waiting on ricky
I hate waiting on Ricky. I've been waiting on him for the
past 5 hours. I really hate this but there is nothing I
can do about it. We were suspose to got busch gardens
today. And like always he cancels plans or sleeps in or
has some elaborate excuse. I rarely ever ask to do things
with him. And when I do he blows it off. Thats the thing
I won't miss at all when hes gone.
Me and my mom have been talking today. About my brother
being screwed out in New York. She is proud he tried. I
wish shed be proud of me. I guess I'm just abit jealous
because I always felt she was on his side. And I was the
black sheep because my dad raped her and I was like the
burden for life. She thinks I'm only here because I'm too
lazy to be anywhere else. I'm honestly thinking about just
ditching this house as soon as I can get on my feet.
Because no one here respects me. Even my mom says I'm a
selfish bastard, and maybe I am. Sorry if I look out for
myself once and a while but thats the best way to keep
sane. Who here has never been commited?
And then theres Amber. Last time I talked to her I told
her that I was upset with the way she was treating me. Not
to be greedy but if shes going to want to go out she
should find time for me. Today a friend of mine told me
about how she was out with some guys. That screwed up my
day, not because I was jealous she was out with guys but
the fact she can see everyone else in the world but me.
Its cool though, I think shes a great person but if she can't make
time for me, but she can make time for others I think I'm
done with her. But ofcourse I'll never be able to tell her
that. Because she can't find ways to communicate with
me. I hope she reads this, and I hope you have a good
time, sorry things didn't work out.
past 5 hours. I really hate this but there is nothing I
can do about it. We were suspose to got busch gardens
today. And like always he cancels plans or sleeps in or
has some elaborate excuse. I rarely ever ask to do things
with him. And when I do he blows it off. Thats the thing
I won't miss at all when hes gone.
Me and my mom have been talking today. About my brother
being screwed out in New York. She is proud he tried. I
wish shed be proud of me. I guess I'm just abit jealous
because I always felt she was on his side. And I was the
black sheep because my dad raped her and I was like the
burden for life. She thinks I'm only here because I'm too
lazy to be anywhere else. I'm honestly thinking about just
ditching this house as soon as I can get on my feet.
Because no one here respects me. Even my mom says I'm a
selfish bastard, and maybe I am. Sorry if I look out for
myself once and a while but thats the best way to keep
sane. Who here has never been commited?
And then theres Amber. Last time I talked to her I told
her that I was upset with the way she was treating me. Not
to be greedy but if shes going to want to go out she
should find time for me. Today a friend of mine told me
about how she was out with some guys. That screwed up my
day, not because I was jealous she was out with guys but
the fact she can see everyone else in the world but me.
Its cool though, I think shes a great person but if she can't make
time for me, but she can make time for others I think I'm
done with her. But ofcourse I'll never be able to tell her
that. Because she can't find ways to communicate with
me. I hope she reads this, and I hope you have a good
time, sorry things didn't work out.