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so i kno its been a LONG while .. like .. really long while .. but thats cool .. lets see .. whats new?? i live in burlington now .. and i fucking hate it .. im always depressed .. and i have stomach cramps .. and just a whole buncha shit .. and its no good .. im fuckin stressed likea mother fucker .. and its just not any good .. since ive been back ive been bawling my eyes out .. and i hate that .. i honestly just do .. i just wish for a day tha ti could go back to the old me .. that was happy .. the me that whenever i walked into a room i could just light it up with all my happieness and stuff .. and dam i was goin thru a buncha shyt then too, and i ALWAYS had a smile on my face .. maybe its bc rite now im not ready to be a responsible adult .. i still wanna go out and have fun .. i wanna do shit that normal 20 year olds do .. i just dont kno what that is rite now .. but i kno its not fuckin working and cleaning .. thats just about all i do .. i mean yea, sure .. ill go and kick it with my friends every once in a while .. but idk .. its different rite now .. and its different bc im different .. i wanna be me .. i wanna be like i used to be .. its just not happeneing i guess ..
wanna kno what i really want .. i wanna be 15 again .. when i didnt have a care in the world .. i mean, sure, i was grounded all the time, but i didnt care, all my friends were at my house anyways .. and sure i had drama then .. but thats whatever .. it was kids stuff .. im just so sick and tired of hurting the way that i do .. its killing me .. i cant handle it anymore! and i try to ask for help .. i do .. but its so subliminal .. bc i cant ask for help .. im one of those people who likes to fix her problems on her own, but if someone offers to help me, then ill take it .. i just wont ask for it .. bc i hate it when ppl see me depressed, im always the strong one .. but im not anymore .. im just about ready to give up .. not just about ready .. i am .. im done .. i literally can not handle it .. my body is telling me HEY! slow the fuck down ..and calm down .. itl be ok .. but i just dont listen .. i try to keep going and going and going but im not the fuckin energizer bunny ..im sandy .. the weak one .. who cant handle shit anymore .. and i hateit .. but yea .. im done bitching .. thanks for reading everyone who doesnt read this shit! LOVE YA!!
wanna kno what i really want .. i wanna be 15 again .. when i didnt have a care in the world .. i mean, sure, i was grounded all the time, but i didnt care, all my friends were at my house anyways .. and sure i had drama then .. but thats whatever .. it was kids stuff .. im just so sick and tired of hurting the way that i do .. its killing me .. i cant handle it anymore! and i try to ask for help .. i do .. but its so subliminal .. bc i cant ask for help .. im one of those people who likes to fix her problems on her own, but if someone offers to help me, then ill take it .. i just wont ask for it .. bc i hate it when ppl see me depressed, im always the strong one .. but im not anymore .. im just about ready to give up .. not just about ready .. i am .. im done .. i literally can not handle it .. my body is telling me HEY! slow the fuck down ..and calm down .. itl be ok .. but i just dont listen .. i try to keep going and going and going but im not the fuckin energizer bunny ..im sandy .. the weak one .. who cant handle shit anymore .. and i hateit .. but yea .. im done bitching .. thanks for reading everyone who doesnt read this shit! LOVE YA!!