The Moment [10/17]
Title: The Moment [10/17]
Rating: R, NC-17
Genre: Smut, Drama, Romance, Angst.
Summary: Henry just wants to figure out what true love is. With 3 men running after him, he never knows whats going to happen. But after a strong abuse from fellow band mates, Henry is afraid to admit the truth hiding in himself, and to the others. Now that Henry is back home can he ever admit to his parents about his hectic life he's been having back in Korea? Afraid of what might happen Henry turns to someone he never thought he would. How this this story play out as Henry tries to find himself.
Couples: YeHen, broken!HenHae, EunHae, various ninja couples >>
WARNING: This story brings up a lot of ONLY13, Forever15. PLEASE Do not comment on this subject Eh it's kinda over.
Henry:
After Donghae let go of me I didn't even bother looking back. I couldn't look at him. I couldn't think of what I left the others to sit in. To deal with. How childish of me. I walked down the hallway pass my room. My eyes fell upon glaring into it. Everything that caused me problems delt with that room. I hated it. I never wanted to step foot into it again.
On the left pass my room a practice room lay. I had forced my parents to give me their office room. It was the only room with a hardwood floor. I payed for it myself after winning an award and changed the room to a dance floor so I could practice in the the room./ I stepped in the room the light flicking on and off slowly until it stayed on. The mirror still had drawings of old dance routines that I had been needing to memorize. A piano in the corner opposite with gifts from my friends lay a top it. A violin rested on it's stand near the piano. Music books flodded the back wall showing it's reflection into the mirror.
I could remember the hours upon hours I spent in this room. I could still hear the constant knockng of my parents and friends on the door. People asking when I was to come out. I had a feeling back then that what I had now, was what I always wanted, what I've always wanted to be. I practied over fourteen hours a day eating small meals before my audition.
I begged my paretns to let me audition. Buy every look they gave me seemed to have dissaproval glued to it. I always did everything they asked me to do. And the only thing I wanted from them was this.
Once I got in I left home. Not even for a second did it cross my mind I was leaving home. I was leaving my own country. After that, my parents stopped wanting to know so much and told me I betrayed them. I never understood them, and frankly I didn't want to. I knew that they didn't support me, so why should I support what they wanted.
I walked to the front where the recorder sat. I pressed play, fell to my knees and listened to the old recordings as I sat there. They music calmed me down as each song played I could hear everyong wrong note I played. I would cringe at every wrong rhythm that I had played. I tapped along to the beat anlyzing everything. As time grew I began to hum along and then, I slowly danced to the whole tape. The tape ended abruptly my heart quickly skipping a beat from suprise as a small tap could be heard on the door. I stretched as I walked to the door. I opened it staring at a thing figure. Eunhyuk stood infront of me.
"So this is where you've been hiding." He said as he slid into the room, giving off a positive side comment: "Nice rooom."
I smiled welcoming him in, closing the door behind him.
"What do you want?" I asked hoping I didn't sound mad. He laughed sitting on the piano bench.
"Everyone was worried after you left." He continued looking around.
"I'm sorry you had to sit through that." I coughed.
"It's fine, you're parents apologized and said tomorrow supper will be better." Eunhyuk smiled at me. "You should have told all of us. Leeteuk told us about your family's relationship. We would have all been there supporting you."
I smiled back at him. He seemed mor genuine than what he was usually like.
"Yesung and Donghae both are wanting to talk to you."
"Yeah, I figured." I trialed off looking up at Eunhyuk, I softly smiled. "Could you do me a favor?"
"Yeah! Sure, what?" His voice chipper.
"Take care of Donghae for me?"
Eunhyuk:
I was glad I found him before someone else. We often practiced together after practices. He'd joke around but alway have a wall around him. He'd opened up to me as he opened the door I could finally connect with him.He seemed relieved after I told him Leeteudk told us. I felt that he would deny it himself. But now he seemed more calm, more sensible.
His question continued to ring through my ears.
"Why do you ask?" I knew Donghae had feelings for Henry. Ones that I couldn't get pass, the ones I tried to remember that he once had for me.
"I used to have feelings for him..." My heart sank. "But after he lied to me after that incident. I can feel that I don't love him. I think I've moved on from what we had. I'm afraid I fell in love with Yesung."
I looked at him confused.
"I know before I got here he did love you." His eyes were slowly tearing up. "Make him realize he doesn't love me, take care of him. Show him how much you love him, show him what he left behind.
I nodded accepting the request. I had to help Donghae, and the onlly way I oculd would be to take him away from Henry- the person he loved with every inch of his body.
