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so many grammar & spelling mistakes in that last post. sorree.
& its kind of novel like...
heres a run through of it, so you needn't read it;
got fired. got angry. got calmer. had a good day in valley. photos of trees, very good chocolate brought home, um... work. night with lover. fire at 5am. shopping today. wrong bus. no school work done.
& im tired as fuck. & i ahve a cold, and am enjoying at night with my mother, cuz its the coolest thing to do.
aarrg.
ps; i havn't felt this peaceful, or calm, or alive in such a long fucking time. i think, ive been angry for about 15 years & i can feel it shedding off me. i feel new & like i can handle it. all of it. i'll manage. i love you. & if you're thinking im not talking to you, you right there, i am.
im not a air headed lovesick fool, i know something great is happening right now, but i know this isnt the only reason im feeling so very okay. its cuz of you. cuz if you're on this friends list, you matter to me. in one way or another.
yknow those times, where you feel almost thankful to be here, you feel like its okay to be alive, and you'd like to stay for as long as you can? i feel like that now.
ive given up on the idea of dying young. i plan too many things starting with "when im old im going to.." so, wrinkles it is. fuck dying pretty. just make sure last goodbye is played at my funeral folks :)
& its kind of novel like...
heres a run through of it, so you needn't read it;
got fired. got angry. got calmer. had a good day in valley. photos of trees, very good chocolate brought home, um... work. night with lover. fire at 5am. shopping today. wrong bus. no school work done.
& im tired as fuck. & i ahve a cold, and am enjoying at night with my mother, cuz its the coolest thing to do.
aarrg.
ps; i havn't felt this peaceful, or calm, or alive in such a long fucking time. i think, ive been angry for about 15 years & i can feel it shedding off me. i feel new & like i can handle it. all of it. i'll manage. i love you. & if you're thinking im not talking to you, you right there, i am.
im not a air headed lovesick fool, i know something great is happening right now, but i know this isnt the only reason im feeling so very okay. its cuz of you. cuz if you're on this friends list, you matter to me. in one way or another.
yknow those times, where you feel almost thankful to be here, you feel like its okay to be alive, and you'd like to stay for as long as you can? i feel like that now.
ive given up on the idea of dying young. i plan too many things starting with "when im old im going to.." so, wrinkles it is. fuck dying pretty. just make sure last goodbye is played at my funeral folks :)