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So, yah, tomorrow is the first day of school. Woo-Hoo... (not!).
I guess I'm a bit excited, and I know that I'll love it once I'm doing it, but right now I'm just "blah, I don't want to begin school".
The thing that I don't look forward to is the extreme business.
Although, it's good for me to be busy... it keeps me from thinking too much and being left alone to my thoughts and feelings...
So, I'm about to be busy for like a while.
I know I won't be on here much, not that I ever am, but I really won't be on here much.
I just need to stay focused on school, but not lose focus on Jesus. I need to keep Him my first priority, and not look away.
I'm going to have Dr. Walker as my Humanities teacher this year. He is such a terrific guy, but very lost and alone when it comes to God and spiritual things. He is an existentialist, and basically doesn't "believe anything". I just pray that God will use me if it be His will, to reach out to Dr. Walker. Who knows, maybe God will work through me to bring this man to Him... not that there is anything in me that would prompt someone to come to Christ, but maybe the fact that I, yes folks, I have been saved. Me of all people?! If I were God, i would have like given up on me or tossed me aside. But no, God in His astounding mercy and magnanimus love called me and turned my hard heart to Him... and He is slowly (painfully slow at times!) molding me to be like Jesus. This I cannot wait for... this is my highest aim and highest goal: to please Him who gave His life for me.
In Him is my greatest joy. I just am stupid and rebellious and do not realize it at times. Charles Spurgeon once said:
"If we think we love you more than we do, help us to love you more than we think."
That is my prayer. I may think I'm loving God and doing "allright!", but I may really be dishonoring Him with my mind or actions or whatsoever it may be. Yet when I am really loving God and really following Him, I am not realizing it. I do not settle for where I am, I want to love Him more... may I never be satisfied with my spiritual status, but always begging for renovation!!!
I pray, sweet Jesus, that you would be my all, my one love, one passion, and one desire.
You are the one with whom my soul belongs... You are the one who keeps my soul close though I may feel far away...
Yea, you are the one who wipes away sorrow and gives me joy even though I grieve greatly...
Turn this sorrow into joy, these tears into tears of laughter...
Many may ask: "Why do you laugh when you are sad?" or "Why be happy when life is so hard"...
Why, because I HAVE SO MUCH MORE THAN I DESERVE!!!
I have been FREED FROM HELL!!! Hello!!! Why should I not be happy and joyful?!
My Lord has not commanded me to be solemn... why, He has risen from the dead!!!
My entire life must be one endless laugh of gratitude to Him.
I strive not only to glorify Him in my life and song... but in my joy.
For He is the ultimate joy; He is the priceless prize!!!
If Jesus is not sweet to me, then everything else is bitter.
If Jesus is not my first love, then all other loves turn to hate.
If Jesus is not my highest joy, then all other joys are petty.
He must be my all!!!
For though I am nothing, in Him I find that I am still nothing, but He is everything, and in that I am content.
I guess I'm a bit excited, and I know that I'll love it once I'm doing it, but right now I'm just "blah, I don't want to begin school".
The thing that I don't look forward to is the extreme business.
Although, it's good for me to be busy... it keeps me from thinking too much and being left alone to my thoughts and feelings...
So, I'm about to be busy for like a while.
I know I won't be on here much, not that I ever am, but I really won't be on here much.
I just need to stay focused on school, but not lose focus on Jesus. I need to keep Him my first priority, and not look away.
I'm going to have Dr. Walker as my Humanities teacher this year. He is such a terrific guy, but very lost and alone when it comes to God and spiritual things. He is an existentialist, and basically doesn't "believe anything". I just pray that God will use me if it be His will, to reach out to Dr. Walker. Who knows, maybe God will work through me to bring this man to Him... not that there is anything in me that would prompt someone to come to Christ, but maybe the fact that I, yes folks, I have been saved. Me of all people?! If I were God, i would have like given up on me or tossed me aside. But no, God in His astounding mercy and magnanimus love called me and turned my hard heart to Him... and He is slowly (painfully slow at times!) molding me to be like Jesus. This I cannot wait for... this is my highest aim and highest goal: to please Him who gave His life for me.
In Him is my greatest joy. I just am stupid and rebellious and do not realize it at times. Charles Spurgeon once said:
"If we think we love you more than we do, help us to love you more than we think."
That is my prayer. I may think I'm loving God and doing "allright!", but I may really be dishonoring Him with my mind or actions or whatsoever it may be. Yet when I am really loving God and really following Him, I am not realizing it. I do not settle for where I am, I want to love Him more... may I never be satisfied with my spiritual status, but always begging for renovation!!!
I pray, sweet Jesus, that you would be my all, my one love, one passion, and one desire.
You are the one with whom my soul belongs... You are the one who keeps my soul close though I may feel far away...
Yea, you are the one who wipes away sorrow and gives me joy even though I grieve greatly...
Turn this sorrow into joy, these tears into tears of laughter...
Many may ask: "Why do you laugh when you are sad?" or "Why be happy when life is so hard"...
Why, because I HAVE SO MUCH MORE THAN I DESERVE!!!
I have been FREED FROM HELL!!! Hello!!! Why should I not be happy and joyful?!
My Lord has not commanded me to be solemn... why, He has risen from the dead!!!
My entire life must be one endless laugh of gratitude to Him.
I strive not only to glorify Him in my life and song... but in my joy.
For He is the ultimate joy; He is the priceless prize!!!
If Jesus is not sweet to me, then everything else is bitter.
If Jesus is not my first love, then all other loves turn to hate.
If Jesus is not my highest joy, then all other joys are petty.
He must be my all!!!
For though I am nothing, in Him I find that I am still nothing, but He is everything, and in that I am content.