Donghae:
I gave up looking for Henry. I sat myself on the stairs that led to the left waiting for me to see him. I knew I let him go, and I knew I had to, to help him. But I needed to tell him exactly how I felt. I needed to know exactly why he didn't need or want me anymore.
I watched the ahllway intently waiting for him to appear. Members would brush up against me staring at me. I'd smile back and wave them on. Finally, after dosing off, Henry excited from the room with Eunhyuk at his side. I stood up facing him. Henry slowly backed up as if he was hiding behind Eunhyuk.
"Henry come on, we need to talk." I begged.
Eunhyuk stepped forward shaking his head.
"Come on Donghae, let's go." He moved twoard me. I stayed in my spot stairing Henry, not letting my eyes move off of him. "Let's go Hae, you're tired."
"No!" I yelled back. "I don't care if you hate me right now Henry, I need to know something."
Henry stared down at me. His eyes had a scent of hatred in them. They were red from crying, and I hoped it wasn't about me. I knew soon I would look like him, eyes red, tired bags under my eyes, as if a machine and ripped apart my body and soul.
"Please Henry?" I begged. I would stay there on my knees until he said yes no matter what.
"Eunhyuk, tyou can go. We do need to talk." Henry finally spoke. Eunhyuk walked pass me, paused and looked back at Henry. "Don't forget your promise."
Eunhyuk nodded and contined to walk his steps faintly dissapearing.
"What do you need to say to me?" Henry's voice stern, cold, and unwelcoming.
"Why?" I gulped. "It's all I want to know. Why did you fall for him? Why do you ignore me? Why are you leaving me on the curb in the rain with nothing left?"
He took a step down seating himself on the step. He looked down on me as if I was a lower life form to him. His yees tearing up again.
"You think I left you?" His voice showed more emotion, more feelings exposed. "You left me. When I need you most you left me. Someone I barely knew took care of me, and you took all the credit.
I took a step up wanting to be close to him. To comfort him to tell him how much I still cared.
"He loves me. He got to know me before telling me his emotions. He doesn't wait until I've moved on to tell me he loves me. He doesn't lie to me!" He paused. Both of our faces at massive amounts of tears our cheeks. His tear swelled up before leaving his cheek bones, and roll downl softly. "He doesn't use me for sex."
I stared at him feeling as if my heart was completely gone.
"Anything else?" He snuffled.
"I've been trying to tell you that I love you for the longest time." I stood up for myself hoping he'd see it.
"When!? How!?"
"I wanted to but after the accidnt with Leeteuk I kept to myself. I didn't want to confuse you." I stopped taking a deep breath holding back my tears. "And the next thing I knew I feel like I'm hurting you so I backed off, and all of a sudden your getting lovey dovey with Yesung. And you're slowly leaving me and Wook is telling me you hate me. That you think I'm lying to you.
Henry looked at me acrying as hard as I wanted. I was holding them back to show how strong I was. To show him he should return to myside so I could protect.
"So do you love me?” He asked softly.
“I love you more than you think.” I smiled. He hung his head letting out a hard brush of tears, and the looked up at me. His hair hid his face, letting his eyes seem emotionless.k
“I’m sorry but I don’t love you. I ended up falling in love with Yesung. Now please-fall out of love with me.” I stood up and walked away without saying another word to him.
HIs last words sounded like a harsh demand I knew I had to obey. I swore that in that moment I would leave Henry to be, forever, no matter how much I wanted to be with him.
Henry:
It hurt to confront Donghae. I didn’t want to think it was his fault, but he did lie to me. He made me believe he would do anything for me. But he wouldn’t let me out, he kept me locked up in his lies. His eyes kept on watering up. He made it hard for me to look at him. Sharp pains exploded in my chest as he stood up and turned around, his back facing me.
“I don’t care what you say Henry.” I had the urge to run up to him to make him face me when he talked to me. But I didn’t want to turn back the past. “I will love you no matter what. Rip out my heart and keep it. I hope you and Yesung have a good ride, because I won’t be here for when he hurts you.”
I could hear him slowly walk away it was like soft music leaving. I felt alone as if no one could be there for me. But then again who would want to be with me?
I was spoiled, brainwashed, and I only thought of myself. I felt like I had betrayed the one person who had been there for me. I knew I still had Yesung. He was someone who did give me happiness, and support. Someone who I fetl absolutly complete with.
A/N: I promise the next part will have smut and a totally lame metaphor comparing Henry to pond fish. >> Anyway! The confrontation we have all been waiting for. Henry vs. Donghae! Oh! And someone new gets a word or two in.
