Day 73/4 (12.07.10/11)

[shinda_chan]

As I was walking back from Big (a grocery store), I was thinking about something.  Ever since the first few weeks of being in Sapporo, I've actually felt like something was missing.  Which is strange, right?  All my time during high school and at Ball State I've been awaiting this trip, pondering all that I will get to see, do, and just experience

Comments

You are so right

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You can't help but feel unprepared; BSU did a horrible job in preparing you for this trip. Your living conditions are deplorable, and BSU, as well as Sapporo University should be ashamed. I can't help but wonder, though, if Sapporo University representatives gave up on decent housing for the international students since most of them either don't pay their rents or they treat the properties like shit.

Your evaluation of "immersion" is so dead on. I loved being in Europe, and I spent much time alone walking the cities and talking to people and fusing with my foreign surroundings. Now that you are making friends with Japanese students, your immersion will move along just fine. Be glad most of the international students are leaving. I think the Japanese students are looking forward to that day.

Your journal entry is exactly what you should talk to Anne about. She's been in Japan for many years. I bet she went through the same thoughts you did. After all, a person with the same intent to become immersed is the type of person who would eventually live in Japan. Email or call her. Pass on your journal entry or explain to her the major gist of it. She may even invite you to stay with her in Tokyo for a brief time (during your school break). Get suggestions from her and let her know that Sapporo isn't much help, either. It would be interesting to get her perspective on Sapporo. What you wrote about Sapporo was so insightful and quite educational for me; I would have assumed its area was like that of the rest of Japan where history and tradition are concerned.

Remember to appreciate this opportunity. As you reflect back on your thoughts, realize that immersing takes time. Does it make sense now that Switzerland requires 12 years of living there prior to getting citizenship? Becoming a part of any culture must take much time. Hell, think of kids starting new schools. It takes weeks or months to blend in and feel welcome. You are in a different country! I know you feel lucky to be in Japan, and I know you are the true soul willing to make yourself a part of Japan. You have plenty of time left, and know it will get better and better.

I love you! (BTW, your journal entry would make a great paper for Tomazawa. It would be great for other kids and their parents to read before embarking on their own journeys abroad.)