stupid baseball players/other guys!
i really dont understand why guys have to act this way. i mean what makes them think their so cool? they always tell you promises they never intend on keeping, whats the point, i mean why get a girl so worked up over something if your never gonna follow through with, and its not like something stops you, its that you just told them that to make yourself sound good, or something, if you dont stick to what you say than why even say it? i mean theres really no point. do you find some sick pleasure in knowing your the one who hurt her, your the reason why she's not smiling that smile you told her you liked so much, that "made your day when you saw it"? and not only is it thoses promises that he lied about but then its the fact that even your friends can't be straight up honest with you. they go around and keep everything from you, guys have that weird mind set that makes them think that something they like we must like to and thats rarley the case, i mean ya you have things in common, but you dont like the exact same things and you dont think the same way they do. i guess it must be hard for them to grasp that concept. like you make plans with them or you at least try and when you fianly think you have it they have to go and screw the hole thing up, and its like why do i continue to hang out with you, why do i keep going back and giving in? each time it gets harder but they always seem to do something that makes me forgive them, but they wind up doing something else after that, you get mad and they want to call you the bitch. i just dont understand. i hate how all he has to do is come up and do the same thing he does everytime and i keep on forgiving him, why do i put myself through the same thing over and over again? like when everyone's around hes so mean to me but when its just me and him or the four of us everythings just great, he can so nice and seem so caring and he seems to try so hard and then it all dissapears when everyones around, or mostly when the other girls are around. i mean that always takes puts the icing on the cake, i mean why does he act like that behind closed doors and when were all there its like nothing ever happened. and why do i stand for it when i know im just gonna fall harder and get hurt more, and i know that but sometimes its like i just cant help it, i just get carried away and it happens, i dont mean for it to, cuz i always regret it later. i guess i just dont know how to handle it. *long sigh* i dont know what to do or who to act towards them anymore. baseball players/other guys blow!
the only good part of today was pe when we all sat there singing. cc was the main singer and we were backing her up. those girls always know how to make me laugh and cheer me up no matter what kind of day it is, no matter how bad. i love them so much. thankyou.