Need inspiration / focus
I had a big post prepared but the internet is shit and lj is shit so it didn't post and lj doesn't save drafts anymore so fuck lj and fuck the internet. And Swagger.
I have a very poor attention span and get bored of things easily. When I get bored I get depressed. Lately though I've been having an increasingly difficult time concentrating and remaining focused on anything I do. I may have a serious problem, I don't know. I'd like to think not, but in my experience if it can happen to me in the shittiest way possible, that is likely what is going to happen. So maybe I have brain cancer. In the event that I don't however, I want to know how to remain focused. I lose inspiration very rapidly, especially when I run into a problem that took a lot of time to make. (That is to say I spent a lot of time fucking something up so I have no will to fix it as it would likely take just as long and result in something equally as disappointing.) So it should be easy to see my problem here. If it isn't then it is entirely impossible to describe just how difficult it is to think as me.
Used to be I could grab a cup of coffee and BOOM I'd have something done before I burned out. My whole 2009-2011 art run was coffee induced. Now that my blood level is 25% coffee it just doesn't cut it anymore. My music is old, I have no art community to get support from, my chatrooms are mostly empty and idle, and I got no drugs to keep my brain from dipping rapidly from happy and inspired to depressed and discouraged. (If I can just keep the former part up for about 2-4 hours I could get something done every day! Even comics!) I have a portfolio consisting of about 75% unfinished stuff that no one wants to look at and critique for me which gets me depressed. I don't see any way to fix my problem so that makes me more depressed. Nobody like reading about depression, so it's likely no one will read much of this. Which makes me MORE depressed. And then someone comes along and kicks my dog. And my dog gets depressed. Then it comes up to me and starts reciting Poe. And suddenly singularity.
So in the event that there is something you guys do to keep focused on a project long enough to finish it, what IS it you do? What miraculous power do these people have that can produce 2-3 pieces a week? I am starting to slip into some kind of depression again and it is very important I stave it off long enough to produce something regularly. I can't tell you how important it is that I be successful in this.
LJ YOU BETTER GODDAMN POST THIS I SWEAR. MY DOG KNOWS POE.
I have a very poor attention span and get bored of things easily. When I get bored I get depressed. Lately though I've been having an increasingly difficult time concentrating and remaining focused on anything I do. I may have a serious problem, I don't know. I'd like to think not, but in my experience if it can happen to me in the shittiest way possible, that is likely what is going to happen. So maybe I have brain cancer. In the event that I don't however, I want to know how to remain focused. I lose inspiration very rapidly, especially when I run into a problem that took a lot of time to make. (That is to say I spent a lot of time fucking something up so I have no will to fix it as it would likely take just as long and result in something equally as disappointing.) So it should be easy to see my problem here. If it isn't then it is entirely impossible to describe just how difficult it is to think as me.
Used to be I could grab a cup of coffee and BOOM I'd have something done before I burned out. My whole 2009-2011 art run was coffee induced. Now that my blood level is 25% coffee it just doesn't cut it anymore. My music is old, I have no art community to get support from, my chatrooms are mostly empty and idle, and I got no drugs to keep my brain from dipping rapidly from happy and inspired to depressed and discouraged. (If I can just keep the former part up for about 2-4 hours I could get something done every day! Even comics!) I have a portfolio consisting of about 75% unfinished stuff that no one wants to look at and critique for me which gets me depressed. I don't see any way to fix my problem so that makes me more depressed. Nobody like reading about depression, so it's likely no one will read much of this. Which makes me MORE depressed. And then someone comes along and kicks my dog. And my dog gets depressed. Then it comes up to me and starts reciting Poe. And suddenly singularity.
So in the event that there is something you guys do to keep focused on a project long enough to finish it, what IS it you do? What miraculous power do these people have that can produce 2-3 pieces a week? I am starting to slip into some kind of depression again and it is very important I stave it off long enough to produce something regularly. I can't tell you how important it is that I be successful in this.
LJ YOU BETTER GODDAMN POST THIS I SWEAR. MY DOG KNOWS POE.