I know it fucking does not make any sense to me and the faculty is like wtf as well, so they're gonna have a look at it later. don't ask any more because you know I suck at those sort of stuff (pff and I'm supposed to be an mpa major) anyway back to why my life sucks. I am srsly hanging out with music majors because my roomy's a violin major, and her friend is a oboe major and the whole group is like cello and double bass and what the holy crap major. And mean, they're good guys and all, and really understanding and whatever, but I really should meet more mpa majors like myself. maybe once class officially starts, it'll happen. I also think me being the only international student is not helping at all. and you know, i'm like typing super fast even if i'm not really capitalizing anything. shit that just shows just how trapped i feel. anyway, the whole staff is really good to me even though they're sorta freaked that a asian is in fucking mpa and does not take esl, and every student i meet are like that as well, and even the mpa majors seemed sorta freaked because omfg i can speak english even when i'm a fucking asian. srsly i feel so secluded and such. i mean, i thought there was something like individualism that existed in fucking america? yeah? but based on the people i met, they're like 'omg i'm not in the fucking group, omg this is so sad, boohoo, i need to fucking get into a group with some random person who is not asian boohoo' shit i feel bad all over again, and i'm just gonna indulge myself with massive dopes of fic fic fic shit i feel horrid bye
well the us seems to be a two face bastardly country the last time I checked it out, so you just should tell them oh, yeah, i happen to speak english cause it's global but more to do with the fact I once lived here assholes, and oh never seen an international student before you are so sa boo hoo I mean get a fucking life. AND oh i don't happen to be in a group cause i'm fucking new or didn't that ever occur to you.
Honestly. i mean, and here i thought that they respected differences.
yeah, well obviously they don't. most kids who don't look...common or sort of look different from 'normal' teens are just sorta left out. well, that's sort of good because you can talk to those people who turn out to really pleasant people sometimes. i think i met a couple of okay mpa majors yesterday. they're new as well, and they feel really awkward about everything, so it was okay to talk to them. but i still hate this fucking country or just the people because they are so assuming. they think i sit quietly during the principle's speech because i can't speak the language. i just want to say just die to them. anyway, i have to serve dinner today because i'm doing fucking community service, so i have to have a cap or they'll just make me wear a hairnet, which i am never gonna have over my head. please tell me this is somehow going to work out, because if not i may die of all the strange diseases in the world although that makes absolutely no sense nor has any relevancy
yeah, thanks for the...reassurance. I won't give up, no. anyway, i'm not exactly being shy here...strange, but I'm not really shy, just..awkward with people whom i don't know. you know, i met quite a bit people who are into hp and another couple of people into hp fandom. funny lots of them are into twilight(neighbors who are music majors) and some are into gossip girl, but they seem too bitchy so i'm not really gonna try and get to know them. there are lots of theatre majors here, only strangely enough, i don't think most of them are good. most of them...aren't that good, strange. anyway, i'm just gonna continue to indulge myself with whatever i need and i also need to buy some crazy stuff like grip gloves for my major. did you know that? it's just sorta wierd, and another thing that's weird is that our 'weekends' are monday and sunday instead of sunday and saturday. weird.
that IS weird, oh and I suppose people who watch gossip girl might tend to be bitchy, since gossip girl is made of....bitchiness?
Well the people who like twilight obviously should get a life and that's not being biased, that's like, dude you didn't read too many fucking books in your life now is good as any.
Ask them if they even liked the fourth book. If they do, they are stupid and too inferior for you.
yeah they say and i quote 'well, a lot of ppl didn't like the forth book, but it was just unexpected as for me. It wasn't that bad.' don't worry i don't need to hang out much with them because they're music majors.
what we do...hmm let me think. we direct in our junior and senior years, we learn how to use lighting, sounds, stage and etc, we have to be out filming in all sorts of weathers so we need clothing for practically every climate existent, we sometimes perform ourselves, we spend long hours with really bastardish composing majors who think they are oh so genius when they aren't, we also spend a great deal writing stupid screen plays, and we also need to cope with really loud theatre majors, sometimes we need to draw the settings and other times we have to discuss just what sort of dance we want with silly dancers that's pretty much all.
oh and you know what's on the top ten things i miss? my bed. this one is just too saggy for my bloody liking.
anyway back to why my life sucks.
