Memories
So, I found my old PC backups, from 2003+. Some neat stuff on them that brought back pleasant memories, but most of it was painful, and unpleasant to consider. Like, some old AIM logs I kept, for some silly reason. Maybe I thought she'd come back. Maybe I hoped. But, I know that hope is silly, and Hikaru will never return. *shrugs some* Part of me is glad, because I cannot think of many fond memories. At first, anyway. But there were good times, and I thank Hikaru for teaching me alot of things.
I do miss you, Hikaru-chan. I probably always will. But, I have to move on, and I'm going to. I'm almost ready to start my classes. Just need books and the little things like that. I'm going to do my best, and I'm not going to let anyone down anymore, like I have such a tendancy to do. I'm going to do this. I have to do this. Not for my friends or my family, but for 'me'. I matter too, no matter what some people might want me to think.
I am important, damnit.
And I'm going to be someone.
That's it, I guess. I'm tired of being noone.
I do miss you, Hikaru-chan. I probably always will. But, I have to move on, and I'm going to. I'm almost ready to start my classes. Just need books and the little things like that. I'm going to do my best, and I'm not going to let anyone down anymore, like I have such a tendancy to do. I'm going to do this. I have to do this. Not for my friends or my family, but for 'me'. I matter too, no matter what some people might want me to think.
I am important, damnit.
And I'm going to be someone.
That's it, I guess. I'm tired of being noone.