14 → MLST 2.0
Well, this was for mlst, but that got deleted. :\ It was fine last I looked. *sigh* Oh well. Since I already went through the trouble of putting this together, I'll just post it here. ♥ It's dorky enough as it is.
Well, it's been almost a couple years, and things have changed. Not drastically - I'm still pretty much the same, but I've grown some, I've lost and gained friends, and things around me have changed. Not mention my hair. I've pulled myself out of a depression, but I'm still facing what I left behind because of it. I've still have a lot of road ahead of me, but I've gone forward a bit.
I'd still say that my first MLST still applies to me in many ways, and I still relate with a lot of songs. But, I wanted to give an update, and give a better view of how I feel now.
Anyway, after sorting through this thing for a few months and finally picking a reasonable song list that I liked, here is my second My Life Soundtrack.
WHEN I WAS AN ASTRONAUT; MY LIFE SOUNDTRACK 2.0
01 Muse - Muscle Museum
Can you see that I have needed
Begging for so much more
Than you could ever give
And I don’t want you to adore me
Don’t want you to ignore me
When it pleases you
And I’ll do it on my own
I want to stand on my own as my own person, but I rely too heavily on others to do that. My failures always seem like a big deal to me, and I hate it when other people point them out. And Muse! I LOVE Muse! ♥♥ *smacked*
02 Tool - Vicarious
Eye on the TV
'cause tragedy thrills me
Whatever flavour
It happens to be like;
Killed by the husband
Drowned by the ocean
Shot by his own son
She used the poison in his tea
And kissed him goodbye
That's my kind of story
It's no fun 'til someone dies
What can I say? I'm vicarious, just like every other human being. I love a good sad story, one that really gets my emotions and mind reeling. Although, I love fluffy stuff just as much. Tragedy and human emotions are a big muse for me though, and I love to watch a rather difficult story fold out wonderfully. That, and I always seem to fall in love with the character that ends up dying. :|
03 Rilo Kiley - A Better Son/Daughter
Sometimes in the morning I am petrified and can’t move
Awake but cannot open my eyes
And the weight is crushing down on my lungs
I know I can’t breathe
And I hope someone will help me this time
And your mother’s still calling you insane and high
Swearing it’s different this time
And you tell her you give in to the demons that possess her
And that God never blessed her insides
Then you hang up the phone
And feel badly for upsetting things
Crawl back into bed to dream of a time
When your heart was open wide
I want to better myself, but I often over think it and get into fights with those I care about, especially my mum. I've gotten better, but I'll still tend to hide behind myself to try and pull through in any way I can. And throw fits when I get under too much pressure...
04 Ben Kweller - How It Should Be (Sha Sha)
When I was an astronaut I bought a fancy charm.
I thought you'd like it but you called it "cheap" and at my feet it fell like...
So sue me, it's up to me if I decide to be what I think is right.
And don't bother me when I'm watching Planet of the Apes on TV.
That's right. That's how it should be.
This song reminds me of random memories from my childhood. Plus, I wanted to be an astronaut and probably always will.
05 Feist - One Two Three Four
Sleepless long nights
That is what my youth was for
Old teenage hopes are alive at your door
Left you with nothing but they want some more
Oh, you're changing your heart
Oh, you know who you are
My brief stint with teenaged love failed spectacularly, and most of my teenage years were whittled away while I wasted time. Now that I'm a year away from twenty, it's almost ironic to look back on them and wonder what I could have done. That, and I get this song stuck in my head like mad. D:
06 Evanescence - Call Me When You're Sober
Couldn't take the blame
sick with shame
Must be exhausting to lose your own game
selfishly hated, no wonder you're jaded-
you can't play the victim this time
and you're too late
For more my mum than me, but I still really connect with this song. Just over a few years ago, my relationship with my dad hit it's bottom point, when his drinking took control of his life enough to make him want to kill himself. Even though he's much better, and finally wanting to be a real part of my life, much of the trust I had for him when I was little was lost, and I'm still finding it hard to get it all back.
07 Heather Nova - Virus of the Mind
It's just a virus of the mind
I'm pretty happy, living in my
My own sweet time, living in my
Yeah I'm pretty happy, and I don't need your
Virus of the mind
I don't exactly fit into what's normal, especially for my age group. I've always been a bit out of the loop, and I've never understood the dying 'need' to be exactly what everyone wants to be.
