sleepless in my bedroom
Ugh. It's 2:30 am. i think I'm going to be pulling an all nighter. Which sucks. Jeff's coming for dinner and I don't feel like being a dead hostess. However we have Thursday off so that is good.
Not sure what to do about Linds. I'm not into this bull anymore. Not that i was in her type of bull to begin with but really man? Leave me out. I have a good job. I dont' wanna mess it up becaxuse you decide to do something illegal and ask for my help. I don't wanna know about it. I dont' want you lyin. I want you to put down the pipe, needle, razor, which ever your vice is of the day and grow up. I think she's so far gone. I can't help her. I'm fully aware of that. Perhaps she needs to crash and burn. :(
I can't wait for the weekend. RUSSEL PETERS!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOO. woo. 11th row...WOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. Oh my god I'm going to pee my pants for sure. Perhaps I should wear a dress. ha.
I'm glad George and I are...talking. Kinda awkward. But, just, too many good laughs to let ourselves get all weird. We broke up. We're adults. Just because you think i'm the greatest thing that ever walked the planet but you're not ready to jump in...is fine. I'm glad he realized it now before too much time had passed. Six months is enough to "waste".
Who am I kidding. None of it was a waste. I've enjoyed every second of knowing him. he makes me smile. I'm starting to realize as I get older, that's a very very important quality. The laugh smile is worth it's weight in gold.
I just drifted off in to George land and it lead me to a book I just finished reading. The Alchemist. Such a good book. I'm going to lend it to Pam because I think she could get a lot out of it..and is..open enough to understand it.
It put me at ease a bit with where I am in life. I"m not sure of what my own Personal Legend is right now, but I know I'm on the right path. Life has lined itself up for me very well, from the damn asian girl at Waterloo to putting up with GM for so long. Look where it got me. Look how each door that appeared to be open that slammed in my face was for the better...or I would not be HERE. That means i'm on the right path. Life is helping me.
Still not use to the corporate thing though. Still not use to what I can and can not say. Still not use to the meetings. Still not use to the beating subjects with sticks, then bricks, then sitting on it, then ironing it, then taking a crowbar to it, then having a meeting to discuss what we've done and perhaps booking another one to decide what we'll do next. ARGH. Just do it already. Jesh.
However,, it will take me a long time to learn this company. I mean. IT"S HUGE. There is so much to it. We got to meet with our Marine Logistics division and we learned about the off shore rigs and where the product goes...and this crazy pipeline that goes all the way from Portland maine to Montreal...like WHAT!?!? I had no idea. There's this cool map they gave us showing us all the pipelines in North America.....no clue. Obviously they aren't pin pointers that would probably not be good common knowledge but.....holy lipton. Fort McMurray is the centre of the universe.
And it's also nice for once to have Customs officers be NICE to me. Like...really nice to me.
almost 3am. yikes.
Very excited to have 3 1/2 hours, 7 in total, in the car with Dana. Talk talk talk talk. What's after this? Wedding. Windsor. Right. then another wedding. Trenton. Right. then cottage...then Panama? Oh my gosh that is soon. It will be nice to go somewhere completely different this time. Panama. Whoda thunk.
I'm becomming more comfortable with the fact that I am not ready to settle yet. Im glad George recognized this as well. I really thought I was all in to the relationship thing...and really. No. no I'm not. I'm quite happy having different names for the week. I'm glad I have a monday and a tuesday type thing going. Dating is actually a lot of fun. When, youre with the right people. I feel bad for Mike. But man. Just...wasn't feeling it. Like if somoene can't look you in the eye ...at all....that to me says they aren't interested. I watch people when they talk. I want them to know that I'm listening. Perhaps it's just nervousness but cmon....I'm sorry, that's a major turn off for me. I thought you were completely bored.....and then you kiss me and say you wanna see me again? WHAT!? you were on the same date I was on right?
I need to start taking notes of these dates..gotta work on that book. I think it would actually do well. I have the gift for gab and writing ...so why not.
Not sure what to do about Linds. I'm not into this bull anymore. Not that i was in her type of bull to begin with but really man? Leave me out. I have a good job. I dont' wanna mess it up becaxuse you decide to do something illegal and ask for my help. I don't wanna know about it. I dont' want you lyin. I want you to put down the pipe, needle, razor, which ever your vice is of the day and grow up. I think she's so far gone. I can't help her. I'm fully aware of that. Perhaps she needs to crash and burn. :(
I can't wait for the weekend. RUSSEL PETERS!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOO. woo. 11th row...WOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. Oh my god I'm going to pee my pants for sure. Perhaps I should wear a dress. ha.
I'm glad George and I are...talking. Kinda awkward. But, just, too many good laughs to let ourselves get all weird. We broke up. We're adults. Just because you think i'm the greatest thing that ever walked the planet but you're not ready to jump in...is fine. I'm glad he realized it now before too much time had passed. Six months is enough to "waste".
Who am I kidding. None of it was a waste. I've enjoyed every second of knowing him. he makes me smile. I'm starting to realize as I get older, that's a very very important quality. The laugh smile is worth it's weight in gold.
I just drifted off in to George land and it lead me to a book I just finished reading. The Alchemist. Such a good book. I'm going to lend it to Pam because I think she could get a lot out of it..and is..open enough to understand it.
It put me at ease a bit with where I am in life. I"m not sure of what my own Personal Legend is right now, but I know I'm on the right path. Life has lined itself up for me very well, from the damn asian girl at Waterloo to putting up with GM for so long. Look where it got me. Look how each door that appeared to be open that slammed in my face was for the better...or I would not be HERE. That means i'm on the right path. Life is helping me.
Still not use to the corporate thing though. Still not use to what I can and can not say. Still not use to the meetings. Still not use to the beating subjects with sticks, then bricks, then sitting on it, then ironing it, then taking a crowbar to it, then having a meeting to discuss what we've done and perhaps booking another one to decide what we'll do next. ARGH. Just do it already. Jesh.
However,, it will take me a long time to learn this company. I mean. IT"S HUGE. There is so much to it. We got to meet with our Marine Logistics division and we learned about the off shore rigs and where the product goes...and this crazy pipeline that goes all the way from Portland maine to Montreal...like WHAT!?!? I had no idea. There's this cool map they gave us showing us all the pipelines in North America.....no clue. Obviously they aren't pin pointers that would probably not be good common knowledge but.....holy lipton. Fort McMurray is the centre of the universe.
And it's also nice for once to have Customs officers be NICE to me. Like...really nice to me.
almost 3am. yikes.
Very excited to have 3 1/2 hours, 7 in total, in the car with Dana. Talk talk talk talk. What's after this? Wedding. Windsor. Right. then another wedding. Trenton. Right. then cottage...then Panama? Oh my gosh that is soon. It will be nice to go somewhere completely different this time. Panama. Whoda thunk.
I'm becomming more comfortable with the fact that I am not ready to settle yet. Im glad George recognized this as well. I really thought I was all in to the relationship thing...and really. No. no I'm not. I'm quite happy having different names for the week. I'm glad I have a monday and a tuesday type thing going. Dating is actually a lot of fun. When, youre with the right people. I feel bad for Mike. But man. Just...wasn't feeling it. Like if somoene can't look you in the eye ...at all....that to me says they aren't interested. I watch people when they talk. I want them to know that I'm listening. Perhaps it's just nervousness but cmon....I'm sorry, that's a major turn off for me. I thought you were completely bored.....and then you kiss me and say you wanna see me again? WHAT!? you were on the same date I was on right?
I need to start taking notes of these dates..gotta work on that book. I think it would actually do well. I have the gift for gab and writing ...so why not.