Rating: R, NC-17
Genre: Smut, Drama, Romance, Angst.
Summary: Henry just wants to figure out what true love is. With 3 men running after him, he never knows whats going to happen. But after a strong abuse from fellow band mates, Henry is afraid to admit the truth hiding in himself, and to the others. Now that Henry is back home can he ever admit to his parents about his hectic life he's been having back in Korea? Afraid of what might happen Henry turns to someone he never thought he would. How this this story play out as Henry tries to find himself.
Couples: YeHen, broken!HenHae, EunHae, various ninja couples >>
WARNING: This story brings up a lot of ONLY13, Forever15. PLEASE Do not comment on this subject Eh it's kinda over.
Henry:
After Donghae let go of me I didn't even bother looking back. I couldn't look at him. I couldn't think of what I left the others to sit in. To deal with. How childish of me. I walked down the hallway pass my room. My eyes fell upon glaring into it. Everything that caused me problems delt with that room. I hated it. I never wanted to step foot into it again.
On the left pass my room a practice room lay. I had forced my parents to give me their office room. It was the only room with a hardwood floor. I payed for it myself after winning an award and changed the room to a dance floor so I could practice in the the room./ I stepped in the room the light flicking on and off slowly until it stayed on. The mirror still had drawings of old dance routines that I had been needing to memorize. A piano in the corner opposite with gifts from my friends lay a top it. A violin rested on it's stand near the piano. Music books flodded the back wall showing it's reflection into the mirror.
I could remember the hours upon hours I spent in this room. I could still hear the constant knockng of my parents and friends on the door. People asking when I was to come out. I had a feeling back then that what I had now, was what I always wanted, what I've always wanted to be. I practied over fourteen hours a day eating small meals before my audition.
I begged my paretns to let me audition. Buy every look they gave me seemed to have dissaproval glued to it. I always did everything they asked me to do. And the only thing I wanted from them was this.
Once I got in I left home. Not even for a second did it cross my mind I was leaving home. I was leaving my own country. After that, my parents stopped wanting to know so much and told me I betrayed them. I never understood them, and frankly I didn't want to. I knew that they didn't support me, so why should I support what they wanted.
I walked to the front where the recorder sat. I pressed play, fell to my knees and listened to the old recordings as I sat there. They music calmed me down as each song played I could hear everyong wrong note I played. I would cringe at every wrong rhythm that I had played. I tapped along to the beat anlyzing everything. As time grew I began to hum along and then, I slowly danced to the whole tape. The tape ended abruptly my heart quickly skipping a beat from suprise as a small tap could be heard on the door. I stretched as I walked to the door. I opened it staring at a thing figure. Eunhyuk stood infront of me.
"So this is where you've been hiding." He said as he slid into the room, giving off a positive side comment: "Nice rooom."
I smiled welcoming him in, closing the door behind him.
"What do you want?" I asked hoping I didn't sound mad. He laughed sitting on the piano bench.
"Everyone was worried after you left." He continued looking around.
"I'm sorry you had to sit through that." I coughed.
"It's fine, you're parents apologized and said tomorrow supper will be better." Eunhyuk smiled at me. "You should have told all of us. Leeteuk told us about your family's relationship. We would have all been there supporting you."
I smiled back at him. He seemed mor genuine than what he was usually like.
"Yesung and Donghae both are wanting to talk to you."
"Yeah, I figured." I trialed off looking up at Eunhyuk, I softly smiled. "Could you do me a favor?"
"Yeah! Sure, what?" His voice chipper.
"Take care of Donghae for me?"
Eunhyuk:
I was glad I found him before someone else. We often practiced together after practices. He'd joke around but alway have a wall around him. He'd opened up to me as he opened the door I could finally connect with him.He seemed relieved after I told him Leeteudk told us. I felt that he would deny it himself. But now he seemed more calm, more sensible.
His question continued to ring through my ears.
"Why do you ask?" I knew Donghae had feelings for Henry. Ones that I couldn't get pass, the ones I tried to remember that he once had for me.
"I used to have feelings for him..." My heart sank. "But after he lied to me after that incident. I can feel that I don't love him. I think I've moved on from what we had. I'm afraid I fell in love with Yesung."
I looked at him confused.
"I know before I got here he did love you." His eyes were slowly tearing up. "Make him realize he doesn't love me, take care of him. Show him how much you love him, show him what he left behind.
I nodded accepting the request. I had to help Donghae, and the onlly way I oculd would be to take him away from Henry- the person he loved with every inch of his body.
