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sillyness..
so im at work monday night and my phone beeps that i got a text message. i check it and whooooooooa its my very first serious bf EVER. it really wasnt expected but not unexpected either. i mean, we have been on good speaking terms for the past 2 years. little history..
we met in high school, we went on a national cross country meet trip with AAU to Joplin Missouri. like every girl i was friends with thought he was so hot (he went to an all guys school up here called Cov Cath and they are just known for beautiful boys) but i was the one adamant that he wasnt cute..on the bus ride home, somehow he became my boyfriend and my first kiss.
we dated for 9 months and 15 days (i promise i'm not creepy for remembering that, in fact he remembers it too cuz everytime we talk and get to reminiscing, he asks me if i still remember how long we dated) anyways, it was a really good relationship. i dont ever remember being jealous, being unhappy, crying.. i just remember smiling a LOT.
then i started college, i met this guy on my xc team, and wam.. now im not blaming anyone but myself but i got a lot of pressure from all my "new" college buds to lose the younger guy and soo after a few weeks i did.
it was awful. i really hurt him. i remember getting calls at 6am before he went to school and he was just bawling. i cried a lot too. i was confused and in a time of transition and then a month later, i wanted him back but things were definitely not fixable at that time..
so i cried a lot, it took me forever to get over it but eventually the sad feelings faded and were replace by all the good memories. i remember he called me the night he left for college and wanted to meet up so we just talked for a while. we hung out once this summer. its nice, to just have someone to talk to.
its nice to actually feel like that person u spent so long with, still makes u feel like they care.
that little text message monday night, gave me some clarity into things with Lindsey. no matter how much i wish things between us were the "love movie" type THEY ARENT. they never will be. he is not any of the things that i need from a romantic relationship. we are just not compatable on that emotional level. i need someone who calls me and we have things to talk about. how did i let 2 years go by with someone and feel like they dont know anything about me?
im getting over lindsey. i am. im getting stronger mentally.
PS. I went to look at the apartment i was interested in and its so cute! I am moving out November 2nd.. love it <3
so im at work monday night and my phone beeps that i got a text message. i check it and whooooooooa its my very first serious bf EVER. it really wasnt expected but not unexpected either. i mean, we have been on good speaking terms for the past 2 years. little history..
we met in high school, we went on a national cross country meet trip with AAU to Joplin Missouri. like every girl i was friends with thought he was so hot (he went to an all guys school up here called Cov Cath and they are just known for beautiful boys) but i was the one adamant that he wasnt cute..on the bus ride home, somehow he became my boyfriend and my first kiss.
we dated for 9 months and 15 days (i promise i'm not creepy for remembering that, in fact he remembers it too cuz everytime we talk and get to reminiscing, he asks me if i still remember how long we dated) anyways, it was a really good relationship. i dont ever remember being jealous, being unhappy, crying.. i just remember smiling a LOT.
then i started college, i met this guy on my xc team, and wam.. now im not blaming anyone but myself but i got a lot of pressure from all my "new" college buds to lose the younger guy and soo after a few weeks i did.
it was awful. i really hurt him. i remember getting calls at 6am before he went to school and he was just bawling. i cried a lot too. i was confused and in a time of transition and then a month later, i wanted him back but things were definitely not fixable at that time..
so i cried a lot, it took me forever to get over it but eventually the sad feelings faded and were replace by all the good memories. i remember he called me the night he left for college and wanted to meet up so we just talked for a while. we hung out once this summer. its nice, to just have someone to talk to.
its nice to actually feel like that person u spent so long with, still makes u feel like they care.
that little text message monday night, gave me some clarity into things with Lindsey. no matter how much i wish things between us were the "love movie" type THEY ARENT. they never will be. he is not any of the things that i need from a romantic relationship. we are just not compatable on that emotional level. i need someone who calls me and we have things to talk about. how did i let 2 years go by with someone and feel like they dont know anything about me?
im getting over lindsey. i am. im getting stronger mentally.
PS. I went to look at the apartment i was interested in and its so cute! I am moving out November 2nd.. love it <3