08 Bloc Party - Like Eating Glass
And I know that you're busy too
I know that you care
You got your finger on the pulse
You got your eyes everywhere
And it hurts all the time when you don't return my calls
And you haven't got the time to remember how it was
It's so cold in this house
It's so cold in this house
I hate being ignored or forgotten, but that seems to be the norm with the friends group I've kept for five years now. I'm moving on, but it still hurts when they forget to call or see me. And it really is very cold in my house.
09 Eisely - Marvelous Things
Oh what marvelous things
But they are, they are, they are giving me the creeps
Dark night hold tight and sleep tight my baby
Morning light shall burst bright and keep us here safely
Oh lying in the sun
everyday feeling all of the magic in life,
You might find the wonder...
I have a love of the strange and supernatural, and my dreams and ideas will often revolve around them. At the same time, they scare the crap out of me. ;;
10 Queen & David Bowie - Under Pressure
It's the terror of knowing
What this world is about
Watching some good friends
Scream "Let me out!"
Pray tomorrow takes me higher
Honestly, I put this on here because I got it on a meme. *hit* But, I do love this song, and I'm not good under pressure. *sweat*
11 Paramore - Let The Flames Begin
Somewhere weakness is our strength
and I'll die searching for it,
Can't let myself regret such selfishness
My pain and all the trouble caused,
now matter how long
I believe that there's hope
buried beneath it all
I try my best to be hopeful, even if it's usually my own self that gets me down. I wouldn't say I tend to look on the bright side of things, but I usually have a rather hopeful outlook. I want to grow and learn more, and not let each failure in my life bring me down. ♥
12 Jimmy Eat World - The World You Love
I've got a story, it's almost finished
Now all I need is someone to tell it to
And maybe that's you
Our time is borrowed, it's spent too freely
Every minute I have needs to be made up
But how
I'm looking for a nice way to say I'm out
I want out
I fall asleep with my friends around me
The only place I know I feel safe
I'm gonna call this home
I'm growing older, but I'll probably always stay the same in some way. I rather relate to this song - minus the parts about doing drugs - especially how the world keeps changing, but you keep going on.
.ZIP
SENDSPACE & MEDIAFIRE
Now that I've finished making a complete fool of myself, I hope you enjoy this. :| *hit*
Well, it's been almost a couple years, and things have changed. Not drastically - I'm still pretty much the same, but I've grown some, I've lost and gained friends, and things around me have changed. Not mention my hair. I've pulled myself out of a depression, but I'm still facing what I left behind because of it. I've still have a lot of road ahead of me, but I've gone forward a bit.
I'd still say that my first MLST still applies to me in many ways, and I still relate with a lot of songs. But, I wanted to give an update, and give a better view of how I feel now.
Anyway, after sorting through this thing for a few months and finally picking a reasonable song list that I liked, here is my second My Life Soundtrack.
WHEN I WAS AN ASTRONAUT; MY LIFE SOUNDTRACK 2.0
01 Muse - Muscle Museum
Can you see that I have needed
Begging for so much more
Than you could ever give
And I don’t want you to adore me
Don’t want you to ignore me
When it pleases you
And I’ll do it on my own
I want to stand on my own as my own person, but I rely too heavily on others to do that. My failures always seem like a big deal to me, and I hate it when other people point them out. And Muse! I LOVE Muse! ♥♥ *smacked*
02 Tool - Vicarious
Eye on the TV
'cause tragedy thrills me
Whatever flavour
It happens to be like;
Killed by the husband
Drowned by the ocean
Shot by his own son
She used the poison in his tea
And kissed him goodbye
That's my kind of story
It's no fun 'til someone dies
What can I say? I'm vicarious, just like every other human being. I love a good sad story, one that really gets my emotions and mind reeling. Although, I love fluffy stuff just as much. Tragedy and human emotions are a big muse for me though, and I love to watch a rather difficult story fold out wonderfully. That, and I always seem to fall in love with the character that ends up dying. :|
03 Rilo Kiley - A Better Son/Daughter
Sometimes in the morning I am petrified and can’t move
Awake but cannot open my eyes
And the weight is crushing down on my lungs
I know I can’t breathe
And I hope someone will help me this time
And your mother’s still calling you insane and high
Swearing it’s different this time
And you tell her you give in to the demons that possess her
And that God never blessed her insides
Then you hang up the phone
And feel badly for upsetting things
Crawl back into bed to dream of a time
When your heart was open wide
I want to better myself, but I often over think it and get into fights with those I care about, especially my mum. I've gotten better, but I'll still tend to hide behind myself to try and pull through in any way I can. And throw fits when I get under too much pressure...
