Jan 16, 2010 15:33
We get to talking about volunteering. You say you don't understand how people can't just donate a few hours of time during the week. I tell you that I just can't get myself to volunteer. I tell you my reasons.
You go on and on. Shooting down every 'excuse' I've made. I know they're excuses. I'm acknowledging my hypocrisy. You're not. I saw your point. I agreed with you. I told you that part of my reasons are because I feel like I just don't have enough time. Your response: "Would you really be doing homework, or would you be playing Super Mario?"
I can't help but feel annoyed. The reason I play Super Mario is to unwind. To take a break from my books.
I admire people who volunteer. I admire them for having more courage than I do. But I just can't do it. Anytime I do any type of volunteer work, it makes me depressed. It makes me depressed to see people who are in need. Maybe that's hypocritical, but I accept that fact. I can't accept the fact that there are people in this world who have next to nothing. It will make my life seem meaningless.
But regardless. I can't confront you. I know that if I do, it'll just be another conversation, with me on the defensive, and that will drive a rift between us. I can't allow that to happen. I have to live with you for the next few months.
So I'm going to try and swallow this one.
Your 'holier than thou' attitude is not a good color on you.
...to choke you now.
holier than thou,
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