Shadows
Dedicated to MON THE BON BON?! <3
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SHADOWS (yehanhae)
Their’s was a relationship born and flourished in the shadows. By day, Donghae hugged Eunhyuk and held hands with Leeteuk. He laughed with Yunho and played pranks on Siwon and dragged Kibum around with him everywhere. Donghae was free and bubbly and loved by everyone.
But in the shadows, the soft cocoon of peace amid all the noise, just as they go on stage and in the welcoming dark of the dorms, Donghae belonged to Yesung. Yesung, who rarely even touched Donghae in front of the others, touched him in private. In the shadows, it was Yesung who those precious kisses, the scorching touches were exclusively for. That was their little place, so secretive that no one else knew, no one else could ever breach it. The shadows were where they loved and their love existed.
It hurt to watch as his lover moving among others, loving everyone but him, but Yesung has always been able to deal with the pain, because he knew they shared something that belonged to only the two of them. Everytime he looked at the shadows, he felt secure in the knowledge that he was the only one Donghae loved.
Yesung smiles awkwardly as he watch his lover walk towards them in the airport, his hand firmly clasped in the SJM leader’s. Hankyung had smiled warmly at him and Yesung couldn’t even feel anger at the man, because he wasn’t doing anything wrong, not when he didn’t even know about their love, their hidden relationship. So he only looks away as they cuddle in the van on the way back home, and tries to think about anything but the fact that Donghae hasn’t even looked at him yet. But he stops smiling, stops pretending, stops breathing as he watches the two of them dance at the welcome back party at the dorms later that night, because they’re dancing, together, looking every bit like starstruck lovers. But it wasn’t the fact that they were standing so close, or that Donghae was smiling so brightly or that they were inches away from making out, but the fact that they were doing it in the shadows.
The shadows that belonged only to the two of them, their secret haven, the very foundations on which Yesung had built his world. The shadows into which Donghae had invited a stranger. A world that was not even real anymore, because now it wasn’t him Donghae was kissing, it wasn’t his hands that Donghae was clasping. Their world was not sacred anymore, their love means nothing and for the first time, Yesung is scared of the shadows that descend on him that night.
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SHADOWS (yehanhae)
Their’s was a relationship born and flourished in the shadows. By day, Donghae hugged Eunhyuk and held hands with Leeteuk. He laughed with Yunho and played pranks on Siwon and dragged Kibum around with him everywhere. Donghae was free and bubbly and loved by everyone.
But in the shadows, the soft cocoon of peace amid all the noise, just as they go on stage and in the welcoming dark of the dorms, Donghae belonged to Yesung. Yesung, who rarely even touched Donghae in front of the others, touched him in private. In the shadows, it was Yesung who those precious kisses, the scorching touches were exclusively for. That was their little place, so secretive that no one else knew, no one else could ever breach it. The shadows were where they loved and their love existed.
It hurt to watch as his lover moving among others, loving everyone but him, but Yesung has always been able to deal with the pain, because he knew they shared something that belonged to only the two of them. Everytime he looked at the shadows, he felt secure in the knowledge that he was the only one Donghae loved.
Yesung smiles awkwardly as he watch his lover walk towards them in the airport, his hand firmly clasped in the SJM leader’s. Hankyung had smiled warmly at him and Yesung couldn’t even feel anger at the man, because he wasn’t doing anything wrong, not when he didn’t even know about their love, their hidden relationship. So he only looks away as they cuddle in the van on the way back home, and tries to think about anything but the fact that Donghae hasn’t even looked at him yet. But he stops smiling, stops pretending, stops breathing as he watches the two of them dance at the welcome back party at the dorms later that night, because they’re dancing, together, looking every bit like starstruck lovers. But it wasn’t the fact that they were standing so close, or that Donghae was smiling so brightly or that they were inches away from making out, but the fact that they were doing it in the shadows.
The shadows that belonged only to the two of them, their secret haven, the very foundations on which Yesung had built his world. The shadows into which Donghae had invited a stranger. A world that was not even real anymore, because now it wasn’t him Donghae was kissing, it wasn’t his hands that Donghae was clasping. Their world was not sacred anymore, their love means nothing and for the first time, Yesung is scared of the shadows that descend on him that night.