Donghae:
I gave up looking for Henry. I sat myself on the stairs that led to the left waiting for me to see him. I knew I let him go, and I knew I had to, to help him. But I needed to tell him exactly how I felt. I needed to know exactly why he didn't need or want me anymore.
I watched the ahllway intently waiting for him to appear. Members would brush up against me staring at me. I'd smile back and wave them on. Finally, after dosing off, Henry excited from the room with Eunhyuk at his side. I stood up facing him. Henry slowly backed up as if he was hiding behind Eunhyuk.
"Henry come on, we need to talk." I begged.
Eunhyuk stepped forward shaking his head.
"Come on Donghae, let's go." He moved twoard me. I stayed in my spot stairing Henry, not letting my eyes move off of him. "Let's go Hae, you're tired."
"No!" I yelled back. "I don't care if you hate me right now Henry, I need to know something."
Henry stared down at me. His eyes had a scent of hatred in them. They were red from crying, and I hoped it wasn't about me. I knew soon I would look like him, eyes red, tired bags under my eyes, as if a machine and ripped apart my body and soul.
"Please Henry?" I begged. I would stay there on my knees until he said yes no matter what.
"Eunhyuk, tyou can go. We do need to talk." Henry finally spoke. Eunhyuk walked pass me, paused and looked back at Henry. "Don't forget your promise."
Eunhyuk nodded and contined to walk his steps faintly dissapearing.
"What do you need to say to me?" Henry's voice stern, cold, and unwelcoming.
"Why?" I gulped. "It's all I want to know. Why did you fall for him? Why do you ignore me? Why are you leaving me on the curb in the rain with nothing left?"
He took a step down seating himself on the step. He looked down on me as if I was a lower life form to him. His yees tearing up again.
"You think I left you?" His voice showed more emotion, more feelings exposed. "You left me. When I need you most you left me. Someone I barely knew took care of me, and you took all the credit.
I took a step up wanting to be close to him. To comfort him to tell him how much I still cared.
"He loves me. He got to know me before telling me his emotions. He doesn't wait until I've moved on to tell me he loves me. He doesn't lie to me!" He paused. Both of our faces at massive amounts of tears our cheeks. His tear swelled up before leaving his cheek bones, and roll downl softly. "He doesn't use me for sex."
I stared at him feeling as if my heart was completely gone.
"Anything else?" He snuffled.
"I've been trying to tell you that I love you for the longest time." I stood up for myself hoping he'd see it.
"When!? How!?"
"I wanted to but after the accidnt with Leeteuk I kept to myself. I didn't want to confuse you." I stopped taking a deep breath holding back my tears. "And the next thing I knew I feel like I'm hurting you so I backed off, and all of a sudden your getting lovey dovey with Yesung. And you're slowly leaving me and Wook is telling me you hate me. That you think I'm lying to you.
Henry looked at me acrying as hard as I wanted. I was holding them back to show how strong I was. To show him he should return to myside so I could protect.
"So do you love me?” He asked softly.
“I love you more than you think.” I smiled. He hung his head letting out a hard brush of tears, and the looked up at me. His hair hid his face, letting his eyes seem emotionless.k
“I’m sorry but I don’t love you. I ended up falling in love with Yesung. Now please-fall out of love with me.” I stood up and walked away without saying another word to him.
HIs last words sounded like a harsh demand I knew I had to obey. I swore that in that moment I would leave Henry to be, forever, no matter how much I wanted to be with him.
Henry:
It hurt to confront Donghae. I didn’t want to think it was his fault, but he did lie to me. He made me believe he would do anything for me. But he wouldn’t let me out, he kept me locked up in his lies. His eyes kept on watering up. He made it hard for me to look at him. Sharp pains exploded in my chest as he stood up and turned around, his back facing me.
“I don’t care what you say Henry.” I had the urge to run up to him to make him face me when he talked to me. But I didn’t want to turn back the past. “I will love you no matter what. Rip out my heart and keep it. I hope you and Yesung have a good ride, because I won’t be here for when he hurts you.”
I could hear him slowly walk away it was like soft music leaving. I felt alone as if no one could be there for me. But then again who would want to be with me?
I was spoiled, brainwashed, and I only thought of myself. I felt like I had betrayed the one person who had been there for me. I knew I still had Yesung. He was someone who did give me happiness, and support. Someone who I fetl absolutly complete with.
A/N: I promise the next part will have smut and a totally lame metaphor comparing Henry to pond fish. >> Anyway! The confrontation we have all been waiting for. Henry vs. Donghae! Oh! And someone new gets a word or two in.