Still dreaming of an answer
But slowly getting over it. There's no such thing as owing someone an explanation after all. Makes it sound like a debt. What a person should do or ought to do is very different from what a person has to do after all. Cried my tears, dealt with the shadows under my eyes (felt kind of like a racoon with those), curled up in a ball. Then started to get over it. Got over the disbelief, the anger, getting over the dissapointment. Completely over my crushes now. Moving several times as a child and having others move around you makes it easier to move on. Never pleasant. And it doesn't lessen the pain or make it go away faster. But getting up and smiling is easier, the tears are less frequent, and the days are easier to get through. I've got my smile to act as my armor and as long as I have that I'll get better.