update
I'm finally happy again. Not that I've been unhappy- but I'm especially happy today because today is the first day in a long time that I've had a chance to breathe and just relax.
I woke up at about 10:30, had breakfast, helped my dad assemble his Fathers day gift, went to the super market, and did the unthinkable... Watched tv. Free time, I mean where I'm not obligated to work, run errands or go out, but just compltely free, is RARE. I miss it. I miss the feeling of no one expecting me to be somewhere or do something, just for one day. Even if only for a few hours.
I'm new to this world of M-F full time. I've taken outside work too to get extra cash, and when I'm not doing that I'm committing to some get together, some errands, some something. Its exhausting. I'm a very odd person who becomes stressed and very uncomfortable with always being asked to do something, or being expected to do something. Sometimes I just need to be. No phone, no appointments, no schedule. One day, thats all. I'm not asking for much. It drives me crazy how busy I've been.
I went to the doctor because of my throbbing headaches, most of which apparently are stress induced. I'm just feeling like there is too much weight on my shoulders. So I ask someone, ANYONE, is this normal? Is this what everyone goes through when they stop being the part time worker/student and become the person who is trying to build up a career? Is it normal to work 6 days a week often? To work all day until 6pm, not even go home, but go out until 11 ish several nights a week. In other words to leave the house at 9am and not come back until 14 hrs later several times a week? And top it off by not getting the two days off you're suppose to, and then the one day you do get is half filled with errands and then most likely with feeling exhausted and still forcing yourself to go out because, after all, you are 22 and it a weekend night.
Well besides my venting, things have been good. I graduated which is awesome. I'm very excited about not having to deal with the school thing anymore. At least not for a whilllle. Went to Vegas for Uve's bachlorette party. She had a blast and we all had fun too, despite certain things. Gonna have another Vegas trip coming up soon. I'm excited about it. I need to have a vacation and Vegas is quite the place to unwind.
Back to another gripe. I'm soooo sick of people who always invite themselves places. And its not once or twice, but everytime. So you're put in a position where either you have to bite the bullet and invite the person, or lie about going because God forbid you mention you went somewhere or did something, or plan to, because that certain person will give you endless shit about why you didn't invite them, or worse- invite themselves. I'm sick of it. I try and be polite and just not mention my plans but apparently thats not enough. Apparently I have to actually look them in the face and say "I don't want you to go because you bug me, and others" otherwise they just don't get it. Its amazing. I could not return 500 phone calls and they still don't get it. I'm being hounded down. I'm not that nice of a person, you'll find a better friend in someone else probably, so just get the clue and stop harassing me, k?
If I have to hear, "I wanna go...", "You didn't tell me you were going to....", "how come you don't call me", etc one more time. I'll kill somebody. I swear. I'll appreciate advice on how to sever a "friendship" nicely please because past ways I've done it have really turned bitter and messy and reallly ugly.
I'm done venting, really I am.
I woke up at about 10:30, had breakfast, helped my dad assemble his Fathers day gift, went to the super market, and did the unthinkable... Watched tv. Free time, I mean where I'm not obligated to work, run errands or go out, but just compltely free, is RARE. I miss it. I miss the feeling of no one expecting me to be somewhere or do something, just for one day. Even if only for a few hours.
I'm new to this world of M-F full time. I've taken outside work too to get extra cash, and when I'm not doing that I'm committing to some get together, some errands, some something. Its exhausting. I'm a very odd person who becomes stressed and very uncomfortable with always being asked to do something, or being expected to do something. Sometimes I just need to be. No phone, no appointments, no schedule. One day, thats all. I'm not asking for much. It drives me crazy how busy I've been.
I went to the doctor because of my throbbing headaches, most of which apparently are stress induced. I'm just feeling like there is too much weight on my shoulders. So I ask someone, ANYONE, is this normal? Is this what everyone goes through when they stop being the part time worker/student and become the person who is trying to build up a career? Is it normal to work 6 days a week often? To work all day until 6pm, not even go home, but go out until 11 ish several nights a week. In other words to leave the house at 9am and not come back until 14 hrs later several times a week? And top it off by not getting the two days off you're suppose to, and then the one day you do get is half filled with errands and then most likely with feeling exhausted and still forcing yourself to go out because, after all, you are 22 and it a weekend night.
Well besides my venting, things have been good. I graduated which is awesome. I'm very excited about not having to deal with the school thing anymore. At least not for a whilllle. Went to Vegas for Uve's bachlorette party. She had a blast and we all had fun too, despite certain things. Gonna have another Vegas trip coming up soon. I'm excited about it. I need to have a vacation and Vegas is quite the place to unwind.
Back to another gripe. I'm soooo sick of people who always invite themselves places. And its not once or twice, but everytime. So you're put in a position where either you have to bite the bullet and invite the person, or lie about going because God forbid you mention you went somewhere or did something, or plan to, because that certain person will give you endless shit about why you didn't invite them, or worse- invite themselves. I'm sick of it. I try and be polite and just not mention my plans but apparently thats not enough. Apparently I have to actually look them in the face and say "I don't want you to go because you bug me, and others" otherwise they just don't get it. Its amazing. I could not return 500 phone calls and they still don't get it. I'm being hounded down. I'm not that nice of a person, you'll find a better friend in someone else probably, so just get the clue and stop harassing me, k?
If I have to hear, "I wanna go...", "You didn't tell me you were going to....", "how come you don't call me", etc one more time. I'll kill somebody. I swear. I'll appreciate advice on how to sever a "friendship" nicely please because past ways I've done it have really turned bitter and messy and reallly ugly.
I'm done venting, really I am.