If you love me, then let go of me....
I am not feeling too well today. I have an exam tonight that I should probably spend the rest of the day until the exam preparing for and an exam tomorrow that I would be amazed if I even passed. I am not excited to go home for Thanksgiving or to drive my mother's boyfriend's kids five hours with me to return home(which, may I add, picking them up is an hour and a half out of my way..so really it is going to be a six and a half hour drive). Thankfully, it's not snowing terribly like it was last year, at least not yet. I feel as if I would just like to go lay down and throw a pillow over my head and block out everything for a good two hours or more, however, my annoying and clingy roomate shall return in forty minutes and will attempt to sway me out of preparing me for my exam by offering me food, which I shall obviously decline and ignore her as she is certainly getting on my nerves. Thankfully, she has decided since one of her classes is cancelled tomorrow that she will simply skip the other and go home today. For this decision of her's....I am very grateful as it allows me to spend time with my friends next door without her complaining "They don't like me and I feel so left out when you go over there." I, of course, feel terrible everytime I go over there and come back to her crying about how terribly left out she feels so then I feel as if I have to sneak around. I realise that she needs to grow up and all but I don't have it in my heart to walk in to her crying. So, after my exam I shall hang out with my suitemates and have a grand ole time.
I have decided, now listening to the new Evanescence CD, that this CD simply furthers my idea that I am bound to marry Amy Lee. It seems with every CD Evanescence produces Amy Lee becomes more evil, yet she is not evil at all. A truly well-rounded person if you ask me. Furthermore, this new CD is all fueled off her -relationship with Seether's Shaun Morgan, who I might add, I believe is a big, hideous, drunken douche. And since the CD shuns love, I am all for it. I am going on three years of truly being single and I simply cannot remember the last time I hugged someone so I am, at this point, all for the shunning of love as I fear it will never return to me again. I believe my time with Kate was amazing, but also a curse because I know what true love is and I am not going to settle for anything less. I keep waiting for the girl when I talk to her I just know it's right. I am quite certain that when this girl comes to me, she will not come alone. As in, I am quite sure she will have a girlfriend. I tend to always fall for girls who are in some way unavailable. Proving to me, furthermore, that I am supposed to be with Amy Lee. Now, I just have to meet her in person. <3
I have decided, now listening to the new Evanescence CD, that this CD simply furthers my idea that I am bound to marry Amy Lee. It seems with every CD Evanescence produces Amy Lee becomes more evil, yet she is not evil at all. A truly well-rounded person if you ask me. Furthermore, this new CD is all fueled off her -relationship with Seether's Shaun Morgan, who I might add, I believe is a big, hideous, drunken douche. And since the CD shuns love, I am all for it. I am going on three years of truly being single and I simply cannot remember the last time I hugged someone so I am, at this point, all for the shunning of love as I fear it will never return to me again. I believe my time with Kate was amazing, but also a curse because I know what true love is and I am not going to settle for anything less. I keep waiting for the girl when I talk to her I just know it's right. I am quite certain that when this girl comes to me, she will not come alone. As in, I am quite sure she will have a girlfriend. I tend to always fall for girls who are in some way unavailable. Proving to me, furthermore, that I am supposed to be with Amy Lee. Now, I just have to meet her in person. <3