Friends or Frauds
Okay well what would you rather have, people who pretend to be your friend or none at all. This is a hard decision to make. To have a "friend" that only calls you when they need something or have already found out that everybody else is busy that night. One that knows that have pissed you off and walks away figuring by the next time they need something you will have forgotten or will be so desperate that you wont care anymore. Someone who repeatedly uses you over and over and you don't care because they are the only one who will use you at all. You could have that or you could spend all your time alone or at the movies every weekend with your family. But then you have to chose the factor of those friends that are just your school the ones that talk to you in school and may ask for an additional ride to their house after school but that is all. They don't talk to you out of school but maybe once every month online but that is all. They may be fine for what they are worth but you start to feel lonely after awhile and you cant do anything at all but wait for school to arrive the next morning. You don't enjoy your weekends because you sit in pity reading journals online about what other people did this weekend with their friends. You know the people and you talk to them in school but never hang with them outside of algebra or history classes. It is kind of a hard to decide whether you would rather be used or lonely. Sometimes you chose both and are lonely all the time except for when you run your sisters to their friends or you even run one of the kids that you talk to in class to their friends out in no wheres ville just so you dont have to sit at home alone.
there are those times that you have to choose between "phony friends" and no friends at all. the choice either way can turn into a disaster it can take your life and destroy it. Having people that once were your friends but you hooked him up with another friend and it didnt work out so now you dont talk outside of school. Or you meet up with some people and go out and do stuff that you know you shouldnt do but do them anyway just so u can say that you hung out with them. To go to parties and dances that you werent invited to but no one cares because they dont notice you. To drive around at night and not come home til very late just so if your parents ask you where you have been you can say with friends w/o them getting curious. When your friends ask you to let them do something that you know you are not suppose to do do it anyway just so they may like you a little bit more.
Is that really worth all the pain it causes to get into trouble because you took the blame for someone just to be noticed and do stupid things for attention. Or is it better to be an unknown kid that just gets in your way and you dont really notice them or even know their name. To have friends that dont know you at all and dont like hanging out with you but other people instead although there really was room for one more person. Friends that always defend themselves and say they do hang out with you and talk to you but those really are the ones that are more school friends than anything and wish that just one day they would hang out with you. Or would you rather sit at home and do nothing at all except run errands for your parents and sisters. Maybe in a way they are both the same. Both ways you are alone for most of the time; and when you're not even if they really want to hang out with you, you think they are using you because you never hang out with them.
I would chose none rather than phony but find myself getting so desperate that I would take anyone to be a friend just to have one.
there are those times that you have to choose between "phony friends" and no friends at all. the choice either way can turn into a disaster it can take your life and destroy it. Having people that once were your friends but you hooked him up with another friend and it didnt work out so now you dont talk outside of school. Or you meet up with some people and go out and do stuff that you know you shouldnt do but do them anyway just so u can say that you hung out with them. To go to parties and dances that you werent invited to but no one cares because they dont notice you. To drive around at night and not come home til very late just so if your parents ask you where you have been you can say with friends w/o them getting curious. When your friends ask you to let them do something that you know you are not suppose to do do it anyway just so they may like you a little bit more.
Is that really worth all the pain it causes to get into trouble because you took the blame for someone just to be noticed and do stupid things for attention. Or is it better to be an unknown kid that just gets in your way and you dont really notice them or even know their name. To have friends that dont know you at all and dont like hanging out with you but other people instead although there really was room for one more person. Friends that always defend themselves and say they do hang out with you and talk to you but those really are the ones that are more school friends than anything and wish that just one day they would hang out with you. Or would you rather sit at home and do nothing at all except run errands for your parents and sisters. Maybe in a way they are both the same. Both ways you are alone for most of the time; and when you're not even if they really want to hang out with you, you think they are using you because you never hang out with them.
I would chose none rather than phony but find myself getting so desperate that I would take anyone to be a friend just to have one.