finally updating
its actually funny in a way but i feel like i can only write in this thing when im upset or pissed off...but i wont get into that but i am writing bc im so aggrivated that i just need to keep typing...yea so lifes been pretty boring, i never mentioned i dnt think that sat when i went to the carni i went on the zipper twice, once with bass another with lynell! but yeah so monday sucked, mondays suck i came home napped for 2 hours and stuff like t hat today is tuesday same thing then wednesday i had a whole afternoon of subs...free periods, i had lunch, then math-sub..., history-sub...,bio sub, then weigal wasnt here for gym but we still had to play sball with nielson..oh well. i hate sball for gym ppl take it too serious its annoying...umm then after school me kate and danielle went to pinellis then to the baseball game and some other ppl were there too...then i left around like 5:20 and stuff...now im sitting here watching the OC cuz american idol just ended. i need to give a huge ass shout out to my favorite person lena sotnick..shes the best person ever, such a sweetheart...i love her soo----ooo much...
nothing new has really happened...i wanna go to my cousins tmrw night and skip school friday but i highly doubt its happening. for once im acutally siked abt the weekend cuz i kinda hav a clue to wat im doin i think im chillin with kate logreco trish and whoever and we're gonna get drunkkkkkkkkkkkkk...itll b some good times. yea then saturday probably nothing cuz like i always say ppl suck which they def do. and im pretty confused right now with something in my life...am i being used? idk...we'll soon c...but yeah...i just hate the fact that wenever something good is happening in my life, well not particurally good but like wenever im fine and happy and satisified it all gets taken away from me for silly things like maybe i dont deserve it and thats why im always jynxed...just makes me really upset. i still cannot go a day without crying and the part thats sad abt it is theres always a reason i cry i dont just do it for fun? ugh...no1 gets me and ppl r pissing me off and its just not the same...why me??
nothing new has really happened...i wanna go to my cousins tmrw night and skip school friday but i highly doubt its happening. for once im acutally siked abt the weekend cuz i kinda hav a clue to wat im doin i think im chillin with kate logreco trish and whoever and we're gonna get drunkkkkkkkkkkkkk...itll b some good times. yea then saturday probably nothing cuz like i always say ppl suck which they def do. and im pretty confused right now with something in my life...am i being used? idk...we'll soon c...but yeah...i just hate the fact that wenever something good is happening in my life, well not particurally good but like wenever im fine and happy and satisified it all gets taken away from me for silly things like maybe i dont deserve it and thats why im always jynxed...just makes me really upset. i still cannot go a day without crying and the part thats sad abt it is theres always a reason i cry i dont just do it for fun? ugh...no1 gets me and ppl r pissing me off and its just not the same...why me??