My health is still crappy
So I owe the world a load of Dubai and Africa pictures, but I have been legitimately and seriously ill for the past month and a half. When I get home, all I want to do is forget my life, talk to the boy or escape into fantasy. Recently, the fantasy has been reading Stephen King novels--HOLY CRAP, It is AMAZING. It's like 20th Century Boys. Well, more like 20th Century Boys is like It. It probably comes as no surprise to a lot of my friends that I pretty much ADORE Stephen King, so my enjoyment of It comes as no surprise. To find that it also reminds me of one of my all time favorite manga? Makes me wish I'd read it sooner! But it is still making me happy.
I won't say much about work--sufficient to say some things have not improved and is only making my physical condition worse. As to the health problems.....better than when I started, but more of a plateau then improvement. I would explain, but I think it's sufficient to say it was NOT e.coli. Or maybe that just set off a chain reaction. In any case, there have been indicators previously of symptoms, but while serious at the moment (some things are just unpleasant), it's not going to kill me. I have a feeling I'm in for some medical unpleasantness in the month ahead, so your prayers and good will would be much obliged.
All of this brings me to the crux of the matter--my boyfriend is pretty amazing. He's worried, he asks about my health when we talk....he knows some details but some things you just don't tell your significant other. No matter how gross the detail and you feel the need to share. And yeah, Mom, I have spared you and EVERYONE IN THE WORLD the grossest detail. (until the doctor inevitably asks again, and unlike before I can answer, FOR THE LOVE OF GOD I WISH I DID NOT KNOW).
But my boyfriend....he's pretty awesome. We've been dating for almost an entire year now (December 11th is the anniversary of our first date, we are headed to Disney for the anniversary of where we first met--and also where he first kissed me). It's been this amazing journey, in life and in our relationship. It hits me sometimes--with all the absolute shit that has hit us in the past month--my illness, someone we considered important to us both dropping from our lives, tiny little arguments here an there.....I don't think I would trade ANY of my time with him to change history. I thought about it from a new perspective tonight and was blown away. We'll see if I can't actually stick with this revelation--I AM human, and I do err. Honestly though, my concern is getting healthy--hopefully within the next month, I can do that.
But somehow....I met this guy. And he was kinda okay. But then I saw he was reading a Forgotten Realms novel. And I knew then that I wanted to talk to him more than the others I came with--I saw him as a kindred spirit who knew what a tabletop game was, and what a d20 was.
What I didn't know then, was that eventually? I'd fall in love with him as well.
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