The start of a new blog...

[shibaaaaaaal]

It's been a long time since I've written in a blog, but I guess there's no harm in picking it up again. This is really just for my own benefit -- I need to record these things because I have horrible long-term memory (take that, future Marlowe who is reading this). And only one other person is ever going to read this, probably (take that, Blacksoul). Where to start? Well, I did say I was going to plonk down a list of goals and things for 2010. I'm not a big fan of those. Know why?  I'll start by plumbing the depths of my documents folder to see if I had any journal entries I'd written last year. Oh, here we go - one from 25/03/09. Wow, quite a few ambitions and projects I'd written about (I must have been in an optimistic mood) and one or two actually accomplished at most. That's why I never see the point in writing out lists of things to do in the new year.

I'll just grin and bear it:

• Study harder (surprise) and don't get distracted so much
• Get a proper job (still have to follow up on that English tutoring gig)
• L2Drive
• Go on outings to interesting places. (Maybe inside NSW. Maybe outside. Who knows)
• Start a new grow
• Write a meaty non-fanfic story
• Become less socially awkward
• Get the motivation to do all of the above (not going to happen)
• I think that's enough points

And for the hell of it, things I'm surprised that happened to me in between the start of 2009 and now:

• I've become a squealing fangirl, the very thing I've scorned for all these years
• I like more shootan games
• I am getting into the internet meme culture somewhat, as you can tell by the point above
• I signed up for a finance major and now I will have to figure out how to start giving a shit about the stock market or whatever. Honestly, I'm apathetic. It's all one big rat race: finance people split their time between bobbing their heads up and down like retarded parrots as they stare at rising and falling graph lines, and swimming in champagne and pissing on homeless people.
• I am still full of hatred that bursts out of me at awkward times, like the point above.

I'm laying off the porn for a while because I'm bored of it (short of writing my very sick, twisted fetishes, which, while it holds fascination for me, is not something anyone else wants to read). Besides, I agree with the f!s community that ye olde things called "friendship", "fluff", and "bromance" are being unjustly ignored by the fandoms as of late.  Insert obligatory complaint here: I find it hard to write gen fic because the plot goes all over the place and eventually loses steam. It's not as easy as a slash fic, which has a clear, simple structure, you know? Get a pairing and kink. Bit of backstory first, then initiation of sex, build-up, climax, afterglow. Not like a gen-fic which more, well, plateaus, with blips of excitement here and there. Suffice it to say, I am experiencing a bit of mild writer's block with my Rochelle-centric gen fic, but I'll keep at it.

P.S. That damn game makes me want to travel/move to America... so I could add a little authenticity to my fanfics. For fuck's sake. But damn you gotta admit... America's just hella cool.

That's enough babble for tonight.

Blacksoul, I know you're going to slap me around until I do everything on that list, aren't you.