SSS 2012: For justangel
For: justangel
From: Your Secret Santa <3
Title: Take Two
Pairing: Onew/Key
Rating: PG-13 (vague smut)
Authors’ Notes: I really hope this is good enough! Merry Christmas!
( Or maybe he just liked how that sounded. )
From: Your Secret Santa <3
Title: Take Two
Pairing: Onew/Key
Rating: PG-13 (vague smut)
Authors’ Notes: I really hope this is good enough! Merry Christmas!
( Or maybe he just liked how that sounded. )
Dearest Santa, you have no idea how much pain this fic had inflicted on me. I mean that, in all seriousness, bcos the song that I provided as a prompt has always been close to home. But you know what? it's actually a good thing. I knew i would have to deal with such bittersweet pain when I wrote the prompt. and that's exactly what i got from this story.
The (vague) smut opening was surprising, poignantly so. I got the pleasant 'whoa!', and hooked up right away. i pored over each word like my live depends on it, got the pleasant image of them doing it against the wall and all xD. and then it trasitioned smoothly to the retrospect where they got to meet again, and i swear i could mirror OnKey's feeling, the sensation of having your stomach drop over the sight of someone whom you used to share a history with, a history so significant and yet it ended without a closure.
that's what the second encounter was, i think, for both Onew and Key in this story; a closure. after re-reading this over and over again, i got to realize that you weren't trying to create another hearbreak, but instead a closure. obviously, OnKey still had some unfinished matter when they broke up. that was the reason why Onew called for an ice cream date (which by the way was a brilliant prelude to continue with the opening smut) and why Key agreed.
but still, five years surely means something if not everything (and omg, five years--another thing that hit very close to home i'm cry ;____;), and after the brief exchange of remaining love--whispered words, touches on the naked skin between the sheets) they have to deal with the harsh truth of reality. i found it perfect, how key chose not to disclose the fact that he was with somebody else--somehow i could feel his doubt, him being torn to revive the memory of old happiness or honor his commitment. and somehow, i'm relieved that Key chose to stay with his current lover. if i were key, i'd hate myself if he chose onew, and the onew that i know wouldn't be happy/proud for stealing key from someone else.
the one thing that hit the bulls eye and brought me to actual tears was key's statement; that they broke up for a reason, and that the reason was still there, remained unchanged. i love, love, love just how insanely logical key was.
thank you for the present, santa. it's been a while since i feel like this about a story. apparemtly, you understood about what i want, even more than me <3
ps: sorry for the late comment. i wasn't joking when i say i need some time to arrange my emotion :3
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