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So its Monday and still no apartment; its more of a drag than it sounds. I've been sleeping slightly better by stuffing tissue in my ears at night, but not by much. It doesnt help I've had lots of wierd dreams lately, including last night when I had a dream about Nar. I had explained to Jen earlier how if Nar had been a better person previously to meeting me, we might have gotten together; I dont deny there was a deep friendship at one point, for me, there still is a friendship, but the drugs and lifestyle have put a wedge between us for a long time. In my dream, a friend that taught me how to french kiss was stalking me -- now, this isnt the future-stalker-bf I almost had, its a different guy -- and Nar was protecting me the whole way. I remember being at my Grandma's house in the dream, I remember being at this restaraunt my family used to go to which is now partially gone in reality, but I would say that I need to work on End of the World again, just to get those feelings out from under my skin for once. It's like being stuck in time in a certain part of your heart -- I broke his heart, for good reason, but it doesnt mean I was heartless -- and thats why I was writing the book, more for him than anyone else.
I have yet to write a book solely for Jennifer, but Eve of Perception comes really close. Although there was going to be a lot about ShindoW and her parents in End of the World.
Anyway, Jen is out of the shower and I g2g, so I'll try to post again soon~
I have yet to write a book solely for Jennifer, but Eve of Perception comes really close. Although there was going to be a lot about ShindoW and her parents in End of the World.
Anyway, Jen is out of the shower and I g2g, so I'll try to post again soon~