Carousel of Time
Disclaimer: don't own any of them sadly
Each of the paragraph is from one of the members, but they're all directed or about Hankyung. yes i do have a geng bias. bite me. =)
I didn't include names, because I thought it would be more interesting, although some of them should be obvious. Feel free to make guesses/ask!
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CAROUSEL OF TIME
I reach for you and hug you close, and you smile. A happy smile. A smile that hurts because it’s the same smile you give to your mother.
You vouched for my character, despite knowing all the consequences that could follow. My heart burns with gratitude and something else, but it thuds painfully because I know you are only doing this as my friend. Like you would for any of the others.
I don’t know whether to admire you or to be jealous. Your long slender legs, strong slim muscles. I don’t know whether this feeling is because I like you, or because I want to be like you.
I watch as you glide and swirl across the practice room, the stage. You land powerfully, with a thud on the floor and a bang in my heart.
You’re our strong leader and it makes me guilty if I do something naughty, but I do it anyway. It’s the only way I get your attention.
When you move you look like an eagle, a ballet dancer and an angel all in one. You radiate grace, beauty, vulnerability. I move forward helplessly, the urge to cling to you is powerful and I have no defenses against it. I never have with you.
You say you don’t like my new hair. I tell you to piss off. I watch the hurt in your eyes and Siwon’s comforting hand on yours. And I love my hair that little bit more, as I blink back prickling tears behind it.
I watch your gentle, kind eyes as they glide protectively and warmly over others, always putting them before yourself. It makes me want to protect you, to be your guardian angel, even if it means I have to go to heaven first.
I watch as you lean back in the trolley, to talk to Kyuhyun behind you. Never have I wished to be there with everyone more. I clench my hands to stop them from reaching out and pushing the entire trolley away, far away where there’s no one else to steal you away from me.
It always lurks around, sly and menacing. Constantly searching for the right opportunity to drag me down into its dark oblivion. A warm smile and the cup of hot coffee you push into my hand, makes the shadows fade away.
I frown in relief and confusion. I peer into your eyes and all you do is smile back. I wonder why you don’t hear it. After all, it’s so painfully loud to me…the pounding of my heart at your presence.
I preferred acting to dancing, being a gentleman to a playful kid, girls to guys, Korean to Chinese, religious devotion to forbidden love. A smile, a dance, soft whispered words and your hand in mine. That was all it took from you to change my everything.
Each of the paragraph is from one of the members, but they're all directed or about Hankyung. yes i do have a geng bias. bite me. =)
I didn't include names, because I thought it would be more interesting, although some of them should be obvious. Feel free to make guesses/ask!
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CAROUSEL OF TIME
I reach for you and hug you close, and you smile. A happy smile. A smile that hurts because it’s the same smile you give to your mother.
You vouched for my character, despite knowing all the consequences that could follow. My heart burns with gratitude and something else, but it thuds painfully because I know you are only doing this as my friend. Like you would for any of the others.
I don’t know whether to admire you or to be jealous. Your long slender legs, strong slim muscles. I don’t know whether this feeling is because I like you, or because I want to be like you.
I watch as you glide and swirl across the practice room, the stage. You land powerfully, with a thud on the floor and a bang in my heart.
You’re our strong leader and it makes me guilty if I do something naughty, but I do it anyway. It’s the only way I get your attention.
When you move you look like an eagle, a ballet dancer and an angel all in one. You radiate grace, beauty, vulnerability. I move forward helplessly, the urge to cling to you is powerful and I have no defenses against it. I never have with you.
You say you don’t like my new hair. I tell you to piss off. I watch the hurt in your eyes and Siwon’s comforting hand on yours. And I love my hair that little bit more, as I blink back prickling tears behind it.
I watch your gentle, kind eyes as they glide protectively and warmly over others, always putting them before yourself. It makes me want to protect you, to be your guardian angel, even if it means I have to go to heaven first.
I watch as you lean back in the trolley, to talk to Kyuhyun behind you. Never have I wished to be there with everyone more. I clench my hands to stop them from reaching out and pushing the entire trolley away, far away where there’s no one else to steal you away from me.
It always lurks around, sly and menacing. Constantly searching for the right opportunity to drag me down into its dark oblivion. A warm smile and the cup of hot coffee you push into my hand, makes the shadows fade away.
I frown in relief and confusion. I peer into your eyes and all you do is smile back. I wonder why you don’t hear it. After all, it’s so painfully loud to me…the pounding of my heart at your presence.
I preferred acting to dancing, being a gentleman to a playful kid, girls to guys, Korean to Chinese, religious devotion to forbidden love. A smile, a dance, soft whispered words and your hand in mine. That was all it took from you to change my everything.