Another day another pound....
There is a fly buzzing around the room.
It is like a meatball with wings. To kill or not to kill?
One good thing about attending the gym each night is for once I am alone in my thoughts whilst jogging, swimming or lying in the sauna ... whatever I am doing I suddenly have time to think inside my own head about whatever random crap I am looking at.
Had a great workout tonight and then went to sit in the Steam room .. drippy wet hotness ... and saw the most beautiful, wonderfully formed chinese woman, her body was to die for, not a thing wrong with it. I hope to be as wonderful as that one day, I sat tehre wns witnessed her sit in a tight ball and pinch at her skin as if assessing fat .. it was the saddest thing I had ever witnessed, someone that beautiful actually picking at themselves. I know beauty is in the eye of the beholder, but she was stunning. I sat and watched her sadly and silently warned myself to not let this weight loss get too far and to always love myself, then she started singing "Aint no mountain high enough" and I lost interest and she became just another annoyance in my Sauna/Steam room/ Jacuzzi debate.
WHY CAN I NEVER JUST RELAX IN THOSE?
Not a lot else to report, got a ton of job opportunities coming up and I am trying to remain positive after breaking with the man I loved. It as been 3 months now and still stings sometimes but I am strong. I will move on. Somehow.
Gok Wan ... hes a tad annoying really, going around grabbing womans boobs and sayin "Fabulous".
If I walked around grabbing mens cocks and commenting on those I can bet I would be in a heap of trouble!!!!
I wonder if you get to a point with friends that it has to stop? I have recently had a rather vicious nark with a close friend and was quiet insulted by their attitude and what they viciously text me ..... and am at the point of thinking I dont want to pursue this. I dont want to be spoken to like that by anyone, just because you have known me for years doesnt give you the right to dump on me because you are having a hard time. I am your friend, and therefore deserve respect. Not abuse.