled under his blanket and Minho gave him a small smile. “As I said, I'll stay.”
Kibum closed his eyes and dozed off to the place he had mixed feelings about to be there.
Again there was darkness and again there was his presence. Kibum tried to stay calm and as the flow of his smell and warmth hit him he smiled.
“Jinki?”
He felt a ghostly feeling of a warm hand touching his cheek for a second.
“I-i don't want to wake up from this tonight”
Inspired by the beautiful song Dark Paradise from Lana Del Rey