I'm bored. Need I say more?
I'm having writer's block. Like always.
I can not bring myself to finish the fanfiction languishing in my account. When I compare my writing from this year to my amauteurish style developed in 6th grade in those fics...I just can't type a single word on Word. The stories are no longer "masterpieces" to me, but are the shallow, devoid-of-plot fics that I abhor seeing on ff.net. So utterly ironic.
Even my forays into more serious writing hasn't helped. "Eyes Like Mine" suffers from stilted writing and desperately needs rewriting. And "Ah! Sakura-sama", I just have no idea what to write next.
However, perhaps the fic I've been planning for nearly a year and a half might help assauge my feelings.
"Winter Sonata" is a Yuugiou fic that revolves around the covoluted family dynamics of half-siblings, Anzu Mazaki and Katsuya Jounouchi as well as the guy that comes between them, Seto Kaiba. There's incest, suicidal warnings, abuse, rape, plain raw angst, and eventual character death. It is a depressing work, so it's basically my cup of tea.
Not ff.net's.
Well, there's always mediaminer.
On another note, I am disappointed in my report card. A 92 average will not get anybody anywhere in this godforsaken world. And I need a job to feed my sweets habit.
Life is so miserable to me.
I can not bring myself to finish the fanfiction languishing in my account. When I compare my writing from this year to my amauteurish style developed in 6th grade in those fics...I just can't type a single word on Word. The stories are no longer "masterpieces" to me, but are the shallow, devoid-of-plot fics that I abhor seeing on ff.net. So utterly ironic.
Even my forays into more serious writing hasn't helped. "Eyes Like Mine" suffers from stilted writing and desperately needs rewriting. And "Ah! Sakura-sama", I just have no idea what to write next.
However, perhaps the fic I've been planning for nearly a year and a half might help assauge my feelings.
"Winter Sonata" is a Yuugiou fic that revolves around the covoluted family dynamics of half-siblings, Anzu Mazaki and Katsuya Jounouchi as well as the guy that comes between them, Seto Kaiba. There's incest, suicidal warnings, abuse, rape, plain raw angst, and eventual character death. It is a depressing work, so it's basically my cup of tea.
Not ff.net's.
Well, there's always mediaminer.
On another note, I am disappointed in my report card. A 92 average will not get anybody anywhere in this godforsaken world. And I need a job to feed my sweets habit.
Life is so miserable to me.