04 Ben Kweller - How It Should Be (Sha Sha)
When I was an astronaut I bought a fancy charm.
I thought you'd like it but you called it "cheap" and at my feet it fell like...
So sue me, it's up to me if I decide to be what I think is right.
And don't bother me when I'm watching Planet of the Apes on TV.
That's right. That's how it should be.
This song reminds me of random memories from my childhood. Plus, I wanted to be an astronaut and probably always will.
05 Feist - One Two Three Four
Sleepless long nights
That is what my youth was for
Old teenage hopes are alive at your door
Left you with nothing but they want some more
Oh, you're changing your heart
Oh, you know who you are
My brief stint with teenaged love failed spectacularly, and most of my teenage years were whittled away while I wasted time. Now that I'm a year away from twenty, it's almost ironic to look back on them and wonder what I could have done. That, and I get this song stuck in my head like mad. D:
06 Evanescence - Call Me When You're Sober
Couldn't take the blame
sick with shame
Must be exhausting to lose your own game
selfishly hated, no wonder you're jaded-
you can't play the victim this time
and you're too late
For more my mum than me, but I still really connect with this song. Just over a few years ago, my relationship with my dad hit it's bottom point, when his drinking took control of his life enough to make him want to kill himself. Even though he's much better, and finally wanting to be a real part of my life, much of the trust I had for him when I was little was lost, and I'm still finding it hard to get it all back.
07 Heather Nova - Virus of the Mind
It's just a virus of the mind
I'm pretty happy, living in my
My own sweet time, living in my
Yeah I'm pretty happy, and I don't need your
Virus of the mind
I don't exactly fit into what's normal, especially for my age group. I've always been a bit out of the loop, and I've never understood the dying 'need' to be exactly what everyone wants to be.
08 Bloc Party - Like Eating Glass
And I know that you're busy too
I know that you care
You got your finger on the pulse
You got your eyes everywhere
And it hurts all the time when you don't return my calls
And you haven't got the time to remember how it was
It's so cold in this house
It's so cold in this house
I hate being ignored or forgotten, but that seems to be the norm with the friends group I've kept for five years now. I'm moving on, but it still hurts when they forget to call or see me. And it really is very cold in my house.
09 Eisely - Marvelous Things
Oh what marvelous things
But they are, they are, they are giving me the creeps
Dark night hold tight and sleep tight my baby
Morning light shall burst bright and keep us here safely
Oh lying in the sun
everyday feeling all of the magic in life,
You might find the wonder...
I have a love of the strange and supernatural, and my dreams and ideas will often revolve around them. At the same time, they scare the crap out of me. ;;
10 Queen & David Bowie - Under Pressure
It's the terror of knowing
What this world is about
Watching some good friends
Scream "Let me out!"
Pray tomorrow takes me higher
Honestly, I put this on here because I got it on a meme. *hit* But, I do love this song, and I'm not good under pressure. *sweat*
11 Paramore - Let The Flames Begin
Somewhere weakness is our strength
and I'll die searching for it,
Can't let myself regret such selfishness
My pain and all the trouble caused,
now matter how long
I believe that there's hope
buried beneath it all
I try my best to be hopeful, even if it's usually my own self that gets me down. I wouldn't say I tend to look on the bright side of things, but I usually have a rather hopeful outlook. I want to grow and learn more, and not let each failure in my life bring me down. ♥
12 Jimmy Eat World - The World You Love
I've got a story, it's almost finished
Now all I need is someone to tell it to
And maybe that's you
Our time is borrowed, it's spent too freely
Every minute I have needs to be made up
But how
I'm looking for a nice way to say I'm out
I want out
I fall asleep with my friends around me
The only place I know I feel safe
I'm gonna call this home
I'm growing older, but I'll probably always stay the same in some way. I rather relate to this song - minus the parts about doing drugs - especially how the world keeps changing, but you keep going on.
.ZIP
SENDSPACE & MEDIAFIRE
Now that I've finished making a complete fool of myself, I hope you enjoy this. :| *hit*