I am srsly hanging out with music majors because my roomy's a violin major, and her friend is a oboe major and the whole group is like cello and double bass and what the holy crap major. And mean, they're good guys and all, and really understanding and whatever, but I really should meet more mpa majors like myself. maybe once class officially starts, it'll happen. I also think me being the only international student is not helping at all.
and you know, i'm like typing super fast even if i'm not really capitalizing anything. shit that just shows just how trapped i feel.
anyway, the whole staff is really good to me even though they're sorta freaked that a asian is in fucking mpa and does not take esl, and every student i meet are like that as well, and even the mpa majors seemed sorta freaked because omfg i can speak english even when i'm a fucking asian.
srsly i feel so secluded and such. i mean, i thought there was something like individualism that existed in fucking america? yeah? but based on the people i met, they're like 'omg i'm not in the fucking group, omg this is so sad, boohoo, i need to fucking get into a group with some random person who is not asian boohoo' shit
i feel bad all over again, and i'm just gonna indulge myself with massive dopes of fic fic fic shit i feel horrid
bye
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Honestly. i mean, and here i thought that they respected differences.
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most kids who don't look...common or sort of look different from 'normal' teens are just sorta left out. well, that's sort of good because you can talk to those people who turn out to really pleasant people sometimes.
i think i met a couple of okay mpa majors yesterday. they're new as well, and they feel really awkward about everything, so it was okay to talk to them.
but i still hate this fucking country or just the people because they are so assuming. they think i sit quietly during the principle's speech because i can't speak the language. i just want to say just die to them.
anyway, i have to serve dinner today because i'm doing fucking community service, so i have to have a cap or they'll just make me wear a hairnet, which i am never gonna have over my head.
please tell me this is somehow going to work out, because if not i may die of all the strange diseases in the world although that makes absolutely no sense nor has any relevancy
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Don't give up cause that's not you. Or it's not going to be you from now on.
I mean, the first time is always hard. Just smile and try to speak up so they'll know you know something called english. they'll respect you for it.
when in US, do what americans do. As in, being shy is not cool.
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anyway, i'm not exactly being shy here...strange, but I'm not really shy, just..awkward with people whom i don't know.
you know, i met quite a bit people who are into hp and another couple of people into hp fandom. funny
lots of them are into twilight(neighbors who are music majors) and some are into gossip girl, but they seem too bitchy so i'm not really gonna try and get to know them.
there are lots of theatre majors here, only strangely enough, i don't think most of them are good. most of them...aren't that good, strange.
anyway, i'm just gonna continue to indulge myself with whatever i need and i also need to buy some crazy stuff like grip gloves for my major. did you know that? it's just sorta wierd, and another thing that's weird is that our 'weekends' are monday and sunday instead of sunday and saturday. weird.
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Well the people who like twilight obviously should get a life and that's not being biased, that's like, dude you didn't read too many fucking books in your life now is good as any.
Ask them if they even liked the fourth book. If they do, they are stupid and too inferior for you.
Gloves huh? What exactly DO you do?
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don't worry i don't need to hang out much with them because they're music majors.
what we do...hmm let me think.
we direct in our junior and senior years, we learn how to use lighting, sounds, stage and etc, we have to be out filming in all sorts of weathers so we need clothing for practically every climate existent, we sometimes perform ourselves, we spend long hours with really bastardish composing majors who think they are oh so genius when they aren't, we also spend a great deal writing stupid screen plays, and we also need to cope with really loud theatre majors, sometimes we need to draw the settings and other times we have to discuss just what sort of dance we want with silly dancers
that's pretty much all.
oh and you know what's on the top ten things i miss? my bed. this one is just too saggy for my bloody liking.
okay fic time yay
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